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Pronounces: he/him
BD: February 20, 2014
Species: tulpa/shadromancer
Orientation: demisexual
Voiceprovider: Dima Tumaly
VB type: CV/VCV/CVC/Arpasing
VB lang: Japanese/English/Russian

Kaj Llingvam


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- Oh, don't pretend you don't remember!
"Then your love dies", Chapter 23. Jonquil –Stranger–


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He is an aristocrat, but prefers not to flaunt it, believing that such a status has its pluses and minuses. Usually balanced and calm, but he can also get violent if he gets disturbed enough. Sometimes he can be slow, sleep a lot, behaves differently with different people (can "point on the rights" and bluff when he knows that the person below him in status, and vice versa, to drift strongly to those who are higher. In any case, remains a bit selfish, and will do anything only if it does not hurt himself). Sometimes experiences moments when he seems like a hopeless child to himself. He has no education, and is fond of mysticism and all sorts of anti-science crap. He loves reading and drawing (his favorite medium is watercolor). He is highly moral, but is prone to black humor, which he considers absolutely normal. In communication he is caustic, has his own point of view on everything, which he expresses immediately. He would be irritated when his point of view is not taken into consideration or something does not go according to plan.
However, behind the prickly and cold exterior actually hides the usual vulnerable tsundere.


pre-shado ark

Was created as an esper by an elf named Teodor Medea. Later, when their world undergoes the intervention of DUAU and becomes an extraordinary point of aElm's rebirth, Teodor becomes attached to this reincarnation of aElm, and as a result, binds the esper to him. After that, Kaj suffers the first memory failure, which is why he perceives Theo as a rival, and generally runs away from the settlement. He wanders for a long time, until he, already exhausted, is again found by Emmanuel, the reincarnation of aElm. In general, at that time, Kaj was glad to see him, and joined his journey, becoming his reliable companion and support, especially in difficult moments for him. During his return to the settlement, he had to carry an artifact, the staff of the Reaper, since the staff debilitated ordinary people. However, under the influence of the artifact, Kai goes mad, escapes again, taking it with him, and to top it off, at the peak of insanity, he kills his creator, Teodor. After that, he fights with Emmanuel, and loses the staff due to the fact that Emmanuel breaks it. Kaj immediately comes to his senses, realizing what he has done. He stays with Emmanuel in the settlement, until the moment when aElm's roof starts to leak again. They leave the settlement again, and after a short journey, aElm again lays hands on himself and returns to Shadowsgone, switching to the state of Avier and taking Kaj with him.
In Shadowsgone, Avier interferes with the memory of the inhabitants of that world, rewriting their memory of his death, after which he interferes with Kaj's memory, after which he offers him to become his guide. Kaj refuses, causing anger and resentment in Avier. Avier, unable to control himself, after a short attempt to break and subjugate the proud esper, blocks part of his memory and sends him into exile, wandering between worlds.
During this time, Nikolas Toraitengen finds him, and accidentally returns with him to Shadowsgone, and subsequently to the ocean in general. Because of some friendship, if you can call it that, Nikolas breaks Avier's blocks and allows Kaj to regain his memory, and later completely rewrites his history in the original world, making him somewhat human.
Throughout his time as Shadowsgone's Guide, Kaj struggles to gain his full independence from the aElm, and so begins helping Shadowsgone's alternate demiurg, Tori, and convinces himself that he is merely using him and nothing more to the very last point. However, when Tori sends the aElm into his final reincarnation, Kaj realizes that his playing with his own feelings went too far. In rewriting the reality of Shadowsgone, Tori rewrites Kaj's memory for the third time, and it appears not to be the last.


shado ark

With love, was sent by Tori into rebirth directly into Shado, into the family of not the last person in the city, namely, the judge of the Blue consulate. Tori found it rather ironic to leave as his parents the elves to whom he was attached in his original world, Teodor and Emmanuel, in particular, leaves him with the memory that when traveling between worlds, he killed Teodor in a moment of losing sanity. Teo was resurrected into the Shado as a Shadromancer, but Kaj still feels indelible guilt towards him.
Life in the Shado Kaj finds unimaginably boring, which is why he seeks to break all the rules that he learns, in particular, runs away to the Red Consulate countless times, where he falls in love with a local resident. However, after somewhat half a solar cycle, his beloved becomes an unnecessary burden for his host, as a result of which he is erased by them. This traumatizes Kaj's psyche once again, and he withdraws into himself for a while, not even leaving the house. A little later, he discovers an artifact in the attic for moving between worlds, and in search of such items he stumbles upon Tori. Tori, who has long forgotten about his existence, does not recognize him, and generally takes him for a girl, because of which he lures him to the Red Consulate, making his plans. Naturally, the long-term absence of Kaj, who went out for a walk, causes a commotion in his family's house, as a result of which even Shado's consulat joins the search, and, as a result, Tori ends up on trial by the Blue Consulate for an attempted kidnapping. Feeling guilty about what happened, Kaj tries to soften the punishment for him and lies that he ran away himself in the name of great love. As a result, Tori is sentenced to be deprived of his hand and the Red Thread Oath until the end of the solar cycle, which automatically puts him in the role of servant for Kaj. The next day, still in a dazed state, Tori makes an irreparable mistake in the text of the Oath, because of which he becomes bonded to Kaj until the end of times.
For some time they live, moving between the two consulates, "grinding" to each other and investigating the mysterious events in Cog, until some problems arise with Kaj's ward dreamer, Victor, in whom Tori, not without difficulty, but recognizes the true demiurg of Shadowsgone. Victor does his best to stay in Shado to the end of times, and in one conversation he casually mentions that shortly before his deal with Tori, he disembodied Gerda and moved the core of Shadowsgone into his guide, Knyaz'. Tori knows that Kaj does not remember anything of the kind, but still, this conversation instills some panic in him, and, in the end, with another intervention in Kaj's memory, his fears are confirmed and Kaj really realizes himself in new powers, after what brings down the world built by Tori.


Post-shado ark

"Good" ending: Kaj agrees to restore Shado with Tori, after which they settle in the Red Consulate in their old apartment, and also, following Tori's old dream, they adopt two children and live happily ever after.
"Bad" ending: Kaj remembers that he's a tulpa. And choosed host's shadow, a doppelganger, to live with, 'cause he felt that host doesn't care about him much, and he was pretty much displeased by that. So, he erases whole wonderland including host's persona in it, and leaves host's shadow, Tori, instead of him. Then they woke up together in real world, where Kaj tells Tori the truth. He feels a bit guilty for what he done, however, he's also sure that he did that for good. At least he felt himself loved, when he got closer to Tori.



  • mbti INFJ
  • Height/weight 190cm/63kg
  • zodiac Pisces
  • tarot moon


  • He gives the impression of a guy of about twenty, aristocratic appearance. Facial features are generally dry, eye shape is close to Asian. Hair is often short, depending on his mood can change their length (in this case, he usually ties 'em in a ponytail). Around the left eye there is an intricate black mark (birthmark), similar marks cover the right back and right shoulder. Has two thin white horns on the head, the left one is shorter.
    Lean, his favorite poses are hands folded behind his back or locked fingers, when he sits, he often sits cross-legged. The gaze is almost always directed to the sky. When he's talking, he never looks at the interlocutor.
  • In clothes, he prefers raincoats, black or blue, as well as more or less comfortable things for himself.
  • Only family and Alter can call him by his full name. To the others, he usually introduces as Kaj or Kai, because he believes that his full name is too feminine. He gets mad when someone ignores his preference for this.
  • Kai has two characteristic objects: a chessboard and a small black notebook. The notebook is his diary, where he writes down his worries and dialogues with his own warlock doll. The chessboard was created by his father with one of his last desires, in connection with which it retains a part of his soul and makes it possible to move into his world. With the help of Hatori's amulet containing the blood of his father, the board's capabilities expand from a "one-way ticket" to a full-fledged artifact for traveling between different worlds.
  • Their relationship with Hatori is rather strange. Sometimes Kai hates him, sometimes he considers him his savior. (If it was a homestuck, it would be 100% kismesis.)
  • He does not tolerate cigarette smoke, but in extremely severe cases he himself resorts to this bad habit.
  • Age: 3 cycles (looks like 23 y.o.); 9 in real years
    VB releases: 03 aug, 2015; 20 feb 2016



apricots

hibiscus tea

blue

cat

white lily

winter



Likes
  • blue color
  • hibiscus tea
  • mystical books
  • instrumental music
  • physical pain (only as alternative to menthal)
  • being center of attention
  • prove his point of view
  • Favourite book - Sharlin Harris, "Blueeyed boy"
Dislikes
  • pink color
  • stupid girls
  • smoke
  • menthal pain
  • being called a girl