Garry Shilling

Garry is a rather tall Northerner man, standing 174cm or 5'8 tall, and his weight varies between 55 and 65kg or 121 and 143lbs. His quick metabolism keeps him at a low fat percentage, but he also has to keep up a regular training schedule if he wants to keep the muscle he's built, or a regular eating schedule to keep fat. Depending on his training schedule he alternates between a skinny 55kg or 121lbs body and a more muscly 65kg or 143lbs body, but currently he's in an in between period. In general, he has relatively thin yet strong shoulders fit for archery, a thin waist, and flat hips. His arms, back, and legs are more built than the rest of his body thanks to specific training.

Garry's skin colour is a fairly light mid-vibrant red. He has a healthy and smooth skin, save for the places that have faded training scars that are usually covered by his clothing. He has a very childlike oval face, with a thin chin, rather large eyes with purple irises, and a hint of an upturned nose. He's got short, pointy ears, and two short gray horns on top of his head that are curved backwards under a right angle near the end.

His dirty blonde hair ends by his neck; it's rather messy and often combed to the minimum. Most of the time he doesn't really care about his hair, just lets it grow out, brushes it when it looks like there's tears in it, and only lets it get cut when it's grown past his shoulders. He always wears it loose.

His casual outfit includes a black long sleeved sweater, a beige pair of trousers, and a pair of brown boots. When he goes out in colder weather, he often wears a thicker shirt with a dark brown cloak draped over his shoulders, a pale orange scarf around his neck, a dark brown vest over his shirt, and thick boots that reach his knees. He always wears glasses due to his bad eyesight.

In general Garry is a kind and timid man. He's on the quiet and withdrawn side and is pretty emotional on the inside. He deals with issues of moderation; more often than not he's either way too timid and suppressed his emotions, or he's too thoughtless and lets out his emotions as they come. It's all very dependent on his emotions; when he's scared, uneasy, or relaxed, he's far more in control of his emotions and reactions to them than when he's furious, excited, or discouraged/sad.

He's very insecure about himself as a person. Aside from his glasses his appearance never bothered him, but he's painfully aware of how awkward he is and wants to change it but doesn't know how. He fears being judged by others and often thinks that if something bad happened others must think very badly of him, especially after losing all of his friends after Wes' murder and only being forgiven for it by one person years later. In a difficult situation he has a very hard time communicating with others as he just wants to escape and forget about it, so he rarely gets the chance to resolve the issue and lets his perceptions of what others think of him dwell in his mind until he can distract himself from the issue and make up for it later.

In the worst case, if there's nothing to stop his prejudices and negative opinions on someone he believes has wronged him from growing in his mind, his fear can transform into rage and an entitlement to be compensated. Fighting the wrongdoer has so far always quenched his anger and made him forgive them. In his early training he could always resolve it by sparring with this person in a controlled environment, but after he assaulted Wes outside of a training session it became clear any violence was fine. After the incident he was more careful with letting his rage out but made sure to always get the consent to duel the wrongdoer, but with the intention of killing them in a situation where it was permitted. More often than not Garry feels incredibly ashamed of how he behaved afterwards, but aside from Wes' death he never regretted fighting out his issues.

While he regularly has trouble understanding people and their intentions, he does his best to be considerate and as a result may sometimes refrain from speaking his mind when he's not sure if people will be hurt or offended by it or if it's appropriate to say in the situation at hand. He has to force himself to think before he speaks as his immediate thought can be harsh and inappropriate when he just speaks his mind. He may sound awkward and he has a broken speech pattern with lots of really short breaks between word groups unless he is absolutely at ease around the people he's with. In arguments he tends to be stubborn and enforce his point of view no matter how his opinion changes throughout the conversation.

Regularity is very important to him, and if his regularity is gone he gets way more withdrawn than usual and needs some time to get back into his normal self. He gets more isolated and sweats it out, usually spending his time travelling, hunting, sleeping, or sporting on his own. Lack of regularity isn't a basis for depression, but involuntary isolation is. He craves social interaction daily but at the same time it exhausts him if he participates in it too much. If he ends up being lonely for an extended period of time or he's aware of others rejecting him it can slowly send him into a depression. He never got helped out of his depression after Wes' death entirely so he had to slowly find his way out of it on his own, and from time to time things happening in his life can make him slip right back into a bad period. With his weak will and lack of resources he doesn't have much of a chance of battling it when it's needed the most.

In academic environments Garry rarely feels at home. He is aware that he is behind on other people when it comes to studying, but in turn he's a lot better at learning from experience and by doing. His interest in archery and hunting grew from those two being skills that were much easier to learn by doing than by studying, but when it comes to the theoretical aspects of those two he has to focus to get through it. If he's interested he's willing to push through the difficulties he has where if he doesn't care at all he'll just give up and carefully drop out of the subject.

Personal philosophy

The immediate group is the most important factor and should always be protected and fought for, but it is also important to look after your own well being and prioritise yourself over your peers if you aren't doing so well, regardless of the state of the group. Never disregard the individual elements of the group in favour of the median. Be wise in what allies you involve in your group, don't fend for those who forcefully entered in it.

His alignment can be found between Neutral Good and Lawful Good but mostly falls on the neutral side of things.