Souta Yoshida's Links
I hate you and everything you stand for. If I could go back and pull the trigger, I would. This time, I'll make it right.
...I'm not sure if I can forget you. I wish it'd been on better terms. I wonder where you are now...
... We met once, in an idea far away. I doubt you remember it, really, but I look at you sometimes- I wonder if you know that. I wonder if we'd get along. But that doesn't matter all that much to me, right now. The 'me' you met wasn't quite right, but I still remember the gesture. I won't forget it- not up here, at least.
…Uh- yeah. (Was it worth that many words to him…?)
A... friend, of mine. One I worry about- frequently. What happened to you? Where did you go? I feel like something happened, something went wrong- now the only times we'll speak are between worlds and words and places that shouldn't exist. Ugh- I hate it. I'd help you if I could, I hate feeling like there's no option to do so. But I'm kept out beyond the glass, so all I can do is scream and hope it **does** something.
^^ (Friend. A very anxious one, chased after by his own demons. He will be all right, though, I am sure of it.)
( OO) GET OUT OF MY HOUSE
'V' I'm your new roommate isn't it great?
I don't want to help you. You may have the same base goal as me, but all you're doing is trying to dissuade me. Stop it. You know you can't change my mind, right? What's done is done. If you try to get in my way, I'm not making any promises to help you. I owe you nothing.
You can't get rid of me that easily~! (You'll come around. You have to.)
You're the one normal person here. (> <)
That's what I hoped you'd think~!
...Odd. Not- bad. I guess. Just odd. Very odd. Weird.
⊙‿⊙ I think you'd have a nice smile. And a nice vertical bow.
...I feel like words can't really explain my feelings and thoughts here. 'Complicated' is a good word, 'convoluted' is another, maybe even 'captivated', but that sounds far more gooey than it's meant. Eyecatching yet hiding out of the spotlight, like a thief dancing just beyond the flashlight's beam, toeing the edge to see how close you can get without taking the plunge. You baffle me beyond words, yet it just makes me more determined to stay, you know. Not like you need to hear it- not like I'd say it. You can see it for yourself, anyways. A back and forth that never ends, a dangerous searchlight that you stay just away from the edge of. I wonder how you feel about it, sometimes, if you mind as much, still. But you know I'm not going anywhere, be it out of care, stubbornness, or spite- it doesn't matter why. Just that you can't get rid of me. For now, that's all that matters.
Will you give me this final dance?
(There’s something there. I can feel it, I know. I’m not really stupid— I know I care about him. It’s just daunting to admit. Give me a little more time, first.)
...I feel like it'd be interesting to talk to you, now that I've had more time to reflect. You aren't like him, not exactly- there's subtle differences, and they add up quite a lot. You remind me almost of a star- not in the romantic way, eegh, but like... a ball of internal combustion and fiery ferocity just beneath the surface, turning every internal explosion into a brilliant bright glare that spans millions of miles, taking parts of yourself and reforming them into something new as you please, and one day, if you die, it'll be in a huge, all-consuming explosion, yet those who watched you from afar won't know until years and years after.
Why so scared? I don’t bite.
At this point I'm almost wondering if I should make a cash prize for amount of times checked in to the hospital within a given time frame. (I wouldn't really be discouraging or incentivizing either way, you just sort of do your own thing, so may as well offer a way to pay for it if something bad actually does happen. Besides, you can take care of yourself, I'm sure.)
Hey OP how do I speed dial 911 on twitter (You meet some of the best people online sometimes lmao. Bet I've given him a fucking aneurism at least five times tho.)
...Wait a fucking second--
( (-^ ^ -;) Totally was trying to snag photos of his theory board )
...You care a lot about the people around you, huh. A... smart person, really, just- very background. You aren't good at coming forward, and you tend to throw your own life down first when it comes to drawing straws. Probably what did you in, in the end. Hurts to see, honestly. I think you would've made a better friend than you think. (You're already human enough; the flaws make you complete, I wonder if you realize that.)
Really intense, but, ah--not in a bad way at all. I think it's a good thing, actually.
You're smart and reliable. It's...comforting, maybe in a nontraditional way.
Ugh, can't you just-- use some empathy for once-? Or-- well, I don't- know if you just choose not to, so- compassion, or something. Jesus, people aren't your playthings. What's with the superiority complex?
You're fun! You actually do shit.
Heard you got ambushed by a little white blur again. It's a hard knock life, I guess. [...I like them. They're... good.]
On a serious note, you're- strange. I mean- you aren't really... clearly you're *there*, you can hear everyone around you. So why does it feel like you almost want us to think otherwise? Maybe I'm misreading. It's not like I've spoken to you more than once. But the idea of seeing you again in an enclosed environment really puts me on edge for reasons I can't quite place. ... I guess I'll see if it pans out. And if it does, where it goes from there. Nothing else really *to* do.
Aren't you overthinking it? There's something to appreciate in your insight, maybe. [she chuckles]
Shiloh - we aren't as close as she is to Doug, certainly, but that's probably the whole 'not being used to normal conversation' thing. I'd like to get to know her, at least, if she's gonna be in my life anyways - she's... good company. (...Even if I wish she took more direct action in her life. I wonder if she even knows how to look for the signs to do so.)
Hello! It's so nice to see you! ( ˆˆ ) [Politely? What the fuck is going on in your life...]
...It's nothing, really. Thanks. To uh... to you, too.
...Thank you. I'm not sure what I would do in the time between, otherwise...
Someone who never slows down for a moment, and when she does, it's likely either to surge forward twice as fast or merely an illusion. Her dedication is captivating, and I respect her-- even if I don't approve of how she goes about other things in her life. I guess it's not really my place to judge so long as nobody's getting hurt in the end, though. (It won't really stop me, but I can at least keep it to myself. I'd be lying if I said I could just toss out my opinions because it's convenient.) ...Either way, a smart person. Incredibly so. ...Even if I feel like she's mocking me half the times we talk.
Why bother thinking about all that so much? Weirdo. You sure talk big.
A driven person who knows what his ideals are and what he wants from the world, and what he wants to give back to it. He feels like an entire force of action, like a will itself rather than a person- I'm sure that's how he wants to come off. I... respect him a lot, he feels like someone who can match my own drive at times, but at others, I won't lie-- I feel like grabbing him by the collar and shaking him silly. Seriously- he certainly puts his work before himself. Nine times out of ten, really. I want to talk to him out of it, but like hell I'd ever say that out loud- after all, voicing it would make it sound like I don't agree, and there's no way he'd listen. It'd do more harm than good anyways. It's good to be motivated, it's good to take charge and actually **do** something-- but it isn't good to neglect yourself as a human being in the process. These things coexist. Think a little smaller from time to time. ...It's not criminal to be selfish in a more personal way, after all. What are you hiding from?
...I admire his dedication despite his life circumstances.
Also funny, a good conversationalist.
(Why do I make friends with shutins? Is this a trend?)
Not as driven as the other two, quite the opposite- but that doesn't make them a bad person. Far from it. Maybe some would disagree, but quite frankly, I don't give a shit. I like talking with them, they're pleasant company to me, even if just as awkward as I am at times. (...Honestly, more so than me, at others.) I get him in a sense, and they get me, in a way. It's nice to find someone who understands, anyways. ...And I'd like to hear more of what's going on their head, some day. Get to know them more. It'd be a slow process, especially since they try to dodge it at any point it's made clear that's what's going on, but- well, that's how-- the- the uh... the 'befriending' thing works, anyways, isn't it? I don't mind. I don't mind at all.
You get it, I guess. It's weird, we're really not alike, otherwise.
You have a lot going on in your head, don't you.
...Comfortable to be around, though.
...We didn't always get along- our opinions clashed more times than they aligned, I think, but somehow that never got in the way of conversation. I think despite our differing views, how we approach things lined up enough to not make it too much of a problem. I don't trust you, not one bit, but there's a weird sort of comfort in that. You're fun to be around and talk to. I'm not sure if we'll ever fully agree on anything, yet I can only find it in myself to wish you the best. ...Agh, that came across as embarrassingly 'introspective'...
I agree. Our opinions are vastly different, as are our views, but you're right; it never got in the way of a conversation. Moon, it's comforting to have a different perspective because it gives me more answers. Your rambling is comforting even if I rarely heard it. I do wish all the best for you.
I don't trust you as a friend or acquaintance, maybe a stranger with excellent perspective and ideas. My opinion will not sway yours, and that is wonderful to know.
Cheers to that-? I-- er-... yeah, let's see how it goes then. I guess my reputation got ahead of me in that case, I uh... can't say I was expecting that, actually. 'Detective' isn't usually what people clock about me first, but I can't say I dislike it. (Why're you looking at me like that?)
A detective! How wonderful. We'll have much to talk about. I do hope we get along. ᴗ◎
Right-- it'll uh... it'll go better this time than before, at the least; or, if nothing else, there'll be more time for a more normal conversation. I can get behind that.
[That scuttle-y guy... He was cool.] Let's, um... Do our best not to meet in a time distortion this time! Cheers to normal circumstances!