everyone be like > april fools bulletin. you know who the fool is. me. i am the fool. uni projects are scratching at my face. IM SO SLEEPY!!!!! there is no time for whimsy. there is only time for having casual 5-hour dates with my IDE.

anyway i did some cool things. perhaps in a time lacking whimsy i am being whimsical in my own ways. i think people should casually share their thoughts more. like damn im a person on a rock in the middle of space. the fucking horrors....

> i am moving. i have said this like 400 million times. our closing date moved up so im like FUCK. I MUST PACK FASTER. i like putting my belongings into boxes tho. it has been a multi-week endeavor and i have nearly broken like 4 things already because i am CLUMSY. i just wanna get situated in my house already im like AEEEUGGHG. (i hate the unpacking part of moving) (like why do i have so much shit) (cue throwing half of what i packed away lest i become itchy). but my house is cute and once i am there i will totally be gardening. i love... growing tomatoes.

> alcohol. i normally drink wine as i am inclined to very sweet things. but me and le bf decided to go to a different store that had a gigantic ass selection of stuff. and we got a 6 pack of random ass alcoholic beverages. i do not like beer because it is a bit like sucking on a piece of wood to me. so i went with some funny little vodka drink. anyway i think its fucked up that it didnt taste like alcohol at all. like yes ABV is a thing but the way that shit gets masked with an atom of fruit is frightening. i am a chronic lightweight too so after a bit i was like. damn i am fucking cooked lets program!!! 11/10. i havent tried the rest i literally dont even know what i got i just saw FUNNY AND COOL LABEL -> ok ill try it.

> related to going to a new grocery store (me and le bf are meijerpilled) my bf insisted i try these. magic milk straws. he has spoken about them fondly as he had them when he was a kid. and i was like ok. i like milk. i will entertain your silly straw of flavor. went for banana choco. shit was pretty ok. i like banana milk so this is a win in my book.

> once uni stops clapping my fuckin cheeks i gotta get back on learning french. this is so real. or just any language tbh. all i do in my free time is like. PLAY VIDEOGAMES AND HANG OUT W MY FRIENDS N DRAW i need some fucking variety... i need my enrichment.

> honestly now that i think about it i have been cooking a bit art wise. i had a big ass artblock for a minute (which hardly happens to me?) and i just. STOPPED DRAWING. it was weird i was like. this is the fucking end bro. this is the end of my art era. and no <3 my derangement has come back worse than before as normal. i even cooked up some sen batista like bro that does NOT happen often. (shoutout to those who survived my sen batista era imso sorry....)

> drawabox. i did that for a few days. it was fun honestly. another thing i should theoretically get back into. but if it isnt already evident there are a bunch of things pingponging against the walls of my skull at any given moment. i do want to draw like. a single background in my lifetime thouhg. i cannot be damned to 'guy in the void' forever.....

thats it thats my april fools bulletin of actual content. there is no jebaiting here. no 'i am leaving forever slash j', no. you are stuck with me. observe my fucking whimsy. thank you.

POLL FOR FUN. CHICKEN IS VERSATILE IN MY OPINION. PROBABLY PRETTY HIGH UP THERE. beef hurts my tummy tho

hello gamers. my uni spring break has officially begun and that means I desire to draw for people that are not me. 

things that are cool to know: 

> I’ll probably only draw 1-2 reqs
> I like drawing characters with established backstories, usually
> also men
> especially the pathetic ones
> I also like splatoon ocs

yea. That is it really. Comment ur guys and if I choose to draw them you will know. (Because I will put a drawing in your lap)

That aside. I hope everyone is well. Daylight savings time got me fucked up i cannot lie. also I am beginning the process of moving hell. > pic of this scrawny ass twink dying on the floor when prompted to move 2 boxes

im like 500 years old now FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nathan chaos dixkolas born no way.
i have nothing to say. aside from the fact im getting fondue tomorrow. and i am having Delicious Wine rn. xoxo.
as always. i will do my best to make cooler art being 24 than i was when i was 23. :flex emoji:  the dudes and guys will slay harder in 2024 i promise. nothing can stop me.

thas all i hope everyone has a lovely day. :]

hi. 2024 is afoot or some shit. i am starting this year almost EXACTLY the same as i did last year. in the sense that my boyfriend is VIOLENTLY ILL from his christmas travels and i am teetering between taking care of him and getting sick myself.  

cool things that occured:
- obtained cat
- drew over 230 pieces of art
- edward
- still insane

cool things that will occur 2nite:
- eating the salami i am  allergic to
- allergy salami
- salam i

ya. also heres my god damn art improvement memes. i did not expect to improve much because i told myself i would be KINDER to my shortcomings and go with the flow. but it seems i have at least been growin somewhat. i got vibes or some shit now xoxo. cant explain it but fuck it we chillin

anyway thats is fr all. hopin everyone has a chill ass year etc etc. i will continue to be a pest in everyones inboxes with old men and edward the twig. heart emoji.

winter break is upon me which means that. I am finally free from my obligations and can go pogcrazy in the art department. I will probably take 1-2 for now. 

things that are nice to know:

• I work rather quickly
  • I do not expect the same from you. 
  • Larger pieces will take me a bit longer (1-2 months with irl obligations in between)
    • I can consistently provide updates when this happens (if desired) as I tend to work in multiple sessions.
• I draw humans/humanoids mostly, though I can draw flat-faced anthros if I feel like it
  • I'll stick to the former unless I think a design is particularly interesting. 
• I will generally stick to experimental pieces. 
  • If there is something you are specifically looking for, feel free to let me know (tinies, sketchpages, etc). Otherwise, I will simply draw what I feel fits the character best. 
  • These are also meant to be low-stress exchanges. We love being chill in this household.  There's no reason to tense up i promise.

Character(s) you want drawn:
Character(s) of mine you would be comfortable drawing:
Art piece/type you would prefer:
What you would be willing to draw (Don't worry about "1:1" stuff I don't care):
TAT:
Contact:
Any specifics for what you want / other:

That is all. feel free to post here or DM me here or on Discord @ daigodojima if you crave the privacy.

hi gamers

i have been so inactive. at least in terms of the arbitrary standards i put in place for myself. i am also so busy. ACK.

cool things i have been getting up to:
> finishing up my uni semester
> job search for my BBG web dev<3
> HOUSE. HUNTING.

^ those things are time-consuming. and stressful. i am most certainly spending my free time dissolving into a couch and trying to RELAX. but alas my body does not have an off button.
anyway i want to talk abt those things because i am the most important person in the universe. as you all know.

HOUSE HUNTING IS FUN. i enjoy it. i cannot go into any specifics for obvious reasons but like. omg. living in and owning a home at 24 will be cool i guess. my realtor is very chill. also for whatever god damn reason basements around here are built so fucking small in terms of verticality. my head was about to start making out with some cobwebs. GROSS.
otherwise tho. i think once me and the bf decide on something i will officially have no fucking clue what to do with myself. like.... idk. we are both speedrunning the adult things and that is cool but what am i supposed to aspire to do when i am like 35. RUNNING OUT OF SHIT TO ACCOMPLISH I GUESS LMFAO.

job search is so cool. web dev can branch into like 2 billion different jobs. i want to do at least one billion of those two billion. i am kind of mortified for javascript technical interviews if i do end up doing those tho. god i am so allergic to javascript she is so UGLY and PUTRID. but also a necessary evil. ill probably bald if i have to be a full stack dev tho id be so mad. do not make me touch The Fucking Stack. im excited regardless tho. like whoo. contributing to society and not being bound by school anymore. awesome.

uni. dear god i am almost done with uni. i am so close to being free from a few of my weekly adhd nightmares. never touching homework ever again will be so fucking splendid. no more last minute nearly shitting my brains out in caffeine-induced agony. i am so burnt out. i took 18 credits this semester. i am taking like. 4? 6? next semester. shit will literally be so easy.

other stuff. UH. i am doing owed art at a pace i enjoy and i like how that is impacting the quality of my stuff. im super excited to finish something i am working on it is lookin so awesome. also im trying to go out of my way and draw more traditional shit. i went to my moms over thanksgiving to pick up some of my shit (most of it was just... art stuff i guess) and i remembered that i do enjoy the novelty of trad art. went ahead and grabbed some gouache cos i think it works well with how my workflow goes. i just have not had the time to FINISH anything traditional. girl help. but i like gouache from what i have experienced thus far.
also i have been playing the new lego fortnite gamemode and it is so awesome with my beloved homies. nothing is sweeter than being in a discord call and hearing one of your friends fucking scream because they got rolled over by a crab.
ALSO ALSO. i decided to paint my nails like. two weeks ago LMFAO. and it was fun and cool. not something id usually do because my brain is evil but i am genuinely surprised that i enjoyed the look of it. will probably go ahead and redo them tonight because THEY ARE GONE NOW. just a cool little thing. im not really one to go out of my way to physically express myself (damned to t shirt and sweatpants crusty transgender man drip) but that shit fr felt liberating. ALSO ITS SOMETHING TO DO WITH MY HANDS. ENJOYMENT! FULFILLMENT! ETCETERA.
TRIPLE ALSO? i called my dad for the first time in over.... a year... [DIES]. he is still insane but in a funny kind of way.

i think thats it. i just wanted to share and spread my brain thoughts. still enjoying life. just a bit busier. perhaps i will have time to draw some ed agony once winter break hits.
poll. obligatory. fun. etc. i hope everyone else is doing well during the PUTRID MONTHS OF DECEMBER WHERE SUNLIGHT CEASES TO EXIST AFTER 4PM

Apologies for all of the fucking bulletins this month xoxo i do not know why things are particularly eventful.

RegEx is my alt dedicated to all things of the programming variety.
i am a web dev student. programming is something that brings me joy. or something. so i make funny codes. i also intend to have everything that i post be f2u / nonpremium friendly. because i am a GODLY gamer.
im aiming to have 1-2 codes up a month or somethin. we shall see how it goes!

things on this acct will remain the same i think. i was originally just gonna have my main also be my code acct but that kinda gave me hives for multiple reasons. so this will suffice

thas all. poll for fun. wishing everyone a chill thanksgiving as well. 

username change!

chaos just links to my alt acct now. maybe i will return to it some day. i am unsure. i am just sick of being called chaos. and getting pinged accidentally in fav4fav bulletins because someone else has a similar name. the perpetual AGONIES.

how to address me > call me nathan. call me dixkolas. call me nate if we are homies.
how not to address me > DO NOT CALL ME DIX I WILL BE SO MAD. thank you.

is it really pronounced the way you think it is > yes. omg funny peepee!! wow so funny!! are you done laughing. ok. thank you.
**LIKE NICKOLAS. soft a. softly i say. dixkoliss not no fuckin DIXKOLASS

THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME. BLOWS KISS

hi. i just wanna make a fun bulletin. I have cool life awesomeness to share. good vibes… etc.

Also formatting is gonna be straight up PISS cos mobile. ✌🏻

i am cheesed. cheesed on the regular. in the mental health way. i won’t specifically delve into my brain mechanics and whatever else cos I don’t wanna. but I am content in this very moment. as well as the surrounding moments of this very moment. i have been much more chill and normal. it is something I have been craving for like five billion years. one might say I am just oozing with joy. i am being normal and feeling my emotions or some shit. it’s pretty nice.

more cool life awesomeness: i finished baldur gate. the single baldur gate. I crode so fuckin hard. my literal brain chemistry has been rearranged. and yet…. I am not satisfied somehow. i want more out of this videogame and I will squeeze it dry until it becomes dust. i am literally normal, i assure you. (i am experiencing seven layers of emotional devastation(?) and need to write a formal apology to my friends for watching me spiral 18 times in the span of 9 days.) i put 90 hours in the span of 9 days bro… I literally have not been sleeping…. I’m so…. emo… 

i will not allow myself to speak about the aforementioned videogame any longer. it is a dangerous subject. but transitioning from that to something mildly relevant…. i have realized that me… as an artist…. i am just not very interested in doin crazy over the top shit anymore. i would much rather spend my time playin games with my beloved spouse or hanging out with the homies. art has kinda always been an outlet for me and since I’m feeling better as of recent I just… don’t feel the need to draw. Other than appealing to my occasional brainrot? And drawing cool shit for other people? i dunno. not to imply that I will stop my nonsense anytime soon… but I have definitely been faltering in regards to activity. And I think the inactivity is here to stay because being inactive makes me feel mentally well. i be loving myself bro. i think I have found the true balance of existing on the internet and simultaneously not existing. It’s great.

other things that are cool:

> im awesome
> you’re awesome
> that’s all

yea. very chill updates. tldr im normal and will not be pushing myself artistically anymore cos that is lame. im just gonna pop in and out of existence as I see fit. also buy and play bg3. don’t be weird bro. i was weird once… but not anymore [smiles] 

Is this what people with blogs do, I wonder?

Design TOS:

> Feel free to redesign to your pleasure or edit the original ref. If editing the original reference image, please keep an original file around should it be traded in the future.
> Designs may be turned into any species, voided, etc., no permission needed.
> Gifted designs are free to be traded and or resold (where applicable. Sale excludes species designs which require appraisal.)
> Do not use one of my designs to promote or entertain anything of questionable nature. (Racism, transphobia, etc.)
> Do not whitewash my designs. Mild adjustments to skin tone are alright, however going from a poc design to some random ass white boy is not okay.
> TLDR; I don't care what gets done with my designs, so long as I am kept as the original creator.

Art TOS:

> I do not desire to take tiny / chibi commissions at this time. Please do not ask for one or inquire about prices.
> I will not do 18+ art commissions / trades unless I am especially close with someone. Please do not inquire about this if I don't know you.
> Art can be edited to represent a character's current / new features. If you would like me to edit an image myself, feel free to let me know and i will see what I can do.

Generally Speaking, Boundaries:

> Please do not talk to me if you are into freak shit. I want nothing to do with you.
> As of writing this, I am 22 years old. I seldom interact with minors because of this. I do not intend to be cold, I just enjoy speaking to adults. If you want to interact with me I would prefer you be an adult as well.
> If you are in the circlejerk of copying x persons art style to a tee just. leave me alone LMFAO.