"I am a shadow, the true self. I wish things had been different. I love Olive and Ev and Axel and everyone else, they're like my family. But I just can't go a single day without thinking of her, you know? These panic attacks and memories get to be too much sometimes. I wish I was a little bit stronger, I wish I had fought back. I wish I had never let her cut into my skin and destroy me, figuratively and literally. I wish I wasn't dead, especially because of her. But when have wishes ever helped me? I'm a hopeless fool. Even if I hate her, she was right. Just a hopeless, weak idiot."
(TW: death, abuse, torture, general spoilers for ace)
((just a quick note here this hURT to write because ace is my darling fave and oof,, relatable))