Post as your OC's 'Shadow Self'

Posted 6 years, 10 months ago (Edited 6 years, 10 months ago) by Kim 'Kimiko' Madison YunaNoire

I'm not sure if this has already been done, but I thought I thought it'd be a cool idea! Basically, in this topic you make a post as an OC's 'Shadow Self'. For a further explanation, a 'Shadow Self' is the side of ourselves that we like to repress and pretend doesn't exist. However, that side of you is, of course, still you. So for this topic, think about your characters and what sort of thoughts, emotions or feelings they might be hiding from everyone else. Then, personify that into a 'Shadow Self' version of your character, who embodies everything they'd rather hide or deny about themselves.

Rules:

This doesn't necessarily have anything to do with any secrets your character might have, although there is a good chance they might tie into their repressed Shadow Self.
Blank out any content that could be deemed sensitive or NSFW. Like this.
Write as much or as little as you need to! This is just a fun little exercise to help develop your characters.
Have fun!

To provide an example, here's Kimiko's Shadow Self:

"I am a shadow... the true self! God... all I want is for people to just tell me how much they love me. If I have to lie a little bit to get them to do that, then so be it! I'm so lucky to have some pretty gullible friends... if they knew how much of a sham I was, it'd be all over for me! That's what I am, a sham, a fraud! And I love it! So why should I stop? Because it isn't right to lie? Because tricking people is wrong? As if that'll make me stop! Without these lies, i'm nothing! Just a dumb otaku, without any real friends or a real job.

Lying gets me exactly what I need out of life. There's no way i'll stop... i'll never stop."

Reece💗 roromimii

(OOC: Aw this thread looks very fun! Bumping~)

CW: Sadism, gore & dark themes in general (ouch the edge)

"I am a shadow, the true self..."

"I am God who is standing besides you all. I love watching people suffer especially to those who deserved it. I love being praised and feared at the same time. I see everyone as my toys to play with and I get to choose what fate they'll get. To those who made a choice to be evil, I'll rip your chests and harvest your tasty evil hearts. Your hearts and bones is what I need to make myself powerful... The pleasure is the sweetest when it's paid by another's pain."

Zayiss Noctis StarCyan

(Reviving this 'cause it seems very fun!)

I am the buried shadow, the hidden truths...and I am fated to become a monster. I was born into a bloodline cursed by hematophagy and am now on the cusp of a major transformation. As the next stage of maturity approaches, my appetite grows ever larger and ever more frequent. Anyone who attempts to form a lasting relationship with me is very literally risking their neck to do so. It's probably better for them to avoid being near me entirely, regardless of how much I wish I could have a true circle of friends. My sole trusted friend has been gambling his entire life since our childhood by being my most stalwart ally, and I'm honestly glad he naturally learns techniques to effectively defend against me. When the day of my evolution arrives, I don't know how much blood I'm going to need to be satiated after such a drastic change releases so much energy from me. I...fear for those who will bear witness to my future metamorphosis, as my hunger is slated to increase tenfold from what I feel now. I can't guarantee that I won't lose control of myself and attempt to exsanguinate them.

As much as I try to distract people from it, no amount of high-handed speech or imaginative prose can eliminate the what I truly am. A descendant of life-draining monstrosities whose continued existence came at the expense of innocent bystanders. All I can do is hope that I don't actually lose control of myself in the aftermath. At the very least, I'd like to prove myself wrong in that aspect.

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!! TW: Existential dread !!

"I am a shadow... The true self..."

"The universe... Why must it be so cruel? It treats all of us as mere marionettes for it's sick little show. For whom do we suffer for? For who's amusement? To live and die for such an indifferent audience. An audience whose applause comes at the expense of our souls, bit by bit, line by line...

All for us to lie alone in a mass grave at the end of time. Why do we carry on?"

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I am a shadow, the true self. I want to live. I really want to live. I doubt that I have any redeemable qualities, if I did, they all have been taken away from me. I want to live. I want to rise from the surfaces of the deep I have trapped myself in. I want to genuinely breathe for the first time in forever.

Heron Aarix

"This world bores the shit out of me. You couldn't begin to imagine. Morality is a set of contrivances I place upon myself for challenge's sake. In truth, none of it means anything to me. My name is Oliver. I am my father's son."

Elliot Grimalken Pyromander

(cw: murder and other dark stuff)

"Alright, I've never really told anyone this, but...here goes.

So, for context, I've killed people. Like, A LOT of people. It's what I do. The rush I get when I see the look of sheer terror in their eyes as they stand face to face with Death himself...There's nothing like it, I tell ya. But I'm getting off track.

I'm not really sure how to explain this, but sometimes I feel like I'm being...haunted by the ghosts of the people I killed. Like, I'll see something out of the corner of my eye, or I'll hear a strange voice.

But the NIGHTMARES, those are the worst.

It always starts in a pitch black void. Then, a sea of red. Then, a ghostly hand reaches out of the red and grabs me. Then another. And another. Hundreds...no, thousands of ghosts, all dragging me down into the depths of Hell.

And all the while I hear their whispers, they all say the same thing:

Why?

Why?

WHY...?

I've tried just...not sleeping, it's not like I really need to sleep. But that feeling of dread is still there. It's always there, in the back of my mind.

I try to tell myself that none of it's real, it's just a dream, I'm just seeing things. But...it's hard to ignore sometimes.

Sure, I may look scary to you, but in reality...I'm the one who's terrified."

Yuri matryoshcat

"I'm really struggling, but I don't want anyone to know. I feel so alone sometimes."

♡ | Eye ("Damien") Lucifer iiantixsocial

"I am a shadow, the true self..."

"Although I generally am an asshole and act like I don't care about or love anyone, there are certain people I do care about and love deeply. I do have a soft side, which I hide really well and only few people get to see. I don't really know why I hide that side of myself. I guess cuz I'm the devil and I'm known to not have a soft side. It could also be because I don't want to get hurt emotionally like I did when my kid was ripped away from me after being banished from Heaven so suddenly. Maybe it's because everyone just.. knows me as some huge asshole, so seeing me be nice would be unexpected and weird. I don't know. It could be any one of those things... or it's all of them."