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ah yes my main man Alif. your local divorced single dad with daddy issues
in universe, i guess you could easily go with the "hes not a good dad and kind of an asshole" route, but after revamping, rewriting and overall always being exposed to his character, any sense of disgust kinda gets nullified. dude is pretty damn adamant on continuing toxic cycles even if he does have the foresight to label them as such. old habits die hard besties
speaking in meta, i just feel like his character is uhhh kinda boring sometimes. boring not in a sense that hes some guy living with his family, but boring in a sense that i cant really pin point certain aspects of him that can make you go "oh, this character is definitely worth the attention." to be frank, that is all a matter of audience perception, and his whole existence is simply a self-indulgent tool for my own personal exploration (take a good fucking guess what the exploration is about LMFAOO)
but, still, sometimes social perception gets to ya. he means a lot to me even though i definitely am the type of person to (sometimes consciously) value my social reputation - despite the fact that that shit drains my arse sometimes kkkkk
i realise, that, the OCs that stick the most to me are the ones who are the most "boring." the ones who dont have the most interesting palette, the ones who dont have super cool powers that relate to the universe they reside in, etc etc. those that do stick usually have like, certain "boring" qualities that emulate real life experiences, even if the experiences dont necessarily come from yourself. those "boring" qualities, they kinda highlight how real life humans are already pretty damn interesting to begin with, and the things we like the most about our characters are the things that we can see in ourselves lol
also the fact that hes mostly self-indulgent makes it hard for me to actually write him consistently 💔💔hell💔💔