In technical terms, Gauge still is a mere human. Squishy and weak, not to mention emotional. They generally ignore this, or at least act like proper demon, but they know they’re a mere human. Granted, they’ve been feeling more monstrous as days pass, as their demon claws become bigger and sharper and as the pain from switching forms- so slightly, it’s only their hands and teeth and tail- but it stings like a bitch, or at least it used to. It’s not that it’s not painful now; it is, but it’s more like something they’re used to, opposed to ‘ah, what the fuck is on my hands, it hurts’.
Now they’re used to monstrosity, they like monstrosity, they use it as their advantage, the same way they use their strength and speed and general enhanced survivability (which is also a bitch and they’d prefer to be dead). They would lie to themself (and they do) saying they aren’t phased by it. Sudden, painful changes they definitely cannot control? Hosting such a parasite that’s only injecting more adrenaline, more rage, more fear? It’s definitely terrifying, but they stop their shaking body, take a deep breath and go on as their chaotic, violent, sadistic and dissonant self everyday, because they have a goal: to bring as much suffering to everyone until they’re stopped. It’s so simple.
But it’s still a difficult task! Dealing with so many problems at once, renders your entire being as a problem! Which is why, as they wake up, they suddenly feel their usual pressure on their body- the demonic pressure- except it’s not only on their neck but on all of their body and HOLY SHIT they’re huge now! What’s happened? At first they freak out internally, thinking that somehow they mutated overnight. No matter how convenient the mutation might be, it’s still freaky. They sit up to notice they have a new pair of arms. The freakout starts to set in, they look at their arms, at their body, and they realize-- no, it’s not themself. It’s difficult to point out, given that their claws are of a similar color, but their tail isn’t and- as soon as they get a hold of a reflective surface, they confirm it. It wouldn’t make any sense, the color scheme of their demon includes green eyes and hair, it has been that way since they were possessed.
Gauge doesn’t know if that’s a good thing, but a quick breakdown of their situation concludes:
- Does somebody else have their body now? Probably, good riddance. Hopefully the demon is still inside. How would that work? They don’t know and they don’t care.
- Is this being a higher demon? Demon hierarchies are tricky and diverse, and this body seems very special. Not only for its appearance, it just feels so strong!
- No parts! That simultaneously sucks and is a good riddance, though the presence of two bumps on their chest isn’t that exciting. Why are those there?
- … But they can do anything they want now, right? It’s not like they don’t do it back in their original body, but new is different and different is exciting! Of course they can do anything they want!
So it’s GOOD! They’ve always wanted this, because another thing they’d lie to themself about would be the fear of eventually getting caught. Yes, they want to die, but they know authorities won’t let them. Whatever happens, this is not them now! If it lasts too long, maybe they will change their name again, just like how they abandoned ‘Lonnie’.
They spend the following hour trying out just how strong this body is. The two tongues are fun, but it reminds them the no parts thing and that’s still a bummer. They definitely do try to crush something big and solid with their jaws. They sharpen and desharpen their fingers (they’re used to it, but now it’s new). Man, the horns are so cool, and the tail too! They wish their own set of demonic features came with these too (but they would hurt more than like a bitch if they were ever switched out, right).
It’s not until they continue messing around, making a huge mess of Amvira’s room, that they somehow discover there’s more to her. An even more monstrous form? Gauge felt a little scared, but they figured: go big or go home, right? They take a while, filled with adrenaline and euphoria thanks to such an overpowered body, but they turn into a huge, HUGE, monster, with wings and maws and the whole monster deal! It’s like a dream! The dream where they finally destroy the world, perhaps? Well, everything that has happened to them the past years feels like a dream, so why not play along?
The rest of their day depends on how well they test the limits of Amvira’s body in that form, and how well the other demons try to stop them. Gauge is more of a brawl over brain person, so maybe it'll all depend on luck, which they already know don't have. What a nice trip to Hell, still! They’d love to stay, but if it’s not like this, they already plan to stay there after their (hopefully short) lifespan.
sorry if I got some of the lore wrong!