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natsume + unrequited love

reader : gender neutral, no pronouns used
type : headcanons
warnings : ANGST NO COMFORT. unrequited love (you dont like natsume back)
word count : 280

• appearances are very important to natsume. he’s extremely aware of how he’s perceived, and he has a front on nearly all the time. he has an image to maintain both onstage and off – it’s only very rarely that anyone gets to see the boy underneath it all. 
• he lets the facade slip with you, just a little. it’s an experiment to see how you’d react. would you accept him? would you think he’s… disappointing? he needs to know, if he’s going to place his heart in your hands. you’re so important to him after all. 
• so when all’s said and done, and it’s clear that his feelings aren’t reciprocated, there’s a part of him that feels… betrayed. not by you, not by anyone else, but himself. 
• he’s betrayed himself. he gets to feel both the guilt of the sinner and the anger of a boy who unfortunately fell in love – is that such a crime? – and it almost renders him paralysed. 
• natsume’s emotional walls stretch to the clouds – he trusts his own judgement more than anything. he took a calculated gamble letting his walls down with you, but it turned out to be fruitless. useless.
• yet he’ll try to act like he always does around you. shrug off every memory of a longing look or a fleeting touch he had given you. push away a daydream about holding your hand and feeling your warm cheek underneath the pads of his fingers. well, that’s just how things are, aren’t they? he can’t make you love him. 
• so he tells himself that he can easily get over you. you were just a silly little crush, nothing more.
• and yet he can’t help the pang in his heart when he sees your sweet smile.

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alkaloid + fluff

reader : gender neutral, no pronouns used, reader bakes in tatsumi’s scenario
type : scenarios
warnings : none
word count : 1024… yeah i kinda got carried away

a pleasant shiver runs from the back of your head to the base of your spine as you rouse from your slumber. you yawn softly, nuzzling into the warmth pressed against your cheek, and stilling in surprise when the warmth hugs you back. 

“you’re awake?” you feel the rumble of hiiro’s voice in his chest before you hear it. you make a noncommittal sound – not really saying something or the other, just letting him know you’re awake – and readjust your head, your ear pressed to his chest. hiiro hums and moves a hand to your shoulder, squeezing softly. the two of you fall into a comfortable silence. 

the strong, steady thump of his heart makes you smile, and you close your eyes in an attempt to hear it better. “are you trying to fall asleep again?” hiiro asks, an audible smile in the lilt of his voice. your answering silence has him chuckling, and strong arms pull you to a sitting position beside him. “it’s a new day! you can’t go back to sleep now – we’ve got so much to do!” the sweet smile hiiro gives you makes something burst in your chest, filling it with warmth. maybe waking up isn’t so bad if you get to see that smile. 

maybe waking up isn’t so bad if he’ll be here with you again as you drift off tonight.

aira, mayoi and tatsumi below the cut!

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