ChocoChan's Bulletins
Hey y'all! I'm now on Buzzly art and, different then on Instagram, I try to be active as here. I also planned to join Sheezy Art, but their registrations are closed for one month now-
Yes yes, I'm back in AF minigames. Unimportant sidenote, I know
As some of you might have noticed, I have left the ArtFight server. I decided not to take part in minigames anymore and maybe I will also delete my artfight account. I rather keep the reasons for this private, as I don't want to start a witchhunt. Anyways, thank you for almost 3 years. Stand tall, my friends
Thanks to cyberbullying, I decided to quit some stuff. I might go on a hiatus. I have enough. I can't do this anymore. I suffer from nightmares and physical problems. Everything gets too much, I'm so so sorry.
As some of u might know, I have an oc called Yatta for some time now
https://toyhou.se/9860343.yatta
Since I had now some trouble regarding her and dreamie folders, I am now afraid that Yatta might get stolen. So, if you see her on any other account, please tell me. I'm so scared she will get stolen.
Thank you for your help! ♡
I think after all this time, it's time for an apology. You might have seen my venting bulletins from time to time, threatening to stop doing art or to offer all my OCs for free and stuff. I gotta be honest with you all. I'm in a really bad place rn. I feel horrible, and my past trauma and self esteem issues are eating me up from inside. But that is no excuse for my horrible behaviour. A friend of mine gladly woke me up. It was a hard wake up call, but I think this is what I needed.
I was not a monster. But I acted like an arse from time to time. I guilt tripped whenever I felt ignored, I was angry when I didn't got the attention I wanted and I accused friends of stuff which wasn't their fault or which hurt them like hell. And that wasn't fair of me, heck, I was a horrible friend in those times. Whenever I felt horrible, I let it out on friends and family, the people who didn't deserve it at all. And it ended in me guilt tripping like crazy, gasping for some kindness and softness and comfort after hurting everyone with a scythe made out of horrible words.
And I wanna say sorry for that. I wanna deeply apologize for that. I hurt more then I was a good friend for others, and I realised that. I was ignorant, egoistical and attention seeking, damn, I was like my father and I hate that.
I can't promise I'm like "I changed" within hours, or days, or even weeks. But I am seeking professional help. I have a therapy session on monday (in exactly a week), where I can hopefully start working on all the issues I have. This change will take a long ass time, but I would appreciate if you would stay with me in this time. Of course, you can also distance yourself from me if this is too much for you, after all, your mental health is important.
I just wanna say sorry. My mind is still all over the place after 1 hour of crying. I feel exhausted, but I wanted to let out this long needed apology. I hope you understand.
Thank you for reading. Have a nice day.
Heya. I'm thinking about doing more Art Trade stuff, but I'm a bit shy. Do you think an art trade post in the art trade forums in Toyhouse would help?
ArtFight is only one week away!!! So I'm gonna share my af profile here: https://artfight.net/~ChocoChan
I revenge almost everything, even Friendly Fire, and I draw almost everything, except heavy sexual themes and anything going against AF ToS
I'm in Team Cyberpunk this year and my Mascot this year is Hadey: https://toyhou.se/9861185.hadey Also Nikki is a side mascot https://toyhou.se/7874251.nikki
Also also not all characters are up yet, if you wanna see them all, look here: https://toyhou.se/ChocoChan/characters/folder:all/tags:1/tagged:ArtFightFR
Since ArtFight isn't that far away anymore, I made a smol hitlist!
Just fill in the form if you wanna be attacked by me. The people on the hitlist are preferred in my attacks, however it's not first come first serve and attacks are not guaranteed!
I planned to do a fun lil project called "OC of the Day", where I randomly choose an OC for one day, who will be in the spotlight. I made a Google Docs for this, which will be linked here. I will try to update it daily! Hope you like this small idea! https://docs.google.com/document/d/1K-Gi-9kR6l8WcmPOuCLItxXtdAFV_FKTc3dEM-9FiaE/edit?usp=sharing