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mothgf to juvia
i cna barely stay awake lately bc im so sick kjdjg idk whats wrong with me.....
feeling a little better..... still no real solid answers regarding my tumors, other than "not cancerous" so at least i can wipe the sweat off my brow regarding that...!
still very tired and ready to sleep
i will try my best to contact everyone i need to contact starting tomorrow!
uhhhh hi
some tumors were found within me. not too sure if they're cancerous or not. doctors arent being helpful or informative AT ALL. im supposed to be going to a surgeon soon to discuss.... but im not too optimistic im going to get any answers there. my hair is falling out at a exceedingly fast rate due to the stress.
sorry if my responses are delayed. i have no real excuse. im just kind of trying my best to hold everything together, but failign.
im so tired of doctors treating me so badly, never giving a straight response, sending me through hoops and making me jump high just to hear a "maybe". i know thats probably how it goes....but..... im just... so exhausted. im halfway ready to just give up on this whole goose chase.
tw dark thoughts, pls dont read if it upsets you.i just need to vent into the void and this is theclosest to a void i have.
i hate everything about myself and part of me truly hopes this is what i get, that its cancer, that it kills me. im so exhausted of having no answers.
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i basically just want out of this fandom asap - i have found more fun focusing on FFXIV, my vtuber, and a few other ocs with friends.
i will be moving to another site when it comes to storing my ocs, and making a new private account on here for the sake of commission people, with the same username. i dont want to have subscribers but im too tired to go thru and remove /every single one/ of my subs on here ;w;