Audemus (Playlist: Act 6)

"[Verse 1]
Well, he collapsed with Stevens-Johnson Syndrome on the E.R. floor
Panic attacked, anaphylactic and ataxic
Well the way he spun his butterfly risked all six his phalanges
Roman candles at both ends in his synapses
And the method with which he recycled his humors
Trojan Horse’d his blood-brain barrier and raised the LD-50, yes, yes
And through flight-or-fight revelation shame, the Black Box Warrior
He skipped this town and headed straight down history

[Pre-Chorus]
Shields himself from reason in a Kevlar baby-blue Tuxedo
Quilted from the finest fibers, flesh, and fiberglass, and flowers
His ego a mosquito, evil incarnate/good incognito
Pops placebos for libido, screaming “bless the torpedoes”

[Chorus]
For what? For what? For what it’s worth
If it was going to kill you, boy, it would have by now
For what? For what? For what it’s worth
There’s no more looking back, it’s looking up or looking down

[Verse 2]
Well, he was wearing stolen rubber shoes and wrapped a poison ivy noose
Around his Lotus jugular when they came
Well they found him with a map to every victim of his love
And a tattoo of a blue jay on his face
And they waited for his vital signs to lie and let a flatline cry
A hymn out in Hungarian Harmonic
But he cocked his noggin, through his stoma sang, “For Auld Lang Syne
Happy birthday to the succulents, I’ll die your hydroponics”

[Pre-Chorus]
His rib cage was a hornet’s nest, palpitations set the beat
His vagus nerve a Turk’s head knot, an axle hitch, a Carrick bend
He wondered if Christ-Consciousness would charge a cancellation fee
Auf wiedersehen, au revoir, he gripped his wits right by their ends

[Chorus]
For what? For what? For what it’s worth
If it was going to kill you, boy, it would have by now
For what? For what? For what it’s worth
There’s no more looking back, it’s looking up or looking down

[Spoken Interlude]
Hello, welcome. Why don’t you take a seat? Get comfortable, relax, take a second if you need to. Now what’s bothering you? Well, why don’t we start at the beginning?
Growing up, how was your relationship with the fundamentals of conscious existence? Did you have xenon orchid sinews spilling down the outer center of your blooming Escher/Mandelbrot head? And how about claustrophilic tendrils clapping caskets closed on seven-knuckled thumbs, did you get along well with the Gideon Bugler pineal glands, your projector eyes casting sci-fi’s on your STR’d strands? Tell me about your nerve to steal nerves of steel from under Bacchus’ bloody nose. Did Namibian Himbas tie-dye you, your ears pierced with a Phineas Gage flagpole, did you die before your day?
Thursday traction, Tuesday titration. My hope is to assess through my objective report of your subjective conjecture whether this proprietary blend of expertise and seasoning works as well as this transorbital ice pick
Holistic ballistics, you got a better idea? It’s about the best we could come up with. What, you think ideas spread because they’re good? No, they spread because people like them. So here we are once again. Holding, as it were, a mirror up to your mirror
I guess it’s just something people do

[Verse 3]
A bloody knife to split your infrastructure, wine to rev your motor function
Coital machinations of the dead
Well you mainline your animus, karate chop your abacus
And learn to be an animal instead
But I never did think you better than this, your modus operandi
Causes Nazi/Skoptzyism and suicide
Why to thine own self be true when it is you who are the problem
Not the things you do but something sick inside
Lithium and Dialectics, boy you really is defective
CBT don’t seem effective for that Cluster B, accept it
Offer up your innocence, please ignore the side effects
You’ve lost your mind and almost lost your life before, so you’ll be fine

[Chorus]
For what? For what? For what it’s worth
If it was going to kill you, boy, it would have by now
For what? For what? For what it’s worth
There’s no more looking back
And why would you want to look back?
I mean, it's no good looking back
So try to look forward now
For what? For what? For what it’s worth
If they were gonna get you, boy, they would have by now
For what? For what? For what it’s worth
There’s no more looking back, it’s looking up or looking down"

Lyrics.

"[Verse 1]
Weep for yourself, my man
You'll never be what is in your heart
Weep, Little Lion Man
You're not as brave as you were at the start
Rate yourself and rake yourself
Take all the courage you have left
And waste it on fixing all the problems
That you made in your own head

[Chorus]
But it was not your fault but mine
And it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
Didn't I, my dear?
Didn't I, my—?

[Verse 2]
Tremble for yourself, my man
You know that you have seen this all before
Tremble, Little Lion Man
You'll never settle any of your scores
Your grace is wasted in your face
Your boldness stands alone among the wreck
Now learn from your mother
Or else spend your days biting your own neck

[Chorus]
But it was not your fault but mine
And it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
Didn't I, my dear?
But it was not your fault but mine
And it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
Didn't I, my dear?
Didn't I, my dear?

[Bridge]
Hah
Hah
Hah
Hah
Hah
Hah

[Chorus]
But it was not your fault but mine
And it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
Didn't I, my dear?
But it was not your fault but mine
And it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
Didn't I, my dear?
Didn't I, my dear?"

Lyrics.

"[Verse 1]
Well, things change fast, but this too shall pass
Better carve it on your forehead or tattoo it on your ass
'Cause who can tell when the clock strikes twelve
If today's become tomorrow or if it's all just gone to hell?

[Verse 2]
My friend makes rings, she swirls and sings
She's a mystic in the sense that she's still mystified by things
But scared to ask, "How can nothing seem to last?"
'Cause like a cancer in your body, it all just goes too fast

[Verse 3]
We think too big, we think our self is one whole thing
And we claim that this collection has a name and is a being
But deep inside when every cell divides
Well, it sets upon the rule that states self-interest is divine

[Verse 4]
And cancer too lives by this golden rule:
That you must do unto the others as the others unto you
All for the best, because it's all that life accepts
And so we kill it like a buffalo: with awe and with respect

[Verse 5]
Don't ask God, just holler at the sky
Cause She'll tell it to you plainly in the clouds that whisper by
And praise the shapes, and then praise the way they change
And they'll teach you not to pray to light without you prayin' to rain

[Verse 6]
So I pray to hands, and I pray to needs
And I pray to blades of grass to find forgiveness in the weeds
But as for health, I just never did believe
And so I never prayed myself, except to those that prayed for me

[Verse 7]
The story goes, or the way that I was told
There was a king that always felt too high, and then he fell too low
And so he called all the wise men to the hall
And he begged them for a gift to end the rises and the falls

[Verse 8]
But here's the thing: they came back with a ring
It was simple and was plainly unbefitting of a king
Engraved in black, well, it had no front or back
But there were words around the band that said, "Just know: this too shall pass""

Lyrics.

"Hey love, you're not still afraid of our dearly departed, right?
Cause Earhart, Mozart, Joan of Arc and all of their friends are expected tonight

Listen now, we have little time so let's find some festive decor
Break out the candles, the cabernet, strike up the band

Let's all raise the dead
And ask them to come to feast
A big celebration of past consummations and grand conceits
Let's all break some bread
And merry down the boulevard
Give medals of honor to all of the goners and deceased

Come on, don't you tell me that you don't recognize anyone
This is Miss Dickenson, go ahead and tell her, her poems really lived on

Everybody, life is strictly for the living, like you and me
But tonight we are sharing, despite this odd pairing you see

Let's all raise the dead
And ask them to come to feast
A big celebration of past consummations and grand conceits
Let's all break some bread
And merry down the boulevard
Give medals of honor to all of the goners and deceased

Let's all raise the dead
And ask them to come to feast
A big celebration of past consummations and grand conceits
Let's all break some bread
And merry down the boulevard
Give medals of honor to all of the goners and deceased

And merry down the boulevard
Give medals of honor to all of the goners and deceased"

Lyrics.

"One day you'll look up at the ceiling above, if you’re lucky you'll be surrounded by the ones that you love, when
The lights in your eyes fade and life flashes by
One day you're going to die
One day you’ll sleep and you'll never wake again
Heaven, hell, nirvana, nothing, no one knows how it ends
Rest in peace or pieces and won't even know why
One day you're going to die

Read your horoscopes, your palms and tarot cards
But either way you destination ain't very far
You could drown, or choke, or burn, or be hit by a car
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, but something will eventually
One day you'll look back at the life that you lead
No more future left to fear that you'll have the past to regret
But your worries will be over if you truly realize
One day you’re going to die
Take it away, hands

In the fabric of time and in the vastness of space, a billion amounts to nothing in infinity’s face
At most a couple generations will remember the ways in which your life never mattered, so who cares if it's a waste?
Well, one day you’ll be not even a faint memory
No, at most a ghost or falling leaf from your family tree
Your legacy's not yours to see, nor is your eulogy
And you'll never know what it all means
But you'll be at peace before you sleep if you just keep this in mind:
That everything and everyone goes with the passage of time
So whether it’s cancer, murder, or suicide

One day you're going to die
No need to fear 'cause when it's here you won't be alive
Try not to think about it
One day you're doing to die
And there's probably nothing after
One day you're going to die
So if you only have one chance you oughta try your best to live as you like
One day you're going to die"

Lyrics.

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Instrumental.

"[Verse 1]
I remember tears streaming down your face when I said, "I'll never let you go"
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said, "Don't leave me here alone"
But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

[Chorus]
Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

[Verse 2]
Don't you dare look out your window
Darling, everything's on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold on to this lullaby
Even when (the) music's gone
Gone

[Chorus]
Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

[Bridge]
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
Oh (Oh)
Oh (Oh)
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
Oh
Oh

[Chorus]
Just close your eyes
You'll be alright
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

[Outro]
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh"

Lyrics.

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Instrumental.

"[Chorus]
Holy one, holy water
Drink enough, 'til you're under
Take it slow, take it farther
If you want, to surrender

[Verse 1]
This won't take long
And soon you might feel numb
This won't take long
You'll want another

[Verse 2]
Stay asleep and blame everyone for givin' up
Ache, repeat, a shame nothin's ever good enough
You can escape the weight of losin' everything you love
You have to break the chain and tell yourself you're good enough

[Pre-Chorus]
So take me back to the start
When еverything was better
I don't wanna say that I'm lost
'Causе it gets worse, then it gets better

[Drop]
'Cause it gets worse, then it gets better
[Chorus]
Holy one, holy water
Drink enough, 'til you're under
Take it slow, take it farther
If you want, to surrender

[Verse 3]
Or stay asleep and blame everyone for givin' up
You can't defeat the pain
If nothin's ever good enough

[Pre-Chorus]
And it comes down to my heart
Where everything is settled
I don't wanna say that I'm lost
'Cause it gets worse then it gets better

[Drop]
'Cause it gets worse then it gets better

[Chorus]
Holy one, holy water
Drink enough till you're under
Take it slow, take it further
If you want to surrender
Holy one, holy water
Drink enough 'til you're under
Take it slow, take it further
If you want to surrender"

Lyrics.

"[Verse 1]
I felt a break in a sacred place
Where your hands don't heal
These are the reasons you're ruled
By the things you feel

Out of the deep waters and all their intricacies
This is the real face of all your enemies

[Verse 2]
I felt you escape into empty space
Where my heart can't feel
Down in that darkness
You met all the things you feared

And I knew
I knew there was nothing I could do

[Chorus]
Could you stomach it, anymore?
Could you stand to be a breath away?
Can you feel the way your face distorts?
Did you think that it could be this way?

I can hear you from behind the door
I can feel you from a mile away
As you're growing out of my control
Will you watch me as I fade away?

[Verse 3]
You can't escape forever
Mistaking smoke for heaven's light
It's not follow or a fade to black and white

Oh, I could take you home
Pretend the best's still ahead
Maybe in the sun, you'll see
You got what you want, but not what you need

[Interlude]
If I'm afraid
Then you are the darkness that made me feel this way

[Chorus]
Could you stomach it, anymore?
Could you stand to be a breath away?
Can you feel the way your face distorts?
Did you think that it could be this way?

I can hear you from behind the door
I can feel you from a mile away
As you're growing out of my control
Will you watch me as I fade away?

[Outro]
Bless my darkness, bless my light
I lost my soul in your skin tones, now
Bless my darkness, bless my light
I lost my soul in your skin tones, now
Bless my darkness, bless my light
I lost my soul in your skin tones, now"

Lyrics.

"Funny how it’s easier to see
The forest for the trees, when winter steals the leaves
There’s many ways to hide a heart that bleeds
But I prefer the ease of rolling up my sleeves

You’ve got some nerve to be coming around with that smile on your face
And your feet on the ground
I used to be someone that you could believe
But it’s been a while, been a while

You’ve got some nerve to be coming around with that card up your sleeve
And those thorns in your crown
I used to be someone you could believe
Been a while, been a while

Good luck, godspeed, I know I’ll see you again
Funny how the night is not as long, when you depend upon
The dark before the dawn
There’s many ways to right a thing that’s wrong
You smile, you move along
But I prefer a song

You’ve got some nerve to be coming around with that smile on your face
And your feet on the ground
I used to be someone that you could believe
But it’s been a while, been a while

You’ve got some nerve to be coming around with that card up your sleeve
And those thorns in your crown
I used to be someone you could believe
Been a while, been a while
Good luck godspeed, I know I’ll see you again

Let me not make mazes with words
Let me be perfectly clear
Let me not make mazes with words
Get yourself, get the hell, get yourself out of here

Good luck, godspeed, I know I’ll see you again
I’ll always call you a friend indeed"

Lyrics.

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Instrumental.