I don't know if you can vent on here but I'm not going to vent too much, recently I haven't been feeling the best these past few weeks. I feel like a lonely loser who tries too hard with getting popular. I've been remembering some past terrible events and it's been making me feel horrible about myself; it doesn't help that my mental health hasn't been the best. I'm going to take a break from social media, idk if that would help.Â
I hope some people can relate to this, that would make me feel a little better about how I feel. This community is so awesome and friendly, and I met really cool people, but I don't know if this place is for me...I hope you guys have a lovely day, take care and stay safeđź’–đź’–
Hey I know it can be rough, take all the time you need. I have felt that way before, I felt lonely and out of place like I didn't belong. I hope you know I'm always here to talk I know we don't know each other but I hope you know I am someone you can come to if you need someone to listen, to talk to, or someone to ask advice of. If you need to contact me you can note me here or talk to me on discord at WulverArtistryÂ
Please take all the time you need to yourself!
I definitely feel the tries too hard to get popular — trying to find some spotlight in the Twitter art community 1-2 years ago has put me in an unhealthy mindset of “numbers matter.” And well, it’s okay to really crave recognition! It’s human to do it. But when it starts to get to you so bad that you can’t find validation within yourself anymore or can’t be satisfied unless you’re like x who gets y amount of likes and comments, then yeah. It’s gotten pretty toxic now :c
I hope you feel better soon though! If you think taking a break will help you, then go take it. Don’t forget to reach out if you need help though, there’s no shame in that C:
And you’re not your past, okay? ^^ You learn and change. It’s up to you to do whatever it is you wish with whatever feelings that arise from thinking about those past events, but don’t let them control you. Don’t let it define you. You’re bigger than your past, even if it’s hard to grasp the concept at the moment ♡
I used to want to be more popular as well, but now I've reached the point that it doesn't really matter for me. As long as I'm happy making the art I post, it doesn't matter if it gets little attention. There are many people out there who do love you and what you do online, even if it doesn't seem like it with the amount of attention you get.
As for your past, don't let it take you down now. It's happened and you can't do anything about it, so you just need to learn to live with it, even if it makes you feel a little bad. If anything, you should only let it make you a better person now by learning from those events.
Plus, there's no shame in taking a break. We all need it once in a while, I hope it helps you to recover from this. And remember, you can reach out for help at any time. I don't think I can say much more than I already have, but there's a lot of people out there who are willing to listen to you and help. You'll get through this, even if it seems nowhere in sight <3