Jesse Holland

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Death is something you cannot run from
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Name
Jesse Holland
Age
30
Birthday
December 12
Gender
Male (He/Him)
Height
5'8
Orientation
Gay
MBTI
ISFJ
Status
Alive
Summary

Some people are just unlucky: a bad hand in a card game or a bird leaving a "present' on the windshield of your vehicle. Probability and chance do not even begin to explain all the ways in which Jesse Holland's life has gone inconceivably wrong in all the worst ways. How does one pick themselves back up time and time again after a life of torture without having to exert a level of willpower that is beyond the norm? How does one even begin to live when their life has been so entrenched in death? Jesse is a man so haunted by the shadows of the ≪REAPER≫ that he believes it is only a matter of time before he continues the cycle of pain and torture and becomes death itself.
About
Courage
Confidence
Charm
Intellect
Empathy
Patience
Humor
Creativity
Likes

  • Airplanes
  • Mathematics
  • Architectural art
  • Hamsters
  • Closed spaces
  • Scented candles
  • Anything Hal likes ♡
Dislikes

  • Beer
  • Attention
  • Crowds of people
  • Citrus fruits
  • Uncleanliness
Personality

Timid, socially withdrawn, and seated as far away as possible from the action, Jesse Holland is a man whom many would describe as “weird” but would struggle to quantify why, as they’d know very little about the one who holds all his cards to his chest. He stammers through interactions with most people, fidgeting with his necklace and glancing anywhere and everywhere, but never making eye contact: emerald eyes always wandering, noting the nearest exits. It is difficult to follow his therapist’s advice, to be brave, to conquer his fears concerning socialization. Every time he has, the end result always justifies his irrational paranoia. Not only does he not take risks in any area of his life, but also takes great care as to avoid being in the type of situation in which he'd have to make a choice altogether. Routine and repetition, a boring normal existence, is the one he craves the most. No surprises, no adrenaline chasing, no collateral damage when the inevitable happens. The "inevitable" he fears is ostracization, cruelty, betrayal — any negative action you could name, for while Jesse is well equipped to handle pain in the physical sense, the emotional kind leaves scars that will not heal.

Despite knowing he shouldn't, he cannot help but still crave love and validation from the very people he fears will hurt him. He observes co-workers and gatherings at local bars and takes note on how they speak and joke around, and practices the motions at home in front of the mirror. All he wants is to seamlessly fit in, to be accepted as a peer among peers, and most importantly, to feel the safety one feels in a herd. To maybe even one day find the perfect man who will fit the role of protector, his perception of LOVE being shaped by the old black and white films the REAPER used to put on — the old traditional roles. He'll do anything for even a taste of such attention, even if it means becoming a door-mat and allowing himself to be stepped all over. It would be worth it to simply stop being alone, because being alone means that there are no distractions from the voices that taunt and torment him.

That being said, it is no wonder that even a little bit of kindness can go a long way. Jesse will repay any such acts ten, no, a thousand-fold. When he warms up, when he begins to feel that very dangerous feeling of SAFE, his small, unpracticed, uneven smile could light up the room. With the same gentle hands he uses to take care of his pet hamsters, he will go above and beyond to provide you anything to show he cares with no limit, whether they are acts of kindness or showering you in gifts. Although, as mentioned before, this sets him up to be very easy to take advantage of. But don't get too comfortable — Jesse's attachment style is not normal. With well-meaning intentions, his attempts to check in on those he cares about might come off as creepy. Texting and calling frequently, sneaking into their phone to keep location sharing with himself on, following them around like a lost puppy, keeping any small mementos he can find... These all stem from a horrific lack of normalized social interaction [which tends to happen when you spend nine years of your childhood and adolescence in the basement of a supernatural serial killer].

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Trivia

  • Hobbies include early morning jogs, crocheting, DIY hamster obstacle courses, model airplanes, anti-stress coloring books, baking, and cooking.
  • TW: Self-harm // Jesse has very gnarly scars, inflicted via knife, over the underside of his forearms. To hide them, he is often dressed in modest, covering clothing. Still relapses at times but is much better about it now than he was in highschool.
  • Has a nail-biting problem; wearing gloves most of the day helps to discourage it and prevent harm to his nailbeds. Sometimes he will chew on his necklace instead.
  • Smokes occasionally when he's severely stressed: it's a habit he picked up from his close childhood friend (and sweetheart). He keeps a pack in the glovebox of his car always, just in case.
  • Speaking of picked-up habits, wearing gloves nearly 24/7 is due to Alfonse's influence.
History
Disappearance of Evelyn Evans [Childhood]

TW: child abduction, implied gore and torture // nothing is written in detail

Jesse Evelyn Evans was born to Brandon Evans and Mary Holland, a newlywed couple that was eager to start their new life in Coast City. They had to move from Star City to chase work — Brandon worked as an accountant while Mary stayed home, running several businesses from the comfort of their modest condo, including a candle and soap business. Their son daughter came along as a pleasant surprise a mere year and a half after the first upheaval of their regular lives, and now represented a second huge change. Mary, the homely type with a heart the size of the moon, was excited to begin the process of rearing children (and anticipated many, many more). Brandon, the worry-wart, fretted over whether now was the "optimal time," and settled for the compromise of "there really isn't a best time to begin these things, but there sure were worse." They welcomed Jesse Evelyn into the world on December 12, about two weeks earlier than the expected due date.

As far as early developmental stages, life in the Evans household was fairly unremarkable. Jesse Evelyn was a bit shy but curious as most children are: the type of child to run and hide behind a parent's leg while still peeking out to get a good look. She seemed to have a strange idea of what was considered "pretty," and preferred the beauty of stitched up and patched toys to the conventionally attractive Barbies and Bratz. There were also often many fights to get the young child into a fancy new dress for Christmas, and oftentimes Mary would give it up and allow her to dress in something more comfortable. Brandon, on the other hand, felt as though Mary was too soft and was unwilling to put her foot down, and were it his turn to get his son daughter dressed, he'd make sure she was dolled up exactly as God intended.

Jesse's Evelyn's first year of school was Kindergarten — there was no need to put her in daycare or pre-school with Mary at home after all, and although she had interacted with children at Bible School in church, she was still very nervous about meeting new people and making friends. It was this year, at the age of five, where Jesse Evelyn met DEATH in the form of a bespectacled, silver-haired, and well-mannered man in a suit. The man would only show up when the child was alone, whether that was in the school bathroom or the playground or even just in the backyard. He introduced himself as Alfonse Fausto in a strange accent that the boy girl couldn't name, and had a disarming aura that made the child both confused and relaxed. They spoke of all manner of things, including her favorite foods, the subjects in school she did well at, and what she did with her parents last weekend.

Alfonse was her first friend, but she had to promise to keep it a secret.

Jesse Evelyn would spend most of her time with Alfonse after school while waiting for her father or mother to come pick her up. Brandon would often arrive late, so the school kept her waiting in the front foyer even as the sun began to set, and was told not to leave until her father arrived. Every day would be the same: Jesse Evelyn would sit patiently, but hear a voice seemingly from nowhere coax her outside to the playground. She would often find Alfonse at the swings and would join him, speaking until she'd hear her name called by one of her parents. Upon spinning around, Alfonse would vanish, and Jesse Evelyn would glance up at her parent expecting them to ask who she was speaking to, but would instead be chided lightly for coming outside when she should've been waiting inside the school. She begins to question whether or not her friend was imaginary, given how nobody would be able to see or confirm his existence.

Today, like all days, was much the same. The kindergartener waiting at the bench, staring out the door and waiting for a familiar face. Alfonse's soothing voice appearing out of nowhere, luring her out. Jesse Evelyn excitedly hopping out to join her friend on the swings, but as her shoes fill up with sand, she realizes she's alone. Alfonse's voice had led her out, but now he is nowhere to be seen. It's dark out suddenly, and the pleasant spring breeze becomes cold as ice. When Jesse Evelyn turns around to return back the way she came, back to the safety of school, there is a figure dressed in all black, a white skull peeking out from a hood, seemingly grinning at her. She runs in the opposite direction and the Reaper lets her, because the chase is fun in its own way.

The child runs until she can't anymore, silence surrounding her on all sides. For some reason, nothing was as it should have been. Surely there was a fence here that led out to the streets, but perhaps she had gotten turned around in her haste? Now there only remained the dark shadows and outlines of trees and forest, and before long, nothing. The Reaper waits her out until her most vulnerable moment, when she has collapsed and can only crawl away, crying without a sound. Tendrils begin extending from the Reaper's body, though they could have just as easily been branches from the trees all around them, and the child finally finds her voice, pleading for mama and papa. Reaper crouches down before her, the holes of the skull gleaming bright red mere inches from her own.

"Are you afraid of needles?"

It was a voice that she recognized, the one that belonged to her friend, the one that gently lured her away from safety. She should be shrieking, hollering for help, but once again, that confusing effect his voice had on her body paralyzed her from relying on any survival instincts. She simply nods her head. Yes, needles were scary. The masked man laughs under his breath — in this case, the preferred method of sedation would be a soaked towel held against the child's mouth, rewarding her for her courteous response (most of his victims would simply curse him out or scream).

The child is captured and sedated for an easy drive home. When the child slowly comes to, seated next to the driver, a familiar bespectacled face is smiling at him, mask, cloak, and dagger discarded. Alfonse, unknown yet as the serial killer and red-room operator REAPER, drives the child to his home, cracking jokes as casually as he used to on the swings, with the subject matter changing to morbidity, such as apologizing for the state of his home [meticulously cleaned to the point of obsession], or for the "cliche" of his "secret work room" being in the basement. The child is silent as she is led down the steps, faced with a hallway with four doorways, two on each side. Alfonse clicks his tongue when the child stops, unsure where to proceed, before she is led to the second room on the left-hand side.

The dull, grey walls were sheathed in long strips of translucent vinyl film, whereas the white tile at their feet were all angled towards the center of the room, where a conspicuous drain was inlaid in the resulting concave. A few paces away from it was the kind of surgical bed one would see at a hospital, and resting against it was a wheeled trolley that held two trays at different levels containing various metallic tools both sharp and blunt. Closest to the entrance was a mounted camcorder pointed towards the operating table. Perhaps the strangest thing was the ceiling itself, in which the child glanced up and discovered they could see the entire room reflected back at her, like her bathroom mirror back home.

Evelyn Evans dies on that operating table. The hollow-eyed child that takes her place is Jesse Evans.

Jesse was supposed to die that day. Alfonse had taken him there to kill him like the rest, normally not sparing any lives. Yet, while the child lay on that table, unable to move due to whatever substance he had been injected with, something right must have been said, for when he next opened his eyes, an action he had given up on being able to do ever again, he was no longer in the "workroom." The boy woke up chained to a wall in a cage, any evidence of what occurred the night before to his body gone. The boy feels insane, even moreso when his new captor, ex friend, arrives just on time to tell the boy what exactly his plans were with him. Alfonse wanted to give Jesse the gift of reaping, and seemed convinced that this child was the perfect protege, that they had so much in common. Alfonse would raise Jesse to be the next Reaper.

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Jesse in the Bathroom [Highschool]

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The Breakfast Club™ [Early Adulthood]

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The Office™ but Miserable [Ferris Air]

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Abilities
Metagene: Magnetokinesis

Magnetic Field Manipulation: Can generate, manipulate, and channel magnetic fields. He can assemble and disassemble most machinery, and bringing a metallic weapon to a fight with him is a lost cause. Jesse can also utilize this to create a defensive force-field around him to repel damage.

When he is able to concentrate his power into manipulating even the minuscule electromagnetic forces that exist between subatomic particles, he is able to even affect non-metallic objects (but this requires training and precision).

Flight: This is achieved through creating a repulsive force between himself and the planet.

Organic Iron Manipulation: Can control the traces of iron within organic matter, which allows him to have full control over another's body.

Emotional Electromagnetic Spectrum

Jesse has been able to harness the power of two emotions in the spectrum of light: Willpower (green) and the absence of all emotion, Death (black). He is able to generate solid-light constructs only limited by his own imagination and willpower using either power ring. He can also fly, travel through inhospitable environments, and enter hyperspace to move vast distances quickly.

His time as a Green Lantern was brief, whereas his access to the Black Lantern's powers remains available should he ever choose to wield it. Unique to the Black Lanterns, he is able to summon the dead to fight alongside him in addition to the prior listed powers [creating hard-light constructs, flying, etc.]

A God's Boon: Thanatos

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"OVERCOME FEAR"

To leave behind the title of REAPER and become something new — to reclaim the title of [death] and hold power over it: to become THANATOS, the god of death, and to use those powers for good. To become a hero against all odds in the face of adversity, to champion willpower and become a beacon of light for others.

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"BECOME FEAR"

To no longer cower in the shadows of the REAPER, to become the sole harbinger of [death] — to become the one who is feared instead. To lord death over all, to become THANATOS, the one who will reap your soul at his own behest. To be the one in control, if only for a moment — the moment it takes for your life to fade.

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