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sorry if this is long lol im trying really hard to condense it

-i dont mean to ghost. im super forgetful and i get anxious easily, feel free to poke me if you havent heard from me in a while. i tend to get social paranoia very quickly/sporadically + i have a full time job and dont have a ton of time to spend on toyhouse dot com

on that note, sorry to make this longer and kinda dark- but due to my bpd along with severe gad and mdd, i am very. very prone to sudden and deep suicidal/self harming spirals (which leave me socially and mentally paralyzed along with paranoid) that can last from a few days, to week/s, to month/s.. and i am not usually very responsive during those times, go figure. feel free to poke me, but as a heads up im very very sorry in advance if i fall off the face of the earth randomly. im working on it with therapy/psych help but itll take time- thank you for your patience, especially those that are close to me and/or choose to work with me despite this :') <3 

i guess as a heads up im never ignoring you on purpose, 9 times out of 10 it has been rapidly worsening paranoia + other bpd related issues, especially in + around online spaces/people. i am never ghosting on purpose, but im sorry it even happens- im working on it in therapy and with a psychiatrist as much as i can.

-im hypersexual because of trauma. dont be weird about it to me

-im black. i reclaim the n word. in general i say slurs that i can reclaim, as well as make mean jokes to my (close) friends (and those who tell me upfront its okay with them). just as a heads up 

-i cover heavy topics in my stories and artwork, it will be warned when present but keep in mind that i dont condone the weird shit i write about or draw. also, i dont tend to censor artistic nudity. 

-i draw nsfw, furry (ANTHRO ONLY.) nsfw, whatever. im not crazy open about it, i hide it to the best of my ability, and any nsfw talk is kept behind an auth list. just as a warning

-kin/irl/whatever list here. idc if youre a double, just dont be a dick abt it. dni list here, boundaries here, byf here. id appreciate if you read them

tw: themes of abuse and suicide. a non graphic suicide attempt is written. it will be marked with a *, and after the second * is when it is over. read with caution. thank you.