Oswald
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When I'm feeling low, I never had a safe place to call home. I'd sneak out, with nowhere to go. I'd run to the rivers, let my eyelids overflow.
Male
gender
He/Him
pronouns
Young Adult
age
Pansexual
orientation
9th October
dob
Libra
sign
Dogo Argentino
breed
AMAB
sex
ISFP
mbti
4w3
Enneagram
Oswald
Black
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Blackberry Pie
Motionless In White
Loss of ability to express emotions through art
Becoming a successful and recognised musician
Overview
Oswald is a big and muscular black Dogo Argentino with a square head and piercing ice blue eyes. His face is adorned with white makeup smeared all over, accentuating his signature black drips resembling running eyeliner. He sports a thick leather collar with his signature etched into the side, and a silver skull pendant hanging from the front. Oswald's cropped ears and lack of a tail add to his distinctive appearance. A white heart marking with a crack running through the middle adorns his chest, while a tattoo on his left front leg bears the word "Grief" in a gothic style.
Oswald presents a tough and intimidating exterior, but beneath it, he is a sweet and anxious individual. He takes uses his tough appearance to navigate potentially anxiety-inducing situations, often appearing emotionless and tough. Oswald's tough persona masks his inner struggles with depression and anxiety, which he battles; with the help of his close friends. Oswald's passion lies in music and art. He spends most of his time playing instruments, singing, and writing lyrics for potential songs. He finds solace in expressing his strong emotions through music and edgy inked art. Oswald's ultimate dream is to create music that resonates with others, hoping to inspire and connect with listeners on a deep and emotional level. Music is his outlet and a means to navigate the ups and downs of life.Personality
Positive traits
- Creative
- Passionate
- Empathetic
Negative traits
- Self-Destructive
- Moody
- Insecure
Oswald possesses a natural creative flair that sets him apart. He is incredibly imaginative, able to weave emotions, experiences, and observations into beautiful melodies and poignant lyrics. His creativity is his sanctuary, a space where he can pour his heart and soul into his art. Oswald's creative nature fuels his passion, igniting a fire within him to express himself authentically through his music.
However, alongside his creative spirit, Oswald battles with a self-destructive streak. At times, he finds solace in engaging in destructive behaviors, be it indulging in substance abuse or pushing his limits to the edge. These self-destructive tendencies stem from his deep-seated emotional turmoil and the overwhelming nature of his thoughts and feelings. While they provide temporary relief from his inner demons, they also hinder his personal growth and overall well-being. Oswald's moodiness is another aspect of his personality that often comes to the forefront. He experiences intense emotional fluctuations, sometimes feeling like a rollercoaster of highs and lows. His moods can be unpredictable, impacting his interactions with others. At times, he can be withdrawn and distant, needing space to process his emotions. Other times, his emotions burst forth, fueling his creative endeavors or manifesting as outbursts of frustration or sadness. Beneath his tough exterior, Oswald is plagued by deep-seated insecurities. He questions his own worth and struggles with feelings of inadequacy, often doubting his talent and fearing rejection. These insecurities stem from his fear of losing his creative abilities, as well as the fear of not being understood or accepted by others. Oswald's insecurities can hinder his personal and professional relationships, as he may struggle to trust others and fear vulnerability. Despite these negative traits, Oswald possesses a strong empathetic nature. He has a keen ability to understand and connect with the pain and struggles of others. Oswald's own experiences with emotional turmoil have cultivated a deep sense of empathy within him, allowing him to offer support and understanding to those in need. His empathetic nature, combined with his creative expression, allows him to touch the hearts of others through his music.Story
Oswald is a complex and passionate individual, driven by his love for music and creative expression. He possesses a unique blend of positive traits, such as creativity, passion, and empathy, but also struggles with self-destructive tendencies, moodiness, and insecurities. Oswald's life is marked by a series of intense experiences and relationships that have shaped him into the artist he is today. His journey is filled with both triumphs and challenges, as he navigates the delicate balance between his inner demons and his artistic aspirations.
Early Days
Oswald, raised as the only child, grew up with an innate passion for music. From a young age, he found solace in melodies and rhythms, his heart resonating with the power of music to evoke emotions. His first instrument was a battered acoustic guitar, a hand-me-down from his uncle. Oswald poured hours into learning chords and strumming patterns, honing his skills and discovering his unique sound.As he grew older, Oswald's passion for music led him to join a local band. Drawn to the bass guitar's deep, pulsating rhythm, he found his place as the backbone of the band's sound. They played gigs at small venues, pouring their hearts into each performance. During his teenage years, Oswald stumbled upon the goth and emo culture. The dark aesthetics, poetic lyrics, and intense emotions resonated deeply with him. Immersing himself in this subculture, Oswald found a community that understood his innermost struggles. The goth and emo culture became an integral part of his identity, shaping his creative process and influencing his music. In the midst of his exploration, Oswald wrote his first song, what he would consider as a cringy and edgy reflection of his discovery of goth and emo culture. The lyrics painted a picture of his journey, capturing the pain, longing, and self-discovery that accompanied his newfound path: "Within the shadows, I found my place, Where darkness speaks and emotions embrace. In the depths of my soul, I've come alive, A goth heart beating, emotions to survive. Blackened skies and silver tears, A world of fears, yet no more to bear. I wear the makeup, the scars unseen, Embracing the pain, my heart's serene. In this world of goth and emo's plight, I found my voice, my solace, my light. The music whispers, echoes of my soul, A symphony of darkness, making me whole."Kiwi
Oswald's life took an unexpected turn when he met Kiwi, a gothic Jack Russell terrier with a vibrant personality. Their unlikely bond formed through their shared love for music and art. Kiwi's energy and creativity complemented Oswald's introspective nature, and together they began to explore their musical talents.
Their relationship started as a playful collaboration, with Kiwi joining Oswald in jam sessions and offering creative input. They would experiment with makeup and fashion, diving deeper into the goth and emo culture that fascinated them both. Their shared passion for music created a deep emotional connection between them, and they found solace in each other's presence. However, the path of their relationship was not without challenges. Kiwi's bipolar II disorder presented hurdles that Oswald struggled to navigate. Her neurotic tendencies and habit of pushing people away during difficult times put a strain on their connection. Oswald, driven by his empathetic nature, tried to be there for Kiwi and keep their relationship alive. But ultimately, Kiwi asked for space and limited her interactions with him, leaving Oswald heartbroken and questioning his role in her life.The end of their relationship had a profound impact on Oswald's creative process. The pain and loss he experienced became the driving force behind his music. The lyrics he penned during this tumultuous period delved into themes of heartbreak, loss, and the struggle to find oneself in the face of adversity. The emotions Oswald grappled with were channeled into his songs, capturing the raw intensity of his experiences. Kiwi's influence remained etched in his music, a bittersweet reminder of their connection and the transformative power of love and loss.Grief
In the dimly lit room, Oswald sat hunched over his guitar, his paws delicately strumming the strings. The melodies that filled the space carried the weight of his emotions, as if each note held a piece of his soul. Tears welled in his eyes as memories of his mother flooded his mind.
Victoria, a woman with a heart of gold, had been the anchor in Oswald's life. She nurtured his creativity from a young age, recognising the fire that burned within him. She encouraged him to pursue his passion for music, believing in his talent even when he doubted himself. They would spend hours together, Victoria patiently teaching him how to play his first instrument, a worn acoustic guitar.But life can be cruel, and Oswald's world shattered when Victoria was diagnosed with cancer. They fought together, their spirits unyielding, but in the end, the disease claimed her. Oswald was left with a void that seemed insurmountable.Grief washed over him like an unrelenting storm, threatening to drown him in sorrow. The weight of his loss was immeasurable, his heartache consuming every fiber of his being. In those darkest moments, music became his lifeline. Oswald poured his emotions into the songs he wrote, creating a deeply personal tribute to his mother. The lyrics were filled with raw pain and unconditional love, capturing the essence of their bond.As he strummed the final chord, a bittersweet sense of solace washed over Oswald. He realised that his mother's spirit would forever be intertwined with his music, her legacy living on through the melodies he created. The loss taught him the fragility of life and the fleeting nature of time. It instilled within him an unwavering empathy for others who had experienced similar heartbreak, fueling his desire to connect with them through his music. Oswald's grief transformed into a profound sense of purpose. He was determined to share his songs, his stories, and his pain with the world. Each performance became a cathartic release, a connection formed between artist and audience. Through his music, Oswald hoped to inspire others to cherish the ones they loved and to find solace in the darkest of times.Though Victoria was no longer physically present, her presence was etched in Oswald's heart. Her love and wisdom became the guiding force behind his creative journey. As he strummed the guitar, his mother's spirit whispered in the melodies, reminding him that even in the face of loss, music had the power to heal, to unite, and to transcend the boundaries of pain.Solo
Oswald's journey as a solo artist was heavily influenced by the bands that shaped his musical identity. The haunting melodies of My Chemical Romance, the dark romanticism of HIM, and the introspective lyrics of The Smashing Pumpkins became his constant companions, inspiring him with their raw emotions and unapologetic self-expression. Their music served as a guiding light as Oswald embarked on the path of solo musical pursuits. Transitioning from being part of a band to a solo artist was not without its challenges. Oswald faced the daunting task of navigating the music industry alone, feeling the weight of expectations and wrestling with self-doubt. He questioned whether he could create something meaningful on his own, grappling with insecurities about his abilities. But within the depths of his uncertainty, Oswald found the determination to channel his innermost thoughts and emotions into his debut album, an artistic journey he named "Fractured Reflections."The release of his first album was a mix of exhilaration and nervousness. Oswald battled the fear of rejection and the vulnerability of baring his soul to the world. However, he mustered the courage to hold his inaugural solo concert, a transformative experience that solidified his passion for performing. As he took the stage, he felt a surge of energy and a profound connection with the audience. Their applause and heartfelt reactions validated his artistic path and ignited a fire within him to keep sharing his music with others.Relations
Friend
Oswald and Romance share a love for My Chemical Romance. Often attending concerts together. Oswald draws strength from Romance's confidence, though sometimes finds his cockiness overwhelming. They bond over their passion for music.
Good Friend
Oswald and Blair share a close bond as gothic companions, connected by their love for makeup and gothic hobbies. They support and inspire each other, but their intense emotions can sometimes lead to clashes. Through their deep understanding, they find solace in drawing and cherish their unique connection.
Partner
Oswald's relationship with Socks is a heartwarming tale of love and connection. From a crush that quickly grew into a deep bond, their friendship-turned-romance brings Oswald immense happiness and inspiration. They understand and support each other, creating a wholesome and cherished relationship filled with love and creativity.
