CHICKADEEPAW 🍗

Name: Chickadee'paw

Warrior name: Chickadee'mimic

Nickname(s): Dee, Nagito

Gender: male

Pronouns: any pronouns

Sexual orientation: pansexual and polyamorous

Rank: either a warrior apprentice or a medicine cat apprentice. Depends on how I'm feeling while adding him to a rp.

Personality: Bullied and ignored, chickadeepaw is an isolated individual who craves freedom from his day-to-day tortures of being treated like he's nothing. His parents didn't even bother to take care of him, neither did his mentor nor older sisters. Not only did other kits and apprentices bullied him, so did his family. It's gone like that for some time now in his life. Until the passing of his parents of course. Leading to a life of complete peril amd cruelty for him, hatred and anger living inside him every single day just to bring havoc and spill blood. It takes up a lot of energy just to hold himself dowm so he does not try anything with witnesses around. Harming himself in the process. Not for being clumsy, but to force himself to stop. Initially nervous and scared because of the bullying, he is quite timid and awkward. Not being able to socialize with anyone that well. He doesn't even talk that much. His parents nor even his mentor weren't ever there to teach him new things. No one was. Main reason he taught himself. Always escaping camp to be alone in the evergreens to jusr have some peace and to start working on his battle tactics and hunting skills. He does show enthusiasm and joy whenever someone helps him out and becomes friendly towards him for the first time. While his enthusiasm can become annoying, at times chickadeepaw can and will still be hesitant and respectful, often apologizing for being a nuisance whenever someone was busy. He idolizes anyone he starts to grow an attachment to as a cool superhero, most likely viewing them as his "savior" from his bullying and teasing. There are times when he will cling to the someone and follow them wherever they go. Maybe even towards places he isn't allowed to be. This clinginess and other socially awkward behaviors is likely due to his past of social isolation as a victim of bullying. He is quite gullible and dumb, ready to obey anyone who he feels extremely close to and trusts a lot. He is easy to manipulate and convince and he has no braincells whatsoever. Will do anything anyone says, even if it gets himself in trouble. For moons he has been a huge asshole towards others, even higher roles such as the leader and deputy. He doesn't ask the medicine cat for help either, he usually just walks in and steals the herbs for himself. Nothing more. He barely shows any emotion except hatred and insecurity at most times. He hides his true feelings and emotions away, hoping to not let them all out so suddenly ever again.

Appearance: chickadeepaw is quite the skinny individual, barely showing any muscles whatsoever. All they show are ribs and bones. He is pretty frail and thin. He is smaller than most and looks like a newly made apprentice but he is still growing, just takes time. He is short basically, a munchkin cat mixed with a Scottish fold. That's his breed(s). His fur is extremely soft and fluffy, it even curls a little. It reminds others of a big cloud in the sky, considering his pattering and markings and pelt colour. He has pale white fur with hints of multicolour gray that looks like he has been painted. The hints of gray start off bright but they begin to darken, like white clouds becoming ask gray thunderclouds. His tail is like a cloud too, bounces whenever he walks. He's got some hints of deep blue markings all over his head and face. For example: he's got a rhombus marking on his forehead. His ears are flopped down like rabbit ears, kinda. They never seem to stand up, unless he is walking and they bounce just like his tail. He's got stunning saffron yellow and orange irises that glisten in the night and day. He can wear an awkward or confused expression on his face but most of the time it's blank, tired, or deadly looking. Hence the way he doesn't show much emotion towards others or even himself. He smells of blackberries and carnation flowers. Sometimes will cover their fur in carnation flowers just ro remain relaxed and try to rest. He was severely lacking in sleep due to vicious nightmares and hallucinations and his thoughts eating at him. Has huge eyebags underneath his eyes. His voice claim would have to be Nagito Komaede - https://youtu.be/

Extra information: he was born an only child, not knowing what it's like to have friends. Until he realized hd wasn't once his two older sisiters decide to show up in his life. He's quite lonely and doesn't communicate as much as he should.
he has extreme trust and abandonment issues. It takes time for him to trust someone.
he looks up to others that he feels close to, and will obey their every command.
an idiot. He is an idiot.

 has no braincells whatsoever.
clumsy asf, always falling on their face.
[ikes to collect things and hoard them for himself, not much of a sharer.
Will listen to you if he trusts you completely and feels safe and comfortable around you. He is gullible and easy to manipulate. If you told him to murder someone(even like giving a kit deathberries), he would. If you told him to jump off a cliff, he would.
Does feel regret after everything he does. Though he starts to lose all hope and everything, lose himself and start to think death and killing is normal.
will jump off a cliff if you tell him too.
basically a dumbass who doesn't understand personal boundaries.
he's quite clingy to those he feels close to.
an excellent follower and listener.
has a huge phobia of insects.
Does have murderous tendencies randomly pop up inside him.
Likes to eat blackberries for some reason.
He actually enjoys flowers a lot. Main thing that helps him to calm down and regain himself from his intrusive thoughts and intentions. He actually smells like carnations too, which are his favorite due to the colour of them. They're a crimson red, just like blood.
[c] Bites at his claws as a force of habit. He also picks at his scars whenever he does receive any. Always reopening them and watching the blood drip and drip.
Warrior name is Chickadee_mimic.
has a hard time expressing feeling and his emotions. Whenever something new pops up that he isn't used to, he starts to panic and freak out. Something new is born and he becomes a pit of rage and he cannot control himself. Confused and fearful of himself he starts to cause wreck everywhere. Only time to calm him down his pin him with all your might and let him smell a carnation flower.
he's just not used to caring about others due to the lack of others caring for him. It's all new and confusing to him. Even thinking about it gives him a massive migraine.
His scars are optional but appreciated if drawn. I'll show you a pic of what his scars look like.

Tends to see ghost.

Talks to himself. A lot. 

An overthinker. 

Never smiles. Unless he's killed someone. Though that's mostly a malicious smile, not a genuine one.