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50% Mexican Grey Wolf
Koenrad
"In the end you don't so much find yourself as you find someone who knows who you are."–Robert Brault.
Appearance: In terms of stature, Koen takes after his biological mother, Sana. His petite frame and striking blue eyes bear a distinct resemblance to her. In fact, if he were coated in white, it would be impossible to mistake him for anything but her offspring. Standing at a mere 26 inches tall and weighing in at a modest 55 pounds, Koen's size is a reflection of his mother's build. While his coat is predominantly sandy brown with auburn highlights, the agouti accents along his back and tail in shades of gray and charcoal black add depth to his appearance. Although his coat is generally short, Koen sports significant feathering along his neck, back, and tail, giving him an air of elegance and grace.
Scent: Koenrad's scent is a combination of pine, iron, and the faintest hints of rosemary. Together, these scents create a complex and intriguing fragrance that is uniquely Koenrad's own. It's a scent that is both earthy and grounded, yet at the same time, light and refreshing. It's a scent that evokes feelings of peace and calm, like taking a deep breath of fresh mountain air.
Voice: Koenrad's voice is a unique blend of softness and strength, carrying a gentle and soothing quality, yet revealing a hint of vulnerability and hesitation. It bears the marks of hardships he's endured, but also reflects a quiet strength and determination to move forward despite uncertainties.
Voice Claim: Lucifer from Hazbi Hotel
Strengths:
- Empathy: Koenrad possesses a deep sense of empathy, allowing him to understand and connect with the emotions and struggles of those around him. This strength enables him to be a supportive and compassionate friend and family member.
- Loyalty: Despite his inner conflicts, Koenrad remains fiercely loyal to his loved ones and will go to great lengths to protect and defend them.
- Compassion: He has a compassionate nature, which makes him sensitive to the needs of others. He genuinely cares about their well-being and will go out of his way to help.
- Agility: Being the runt of the litter, Koenrad has honed his agility to navigate through the densest of forests with grace. His nimbleness grants him an advantage in evading threats and swiftly moving through tight spaces.
Weaknesses:
- Physical Strength: Koenrad's small stature limits his offensive capabilities. Although he is swift and agile, his lack of brute strength can leave him vulnerable in direct confrontations with more powerful opponents.
- Self-Doubt: His past experiences have left Koenrad with lingering self-doubt, making him question his own worth and abilities. This insecurity can sometimes hinder him from taking the initiative or fully trusting his decisions.
- Impulsive Outbursts: Despite his introspective nature, Koenrad sometimes succumbs to impulsive outbursts of anger and frustration, especially in moments of heightened emotional distress.
- Stubbornness: In his desire to protect his loved ones, Koenrad can display stubbornness in clinging to certain beliefs or perceptions. This steadfastness may cloud his judgment, making it difficult for him to see alternative viewpoints.
Biggest flaw: : Koenrad's biggest flaw lies in the deep-seated hatred he harbors towards his biological mother, Sana. The traumatic events of his past have left a lasting scar, causing him to resent and fear the darkness that resides both within her and in himself. This intense animosity can impact his judgment, as it sometimes prevents him from seeing the potential for redemption or change in others, even in those he cares about deeply. His unresolved feelings towards Sana may lead him to act impulsively or react out of fear, creating conflicts within himself and with those around him. In his fear of becoming like her, he judges himself the harshest.
Details
Likes
- Starry Nights
- Sunrises and Sunsets
- Warmer Weather
- Quiet time with Family and Friends
Dislikes
- Dark and Confined Spaces
- Bitter Cold
- Confrontations
- Pack Meetings
Personality
Koenrad possesses a complex and multifaceted personality, shaped by both his experiences and his intrinsic nature. He is a thoughtful and introspective individual, often found deep in contemplation as he grapples with his conflicting emotions and past traumas. The weight of his past actions and the consequences of his choices weigh heavily on him, plauging him with deep-rooted anxities and unresolved anger he's doing his best to keep in check. Compassionate and overprotective, Koenrad's love for his family runs deep. He appreciates their unconditional love, support, and forgivenesss and finds solace in their presence. Still, he struggles with both the fear of being left behind as a pup and failing to protect them as an adult, leading to moments of self-doubt and uncertainty about his place in the world.
He is drawn to the beauty of nature and often seeks solace in its embrace, finding a sense of peace in the simplicity and serenity it offers. Koenrad has a profound connection to the night sky, finding comfort in gazing at the stars and contemplating the vastness of the universe. While he may seem reserved and introverted, Koenrad's loyalty and protective nature towards those he cares about are unwavering. He is willing to face his fears and insecurities if it means ensuring the safety and happiness of his loved ones.
Background
Koenrad's story began in the dark depths of a heart-wrenching tragedy. His own mother, Sana, attempted to take his life and that of his siblings by throwing them into a treacherous river. But fate intervened when his father, Takota, leaped into the rushing waters and saved them. From that moment, Koenrad and his siblings were taken in and secretly raised as Takota and Juniper's own, shrouding their origins in secrecy.
As they grew, the weight of their origins became more apparent, especially when it came to his brother Percval. Tragedy struck once more when his two brothers lost their lives at the hands of their vengeful biological mother. The loss marked a deep scar on Koenrad's heart, leaving him grappling with the painful truth about his past.
At a pack meeting, Sana revealed herself as their true mother, setting off a chain of events that would forever change their lives. Takota, realizing the burden of his past and the darkness that clung to the pack, made a difficult decision to step down as their leader. Despite the love he held for his family and pack, he knew that distance was necessary for their safety.
The next pack meeting brought another blow when a heavily pregnant Juniper decided to join Takota in exile. Koenrad felt the weight of abandonment once more, as his parents left without much explanation. In the aftermath of the meeting, his sister Himeojo and aunt Wisae sought to comfort him, but his heart remained heavy with questions and uncertainty.
During his solitary journey, he encountered Brielle and Tauri, two wolves who pulled him back from the edge of isolation and reminded him of the importance of connection. Their kindness and companionship gave him hope and a renewed sense of purpose.
Alone and lost, Koenrad ventured out to find his place in the world. Survival was a challenge, going from pack life where everything was provided for him to having to provide for himself made it even harder. However, the memories of his family kept him going, pushing him to find a way back to them.
Despite the hardships and the darkness that surrounded him, Koenrad's determination to find his family remained unwavering. Finally, the day came when he reunited with Juniper, the mother who had loved him and his sister as her own. In that moment, he felt a glimmer of hope that perhaps, in the midst of all the pain and loss, he could find a new beginning and a sense of belonging. The journey had been long and arduous, but it was far from over as he faced the challenges of forgiveness, self-discovery, and finding his place in a world that had been marked by both tragedy and love.
Takota
[ Father ]
Koenrad has always held his father in high regard, as the former leader of the Lunar Creek pack. However, as time passes and his father remains absent, Koen's respect for him begins to falter. The unanswered questions in his mind continue to grow, leaving him wondering how his father could leave them behind without even a clue as to his whereabouts. The once unwavering trust Koen had in his father is now replaced with doubt and confusion, as he struggles to come to terms with the abandonment he feels.
Sana
[ Biological Mother ]
Koenrad's feelings towards his biological mother, the former leader of Silent Oak, are complex and fraught with deep-seated emotions. While he is grateful for her giving birth to him, his heart is filled with an all-consuming hatred towards her. The knowledge of her actions and deceit has shattered his world, and everything he once knew has been torn apart because of her. The pain of her betrayal runs deep, leaving a wound that may never fully heal. Despite his longing for closure, Koen finds himself unable to forgive her for the hurt she has caused him and his family.
Juniper
[ Adoptive Mother ]
Koen's affection towards his adoptive mother Juniper remains steadfast, but it has become complicated since Sana exposed the truth. While Juniper has always been a constant source of love and support for Koen, the absence of his father Takota has left him uncertain of her feelings towards him. Despite this, he holds onto the hope that their bond will withstand the turmoil that has shaken his world.
Himeojo
[ Sister ]
Koenrad has a deep and unwavering love for his younger sister, the only surviving member of his litter. Despite their shared experiences of trauma and loss, his sister is a source of joy and comfort in his life. He is fiercely protective of her and will go to great lengths to ensure her safety and happiness.
Percival [Deceased]
[ Brother ]
Koen's conflicted feelings for his deceased eldest brother remain a source of pain. He regrets not having had the chance to form a closer bond with him, but the memories of his brother's imposing presence still fill him with fear and uncertainty.
Tadashi [Deceased]
[ Brother ]
Koen's heart aches for Tadashi, his second-born brother, who was the largest of their litter. The two shared a close bond, and Koen is still grieving Tadashi's untimely passing.
Elysia
[ Half-Sister ]
One of four newborn half-siblings that Koen hopes will have a better life than he and Himeojo.
Albula
[ Half-Sister ]
One of four newborn half-siblings that Koen hopes will have a better life than he and Himeojo.
Haiku
[ Half-Brother ]
One of four newborn half-siblings that Koen hopes will have a better life than he and Himeojo.
Jove
[ Half-Brother ]
One of four newborn half-siblings that Koen hopes will have a better life than he and Himeojo.
Brielle
[ Friend ]
One of his closest friends, Bri found Koenrad at his lowest and helped him find resolve when he was ready to give up.
Tauri
[ Friend ]
Beta of Lunar Creek and in line to be the next Alpha, appointed by his mother when she stepped down. Koen holds a lot of respect for Tauri and considers her a close friend. She made him feel like he wasn't alone and gave him a much-needed push to seek out his family.
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