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14985892_MofAKx3OgJqxCdZ.png?1562219162✦ Malaise

noun: malaise

  1. a general feeling of discomfort, illness, or uneasiness whose exact cause is difficult to identify. "an air of malaise"
Name: Sitkha (prefers Malaise)
Sex: Female
Age: Adult, mid-20s.
Race: Angora cat/snow leopard; Indochinese.
Orientation: Lesbian
Height: 156cm (5'2)
Weight: 42kg (94 lbs)
Chest size: B-cup
Likes tidiness, salmon, spring and winter, fashion, patterns & symbolism, puffballs, ribbons, make-up, huge leafy plants, mornings, tea, light snow, clouds and fog, peace and quiet.

Dislikes unsanitary surroundings, disorderly conduct, repetitive sounds or incessant talkers, being stared at, and  being touched too much or too frequently, severe weather.

✦ Appearance

She has a round and friendly  face-shape with large pointed ears. Her facial markings resemble a light  mask with a diamond in the center of   her forehead and two darker  stripes under each eye. Her senses are  highly refined and she is always  taking in her surroundings to the  fullest extent. Curiously dark  almond-shaped eyes with bright blue irises and slitted pupils- often  used for glaring accusingly at others,  but are remarkably suited for  night-vision as well. Her whiskers allow  her to sense subtle changes in  the vibrations around her.

Her  eyelashes are naturally long,  although she clearly applies makeup to get  such an extreme effect. She  has a small dark nose which can detect most  scents, and her mouth is  soft and pink and full of sharp  teeth. Her  tongue is round and  human-like, but still rough and  sandpapery like a  cat's. She is  allegedly so sensitive to taste that she can't bear to eat  a majority  of food she comes across.

Her palms and soles do not  have  pawpads, instead they are covered in soft skin, heightening her  sense  of touch. Her wrists and ankles have light bracers tattooed all  the way  around them that resemble Celtic engravings. Her nails naturally  form a  claw-like shape, but are too dull to do any serious damage. She  is  covered head to toe in extremely fine, tightly packed fur. Her tail  is  long and semi-prehensile, but too weak to carry any weight; it is   mostly for balance and flicking wildly back and forth when she is   irritated. It appears to be the only part of her body where the fur   becomes fluffy and dense, and is rather well insulated.

Her voice  is quiet and pleasant, but firm. She does not speak with any   noticeable inflections and is almost strangely monotonous. Her posture   is very upright and exact, she expects too much from herself and won't   let loose, even in her body language her face is usually blank and her   arms stay at her side. She displays very little facial expressiveness,   but she might widen her eyes if you do something particularly  offensive!

She always smells of different herbs and hygienic products, her natural scent can (sadly) barely be detected. No doubt she is quite attractive, she seems well aware of the agreed   upon consensus despite how put off she is by others mentioning it. Why   can't she just take a compliment?

✦ Personality

Lawful neutral / ISFJ / Capricorn / 1w9

A  fastidious and deliberate creature, "proper," "strict," and "uptight"  are all words her associates would use to describe her. She is very easy  to make fun of in how serious she   appears. None have observed her to  be angry or upset before, only as   though she has a stick up her ass.  She does have a passive gentleness   about her however, appearing breezy  in her movements when she's left to   her own devices, but would become  stiff again were she to be  obstructed.

She is very bad at  relationships of any sort and often isolates   herself. In jobs she  usually earns the placement of "teacher's pet,"   which leads to both  admiration and contempt from her peers. However, if   she finds herself  in circumstances where people look up to her, she   tends to sever ties.  She's is more comfortable being under someone else's thumb or isolated  entirely. That's not to say she's a pushover, she has a cold exterior  and doesn't give into other people easily.

She has an  underdeveloped sense of humor, and even sarcasm. She is more likely to  make cutting remarks, though its unclear whether or not she feels  strongly about such statements. She tends to be seen as a buzzkill by  others and is used to the alienation.

At her best, she is devoted,  working dutifully to achieve beyond what is expected of her. She would  be conflicted in situations that asks her to be dishonest, as she tends  speaks her mind regardless of how it is perceived by others. At  her worst, she is inflexible. She needs things to fit a narrow pattern  and may become erratic when they do not. She can appear to be in a rush  once she sets her sights on something, making it difficult to get  through to her.

She has a moderately sized collection of trinkets  and artifacts which   seem to get very little use out of them, but are  meticulously sorted  for  display. She is knowledgeable with various  species of plants and  has a  spectacular green thumb. She's good at  mixing drinks and brewing   potions, yet somehow manages to be a  terrible chef...

She is by all  accounts a stable person, however she can quickly be  pushed to her edge if  enough things are setting her off- sometimes to  the point of being unable to continue serious matters without drawing  attention to it- which  she is   more than willing to take into her own  hands if for nothing else but her own peace of   mind.  This can cause her to be perceived  as rude.

Although she hides it well,  one of her biggest fears is that everyone    hates her and that she will  end up completely alone in life; but above    all she dreads lack of  control and losing her own sense of self. She    stifles one fear to give  preference to the other. She  has had  issues with alcohol in the past to cope with her fear, and so she  purposefully restricts herself from it, heaven forbid if she were to  slip on this..

✦ Attributes

  • Intelligent, plus she has access to a lot of information even if she doesn't know it off-hand.
  • Perceptive, she is a sharp pattern-seeker and has keener senses than most.
  • Persuasive, she is eloquent and realistic with various connections.
  • Physically weak and little-to-no endurance, she can carry her own weight and not much more.
  • Easily overwhelmed, if there is too much going on for her to process she will check out, physically or mentally.

She has an acute intellect and sound memory, she is well taught and open   to new information. Thanks to her furious categorizating habits, she  is  good at managing information and holding onto it, though  she  does   have a few blind spots; namely with personal details. She is not  good   at keeping up with relationships or social statistics and will   easily   forget names, faces, connections, and so on.

She has undiagnosed OCD characterized by contamination (cleaning and  hand-washing compulsion), appearance (grooming, not weight), sorting and  organizing repetitively, eating (textures and strong flavours), severe  rumination, and other invisible mental rituals.

Has a sort of spiritual sixth sense which goes beyond typical empathy.  She can predict certain events and read other people with fairly  accurately, it spooks her frequently. Some individuals have taken to  calling her a "witch" and spreading rumours, the more superstitious of her peers tend to avoid her,  not wanting to evoke misfortune.


✦ Playlist

"Mona Lisa"
Nicki Minaj

✦ Origins

Although Malaise is my fursona, she does not represent my true self and instead is something of the inverse of me; someone I see when I am not myself, or, my shadow if you will. Originally she was my avatar on IMVU when I was 12 years old. She was an alien feline marked by her deep, dark galactic eyes and strangely long eyelashes, left to collect dust until I reconnected with her an entire decade later.