- a general feeling of discomfort, illness, or uneasiness whose exact cause is difficult to identify. "an air of malaise"
|Name: Sitkha (prefers Malaise)|
Age: Adult, mid-20s.
Race: Angora cat/snow leopard; Indochinese.
Height: 156cm (5'2)
Weight: 42kg (94 lbs)
Chest size: B-cup
|Likes tidiness, salmon, spring and winter, fashion, patterns & symbolism, puffballs, ribbons, make-up, huge leafy plants, mornings, tea, light snow, clouds and fog, peace and quiet.|
Dislikes unsanitary surroundings, disorderly conduct, repetitive sounds or incessant talkers, being stared at, and being touched too much or too frequently, severe weather.
She has a round and friendly face-shape with large pointed ears. Her facial markings resemble a light mask with a diamond in the center of her forehead and two darker stripes under each eye. Her senses are highly refined and she is always taking in her surroundings to the fullest extent. Curiously dark almond-shaped eyes with bright blue irises and slitted pupils- often used for glaring accusingly at others, but are remarkably suited for night-vision as well. Her whiskers allow her to sense subtle changes in the vibrations around her.
Her eyelashes are naturally long, although she clearly applies makeup to get such an extreme effect. She has a small dark nose which can detect most scents, and her mouth is soft and pink and full of sharp teeth. Her tongue is round and human-like, but still rough and sandpapery like a cat's. She is allegedly so sensitive to taste that she can't bear to eat a majority of food she comes across.
Her palms and soles do not have pawpads, instead they are covered in soft skin, heightening her sense of touch. Her wrists and ankles have light bracers tattooed all the way around them that resemble Celtic engravings. Her nails naturally form a claw-like shape, but are too dull to do any serious damage. She is covered head to toe in extremely fine, tightly packed fur. Her tail is long and semi-prehensile, but too weak to carry any weight; it is mostly for balance and flicking wildly back and forth when she is irritated. It appears to be the only part of her body where the fur becomes fluffy and dense, and is rather well insulated.
Her voice is quiet and pleasant, but firm. She does not speak with any noticeable inflections and is almost strangely monotonous. Her posture is very upright and exact, she expects too much from herself and won't let loose, even in her body language her face is usually blank and her arms stay at her side. She displays very little facial expressiveness, but she might widen her eyes if you do something particularly offensive!
She always smells of different herbs and hygienic products, her natural scent can (sadly) barely be detected. No doubt she is quite attractive, she seems well aware of the agreed upon consensus despite how put off she is by others mentioning it. Why can't she just take a compliment?
Lawful neutral / ISFJ / Capricorn / 1w9
A fastidious and deliberate creature, "proper," "strict," and "uptight" are all words her associates would use to describe her. She is very easy to make fun of in how serious she appears. None have observed her to be angry or upset before, only as though she has a stick up her ass. She does have a passive gentleness about her however, appearing breezy in her movements when she's left to her own devices, but would become stiff again were she to be obstructed.
She is very bad at relationships of any sort and often isolates herself. In jobs she usually earns the placement of "teacher's pet," which leads to both admiration and contempt from her peers. However, if she finds herself in circumstances where people look up to her, she tends to sever ties. She's is more comfortable being under someone else's thumb or isolated entirely. That's not to say she's a pushover, she has a cold exterior and doesn't give into other people easily.
She has an underdeveloped sense of humor, and even sarcasm. She is more likely to make cutting remarks, though its unclear whether or not she feels strongly about such statements. She tends to be seen as a buzzkill by others and is used to the alienation.
At her best, she is devoted, working dutifully to achieve beyond what is expected of her. She would be conflicted in situations that asks her to be dishonest, as she tends speaks her mind regardless of how it is perceived by others. At her worst, she is inflexible. She needs things to fit a narrow pattern and may become erratic when they do not. She can appear to be in a rush once she sets her sights on something, making it difficult to get through to her.
She has a moderately sized collection of trinkets and artifacts which seem to get very little use out of them, but are meticulously sorted for display. She is knowledgeable with various species of plants and has a spectacular green thumb. She's good at mixing drinks and brewing potions, yet somehow manages to be a terrible chef...
She is by all accounts a stable person, however she can quickly be pushed to her edge if enough things are setting her off- sometimes to the point of being unable to continue serious matters without drawing attention to it- which she is more than willing to take into her own hands if for nothing else but her own peace of mind. This can cause her to be perceived as rude.
Although she hides it well, one of her biggest fears is that everyone hates her and that she will end up completely alone in life; but above all she dreads lack of control and losing her own sense of self. She stifles one fear to give preference to the other. She has had issues with alcohol in the past to cope with her fear, and so she purposefully restricts herself from it, heaven forbid if she were to slip on this..
She has an acute intellect and sound memory, she is well taught and open to new information. Thanks to her furious categorizating habits, she is good at managing information and holding onto it, though she does have a few blind spots; namely with personal details. She is not good at keeping up with relationships or social statistics and will easily forget names, faces, connections, and so on.
She has undiagnosed OCD characterized by contamination (cleaning and hand-washing compulsion), appearance (grooming, not weight), sorting and organizing repetitively, eating (textures and strong flavours), severe rumination, and other invisible mental rituals.
Has a sort of spiritual sixth sense which goes beyond typical empathy. She can predict certain events and read other people with fairly accurately, it spooks her frequently. Some individuals have taken to calling her a "witch" and spreading rumours, the more superstitious of her peers tend to avoid her, not wanting to evoke misfortune.
Although Malaise is my fursona, she does not represent my true self and instead is something of the inverse of me; someone I see when I am not myself, or, my shadow if you will. Originally she was my avatar on IMVU when I was 12 years old. She was an alien feline marked by her deep, dark galactic eyes and strangely long eyelashes, left to collect dust until I reconnected with her an entire decade later.