Blackhawk/star

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Name Blackstar
Formerly Sharpkit, Sharppaw, Blackhawk
Gender She-Cat
Pronouns She/Her/Hers
Age 59+ Moons
Orientation Lesbian
Clan HighClan
Rank Leader
Mentor Ivyleap
Apprentice(s) Milkthistle, Flightless
How can I believe when this cloud hangs over me? You're the part of me that I don't wanna see
About
incisive, independent, passionate, just
reserved, sarcastic, business-like, enigmatic
two-faced, escapist, hot-headed, insecure

| Incisive: | [intelligently analytical and clear-thinking.]
She does her best to remain impartial and think through things as though she were a separate party. Blackstar has always had a keen mind, something most likely genetic on Rookfeather’s behalf.

| Independent: | [not depending on another for livelihood or subsistence.]
Most cats consider Blackstar the main one at the helm of HighClan’s decisions. She does tend to take charge more often than not, you know, being leader and all. The she-cat has always worked best alone, but she has found it helps to expand your horizons, and knows when and how to work with others effectively.

| Passionate: | [showing or caused by strong feelings or a strong belief.]
Blackstar gets into things. Like, really gets into things. Her emotions have no off switch, and she gets especially worked up about things. She really loves certain things and cats, and once you get her talking about them, she likely will keep you until two sunrises have past, and she’s not done, even then. She has a lot more love in her heart than people thing.

| Just: | [based on or behaving according to what is morally right and fair.]
Rules have been put in place for a reason, and she does her best to run her clan on the values the warrior code put forward, even if they seem unrealistic. She tries to be fair, she tries to be unbiased. It's a quality she's worked hard to construct.

| Reserved: | [slow to reveal emotion or opinions.]
There's strength in honesty, but she finds her strength in sharing only what needs to be shared. She shouldn't have to explain herself or her methods, they just are. You have to deal with it one way or another.

| Sarcastic: | [marked by or given to using irony in order to mock or convey contempt.]
Snippy responses are something that she's carried as a weapon since she was very young. It's a way to deflect things from her, as well as keep up some sort of humor. This is her form of humor, and heavily veiled half truths can possible be found behind her words if you look close enough.

| Businesslike: | [carrying out tasks efficiently without wasting time or being distracted by personal or other concerns; systematic and practical.]
Knowing that she is a leader has removed a lot of the childish qualities she once had amassed. She does her best to remain neutral, to make decisions when needed, to be a strong figure to the people. She wants to do well. She doesn’t want anyone dying and leaving a blood soaked and disingenuous history like her grandmother and grandfather before her.

| Enigmatic: | [difficult to interpret or understand; mysterious.]
Priding herself in knowing what others are thinking or feeling, Blackstar has constructed herself a facade that makes it difficult to figure out what she’s thinking one way or the other. It certainly doesn’t help that she can say one thing and mean another, or does things just because she can. She does this on purpose, and enjoys having cats not being able to read her as easy as they might others.

| Two-Faced: | [insincere and deceitful.]
Even as a kit, she has found it to be easier to not be open with feelings or ideas that you might have. She will tell you one thing, and then do another. Blackstar tried to deny this fact of hers, of this part of her, but it has come back twofold, and now she is only doing more to hide behind her lies. Most of her life and even her position was built upon a throne of lies, and she is not one to abandon something she worked so hard to upkeep.

| Escapist: | [a person who seeks distraction and relief from unpleasant realities, especially in the form of entertainment or fantasy.]
Dealing with things healthily?? Using coping mechanisms in the way that you’re supposed to? What’s that? Blackstar zones out and gets lost in her mind like it’s her job instead of running a clan when she grows too stressed. A responsibility thrust onto someone who didn’t exactly want it creates a nasty kind of stress. She dreams of a world where Rookfeather is still leader, and she remains just a warrior, who doesn’t have to worry about anyone but herself and her tiny bubble.

| Hot-Headed: | [having an impetuous or quick-tempered nature.]
She doesn’t snap at others when she gets upset. Her voice gets low, face curling into an ugly amalgamation of emotions, none of them good. Blackstar will do her best to put you in your place, and make sure that you remember not to mess with her. Her quick to anger personality has the possibility to get her or her clan into trouble, so she tries to keep it as secure as possible.

| Insecure: | [not confident or assured; uncertain and anxious.]
While she has a front that she knows what she’s doing, she doesn’t. She knows she doesn’t. She knows that there are cats better suited for the position that she’s in, and knows that she is… Not great. Blackstar wants to succeed, but doesn’t believe that she can.


Likes
  • stargazing
  • figuring cats out
  • spending time with those she's close to
  • helping
  • working hard
  • the neutral zone
Dislikes
  • cowards
  • blackstone
  • doepounce
  • wolves
  • opening up to others

Traits
Charisma
Empathy
Intellect
Confidence
Openess
Skills
Strength
Endurance
Agility
Willpower
Observation
History
The Tree
Parents: Wispflake and Rookfeather
Littermates: Thicketrose and Slatepaw
Siblings: Puddlenose, Frisktoes, Sparrowsong, Kitefeather | Wingdreams, Marshchirp, Yarrowpaw, Silverrain, Heronice, Hollyblossom | Whirlykit, Softkit, Quickkit, Mottlekit, Dreamkit, Hailkit, Ebonykit
Adopted Siblings: Frozensky and Cleardreamer
Adopted Child(ren): Spiritpaw
Leave behind your heartache
  • Born in the first litter to Wispflake and Rookfeather named Sharpkit. Her siblings were Thicketkit and Slatekit.
  • Was very quiet and mature from a young age, wanting to be more like her father and her grandmother. She didn't like sharing things about herself, so it was a bit of a lonely kithood at first.
  • The kits, queens, and elders had to leave camp with the threat of wolves, and Sharpkit was with them. She didn't like not being in camp.
  • She ended up scuttling off during this because she thought she saw something, and that something was one of her childhood friends (name lost to time). He had been injured in trying to help seal off the caves. She'd always considered him strong, so she was horrified to find him downed by something so little to her.
  • She began having nightmares about the wolves and losing her family and friend to rocks and the wolves.
  • The cats returned to camp once the threat was taken care of, but she never forgot it.
  • Rookfeather thought she wasn't getting out enough so pushed her to meet more cats.
  • Met Elkkit, who she thought was very smart and was impressed by her.
  • Met Pansykit, and thought she was an air-head.
  • Met Hawthornekit, who was very interested in stories, and she tried to supply one.
  • Met Sleepingpaw, who gave her a nickname. "Star"
  • Met Asterkit, who was flirty and kind.
  • Met Scratchkit, who would grow to be one of her closest friends.
  • Thicketkit got it in her head to be mean, so she started bullying and bothering Sharpkit and some of her friends.
Too many memories getting in the way of me
  • Apprenticed to Ivyleap.
  • Somehow, despite being so different it was painful, the two got along.
  • Slatepaw dies. She's not sure how to feel. The two were never close.
  • Found out inadvertently that playing with emotions was kind of fun. It was funny watching reactions for her, so she started 'toying' with Pansypaw and Elkpaw.
  • Began to feel a little bad after a while, because she'd started to like them.
  • Began crushing on Elkpaw.
  • Elkpaw, Pansypaw, and Thicketpaw disappear one day. Sharppaw is devastated, and entirely blames Thicketpaw. She doesn't even think she plays a part in it at the beginning.
  • Began wandering away from camp and spending time away from it during her time of distress. Met a loner named Thistle during one of these escapades. Thistle would often tease Sharppaw, and despite all this, Sharppaw found herself seeking out Thistle.
  • Began crushing on Thistle.
  • Thistle disappears as well. She doesn't say goodbye.
  • She tries so hard to find Thistle, but she's nowhere to be found.
  • Sharppaw begins to isolate one more, trying her hardest to not show that she's hurt by something nobody even knew was happening.
  • Begins to grow jealous of Frozensky. The she-cat was formerly of LeafClan and had joined after a moon of time there. She had been taken under Rookfeather's wing. She didn't like feeling passed over for some 'nobody'.
  • Began to feel insecure with herself.
  • Found Elkpaw at the StoneClan border, who told her that she and the other two had join the clan, and that she was happy there. She'd even found someone she fancied. Obviously, this upset Sharppaw. She left the border bitter.
  • Wispflake announces that she's going to have another litter. This confuses and upsets Sharppaw. Why would she want another litter when she had perfectly good kits right there?
  • After feeling detachment from her own name, she demands to get her name changed when she becomes a warrior. Faintstar was peeved with how they went about it, and said he'd make no promises.
Short on time? That's a gift.
  • Was named a warrior a moon early, as well as was given the name Blackhawk. She was pleased with her new name.
  • Wispflake had her new litter, and while Blackhawk was still confused and upset, she still visited the kits as often as she could. She took a particular shine to Kitekit.
  • LeafClan and LightningClan take refuge in HighClan's camp, but not without causing a ruckus. Frozensky's father, Blackstone, causes a scene. While she didn't care as much for Frozensky then, she was very upset that anyone would do that to someone. She confronted the tom, and the two left each other angry and upset. He never learned her name, as far as she knew.
  • The clans are forced to leave due to the two-legs, accompanied by cats who had a prophecy about this the whole time.
  • Didn't speak to most of the StarClan cats who came down at this gathering. She instead offered support to her parents, who were seeing some of their deceased friends for the first time in a while.
  • The clans started their journey.
  • Given charge of Milkpaw.
  • After the mill thing, and cats staying at the RoseNest, Rookfeather becomes the leader, and asks Blackhawk to be his deputy for support.
And What do I get, for my pain?
  • Was named deputy of HighClan.
  • Immediately felt the taxing stress of being in charge.
  • Frozensky spoke to Blackhawk, thanking her for confronting her father. She said it was nothing, her childish grudge forgotten, and told her she thought of her as a sister. Frozensky tells her about her relationship with the LeafClan tom Adderflame, and she says she wouldn't be one to judge, coming from a half-clan family herself.
  • Confronts Adderflame about not breaking Frozensky's heart or she'll break him.
  • Rookfeather is taken by two-legs after being struck by a monster. This forces Blackhawk into the premature position of a leader.
All that's left of yesterday
  • Names Frozensky her deputy, hoping for the she-cat's softer nature to balance out her own.
  • The clans find their new homes.
  • The clans stay in a pseudo-camp for a while while territories are figured out.
  • The leaders allowed for cats to switch clans. Blackhawk was very hesitant about it, but didn't want to be known as the only leader who wouldn't allow it. So she said goodbye to some faces, and hello to familiar ones. Elkmist - of all cats - returned to HighClan.
  • Takes Flightless under her wings as her apprentice.
  • Shiningheart finds the place where leaders are to commune with StarClan, so she goes to receive her lives. Whereupon her arrival, she's told she's not worthy of being a leader, and must prove herself.
  • Returns to the clan claiming she received her lives so-as to not worry her clanmates and to cause issues within the clan.
  • Blackstar and Frozensky are approached by Spookbee who has the great idea for a competition. So, they announce it.
  • Blackstar participates a bit herself, sparring with a few cats. Elkmist insists on sparring and gives Blackstar the scars she brandishes now. Blackstar refuses to raise a claw to her, and returns home with the injuries.
  • She was able to go over one ceremony, but is forced to go to the medicine cat den with an infection for her injuries.
  • While healing in her den, Doepounce - the winner of the warrior's part of the competition - tells her for his suggestion to leave Elkmist alone. She tries to start a fight, and it doesn't work.
  • Fleetingbite dies before her eyes one night, and she quickly gets the she-cat's nest removed from the medicine cat den.
  • She made her decision, telling Doepounce to not ask her to do something while he’s being unfair in his own right. That seemed to shut him up.
  • When she finds out about Goosepaw and Grapekit's expedition, it reminding her all too much of her own travels as a kit, punishes the both of them. It's what the warrior code states. She doesn't want cats getting hurt out there, even if they don't like her decision.
  • Frozensky leaves the clan for a short period after her mother died. Blackstar is in charge of the clan by herself for a while, but her deputy returns safe and sound.
  • After some cats begin acting strange, and Screedust comes up to her saying that cats have been stealing their catmint, she holds the cats potentially responsible under house-arrest while they all try to figure out who had been stealing the herbs.
  • Makes Grapepaw an apprentice.
  • After it sounding most like she did it, Pitchdragon is accused and punished for the crime. She swears she didn't do it, and Blackstar doubted her decision for a second. It's highly likely she punished the wrong cat, however.
  • Rookfeather returns to the clan with a loner. He tells his story, and while she asks him to take his position back, he refuses. Blackstar allows Tigger to join the clan, and is given the name Tigerstep.
  • A hoard of cats goes missing, and she is overwhelmed with grief; many had been her friends, and this loss threw her terribly off balance.
  • The clan is left without a medicine cat.
  • They go for a moon without a medicine cat, and after an apprentice is injured from falling into the camp, Cleardreamer is fetched, and after she deems him fit, asks him to be their medicine cat until someone is found who is meant to be the medicine cat.
  • She is denied access to his medicine cat ceremony by StarClan, which clues him in on her false-leadership. He promises not to tell, she promises to keep a close eye on him.
  • Hollowgaze helps Cleardreamer while he's still learning.
  • Rookfeather and Wispflake announce that they're going to have another litter. She is, understandably, alright with this.
  • Frozensky also tells her about being pregnant with Adderflame's kits. She is not as alright with it, but says that she will not demote Frozensky because she's helped her out so much and they are family.
  • Because of Frozensky being a queen, Blackstar handles the duties of a leader and deputy on by herself.
  • Her parents have so many kits which is heart-warming but stresses her out at the thought of picking out mentors for them all.
  • Frozensky disappears close to when she's meant to kit, which scares her, but she's found with Clarkstorm. Thankfully, nothing is assumed and the kits are all safe.
  • She meets Riverspirit in the neutral zone.
  • StoneClan falls and some of their cats come to HighClan. Jasperfang tells Blackstar his thankfullness, and she is brisk with him. This means that Thicketrose rejoins HighClan as well. Blackstar is not happy about this fact.
  • There's an avalanche and with quick thinking organizes patrols to help prevent an avalanche from happening again via reinforcement through rocks. She joins in as well because she doesn't want to leave the cats hanging.
  • An apprentice is injured and breaks his jaw. She wonders if she chose the wrong mentor for him, and worries for his recovery.
  • Has some difficulties figuring out mentors for her younger siblings, but chooses the cats she feels are the best for their personalities.
  • Ends up saving Jaggedclaw after a loose boulder comes crashing down. She nearly loses her life, and as payment for this, StarClan allows Blackstar to finally receive her 9 lives. Took em long enough!
  • One of Frozensky's kittens is attacked at the SeaClan border. Blackstar punishes Mouse for crossing the border, but is very unhappy that SeaClan just lets their warriors run around attacking apprentices.
  • There's a large amount of cats that go missing or die overnight. She grieves with her family.
  • Hollyblossom is found murdered at CloudClan's border. She's enraged, but makes a point to not aggravate CloudClan or point fingers.
  • The RoseNest visits the clans, and some cats join the clans - or rejoin, in some cases. One of which being her old friend Scratchpatch, bringing along with him a young kitten, who attaches himself to her. Not knowing what to do, she takes in the kitten. Blackstar has a son now and his name is Spiritkit.
  • Raccoons invade the camp, and she fights alongside her clan to get the brats out of her territory.
  • Rapidstar approaches Blackstar about a possible alliance. In return he offers the ability to hunt on CloudClan land. After allowing the clan to vote on it, the clans ally. She's not happy about it, but she also isn't about to let her clan starve.
  • Frozensky's dirty secret - her mate from outside the clan - is found out when Adderflame and one of their ktis join the clan. She's forced to derank her best friend, and brings Doepounce along as her new deputy.
Misc.

Design Notes
  • She's always very tired, and her eyes are always narrowed.
  • Oh my god she has a cat mullet i just realized this
Trivia
  • She was originally named for her spiky pelt. Now she's named after her NightClan roots. Ironically, this is no better than her original name.
  • often has night terrors to this day and nothing seems to have helped her the past few years
  • hates that she was given the leader rank without being asked prior, and also hates being leader. but she makes due.
  • she's so damn tired all the time.
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