Nurturing, Selfless, Responsible

Ravencrown has always been a nuturing cat, even before she had kittens of her own. She likes making sure friends and family feel cared for and are encouraged towards whatever goals they need. She is rather willing to even push aside her own wishes or wants in favor of others, it making her just as happy to see those she loves succeed. Often this is why Ravencrown is as responsible as she is, making sure to complete all her duties and keep to her word. She wants to be a cat others can rely on.

Appears Cool-headed, introverted, Semi-Protective

Alongside her caring behavior, usually Ravencrown can manage to seem very calm even in the face of large problems. She often is able to luckily focus on what the next step should be despite internal struggle or panic. Still, even with that she is more of a loner. Not in the sense of she didn't enjoy company, but rather that she found it exhausting to be social all the time. She often needs her own personal space every so often. The one exception to this is her family most of the time or extremely close friends, especially if she feels they might be in danger. Ravencrown can be very protective of her loved ones and her kits most of all, rushing to their aid and to check up on them immediately. Her worse fear is losing one of them.

Surpresses Emotions, Trust Issues, Easily Discourage

Ravencrown, partially due to her more selfless nature, does tend to have problems with expressing her true emotions when hurt. Often it's easier for her to just push it down and ignore the feelings, usually until she finally hits a breaking point. It doesn't help that Ravencrown does tend to have a decent bit of trust issues and commitment to others. She often feels it's hard to believe what is true and what isn't. She also tends to be easily discouraged, so combined she finds it easier to just keep to herself and her family. It's hard for her to open to others with all of that combined.

TW for verbal/emotional abuse! Be warned

0-5 Moons

Ravenkit was one of 6 kits born to Magpieflight and Eaglehum and was definitely one of the more quiet kits at that. While some of her siblings preferred shouting and playing ruff, Ravenkit was more content to snuggle with her parents or watch over their sickest sibling, Swallowsong.

Part of her struggled to try and get in the light, it seemed rude and not fair to try and speak over others because she wanted attention. Ravenkit loved all of her siblings, and with Swallowsong being so sick she started to ignore her need for attention. Obviously, the kit craved it still, so whenever she was given attention or praise, she soaked it up all she could.

6-11 Moons

This need for validation and praise continued into her apprenticeship, but the anxiety stuck as well which was an odd battle in her mind. It didn’t help that Ravenpaw’s mentor was a very standoffish molly who tended to lead with tough love and the belief that hard work could fix her shy apprentice. After all, that’s all Ravenpaw’s behavior seemed like and in most cases, the tough love would have worked. Ravenpaw simply saw that being told ‘not to worry’ seemed to mean she should shove down her insecurities.

It wasn’t what her mentor had meant in the slightest, yet who could tell? Instead of working through them, she started to believe that if no one else could see them, they’d go away. Ravenpaw’s shyness seemed to ease a bit and to anyone who was watching on the outside, it appeared like the she-cat had grown into herself and become more coolheaded.

Sadly she wasn’t the most talented in fighting and often was easily overshadowed by her siblings’ triumphs in whatever path they choose, herself only being given half-praises by her mentor. This was by far not the worse thing to happen, but to Ravenpaw who only ever wanted to be validated, it seemed like she couldn’t do anything right. Asking for help didn’t seem plausible either, she wasn’t meant to be so anxious or search for attention, her mentor had seemingly told her that many times.

Slowly the molly began to not bother trying too hard, figuring that she at least had her family despite being only okay at fighting. Helping them almost eased the pain of not being up to her mentor’s standards.

12-36 Moons

Coming into her warrior rank, she didn’t know how to feel about it. Nothing seemed to give her a sense that she belonged. More it felt like she was almost faking it every day just to pass that she was alright and not break down. Her family members, especially her siblings, all seemed to do so well with finding their role within the clan. It was the first time she felt tempted to spill her heart out, only for each time to never get far with the thought in the back of her mind teller her that she’d be awful for taking up their time like that.

For a few moons, when she was about 20 moons old, she started to pull away from her family a bit. It wasn’t intentional, but it was so difficult to keep quiet that Ravencrown felt she couldn’t possibly keep a straight face. That was when she started to talk to Hailsnap, a cold tom that caught her eye from how good of a warrior he was. It seemed so odd that such a handsome and talented tom would bother to talk to her and very quickly that spiraled into a crush.

Never before had anyone bothered to flirt with her nor paid her much attention, so she instantly preened in the light of it all. Yes, he was cold, but she truly believed that he had the best intentions and she wasn’t so good at social interactions, so who could blame him? It didn’t help that Ravencrown also could stop feeling so crappy all of the time and have something to focus on besides her own fears and terrors.

The fact it soothed her and that he gave her so much more attention made her ignore his tart behavior or any other red flags that came up. She even felt happy enough to talk to her family again, which she could see they saw as a bit worrying. Ravencrown didn’t want to believe that the tom had any ill will towards her. They were only just starting to get to know each other, there was no harm in figuring out if there could be something more than just flirting around.

It was relatively quickly after Hailsnap started to be with her that she discovered the fling resulted in her being expecting kittens, about moon into it when the oracle confirmed it. The molly was reasonably surprised, she did have a strong crush on Hailsnap, but they were barely considered to be going into courting territory. Still, for once she had such bright hope that she and the tom who sired her kits would work things out. Ravencrown even filled herself into believing that the idea of kits might make him less cold.

The moment that Hailsnap found out, all of those dreams shattered right before her. Publicly and loudly, Hailsnap scorned her for getting pregnant and even berated her for believing it was in anyway good. Swallowsong, secretly one of her favorite siblings, luckily had to come in and save her, defending her and even going so far as to make sure everyone knew Hailsnap was the one who had taken advantage of the situation for his own gain.

Finally, the dams broke, Ravencrown breaking down completely and starting to rely on her family for support now that she had kits on the way. It was hard, but she made a few friends and managed to have four beautiful kits that she wouldn’t give up for the world. Her heartache was eased by it and slowly she began to adore taking care of her kits. It seemed like she finally had something she was good at, singing for her kits and making sure they were nothing less than completely happy.

When the poisoning started, the family was heartbroken to face both Magpieflight and Eaglehum dying, with Eagle going first and Magpie following after from illness and a broken heart. Ravencrown was devastated but found her own pains eased as she soothed her family members as much as she could. She didn’t quite care that it wasn’t the best coping mechanism, for once she felt like she had a place and that was to provide support for everyone like how her family had supported her the moment she needed it the most.

Relatively recently all her kits had become warriors and Ravencrown has realized she can’t baby them as much as she did while they were kits and apprentices. Granted she still does, but it is much less than before and it’s left a bit of a hole. After all that time, the molly still didn’t know who she was really nor what else she could bring to the clan with how much she struggled to get to know others besides her family. Now she is being forced to challenge that problem and start to stand on her own paws again.

36+ Moons

Rp Starts Here

Ravencrown, like many others, was surprised at the sudden death of Morningstar. No one could of expected it, but of course Sheepflame had to step up as the new leader. To her surprise, she was one of the guardians asked to escort Sheepflame to revieve her nine lives and she just tried to be a silent support. Sheepflame clearly didn't take the death well and, unfortunately, not even her ceremony went well. Something had gone wrong during it and Sheepstar, as she was now called, and began to suffer from siezures and was forced to remain in camp for a while.

She truly felt bad for the she-cat, yet life went on and Mountainclan later had more problems to focus on. A couple moons or so later, the clan suffered through an avalanche that injured many and even killed some cats as a result of tramatic injuries or illnesses from the cold. Ravencrown was lucky, she didn't get injured herself, but both Swallowsong and Crowdancer did. Crowdancer was put out of duties for a while due to a broken bone while Swallowsong suffered a bit of a worse fate. Her leg had been crushed and was now mauled, but Ravencrown was just glad they were both alive. She worked night and day to support them and make sure they were alright after that, trying to encourage them that things would be okay. By all means, it could have been worse.

As for Forestclan, it seems they couldn't catch a break and Ravencrown was shocked to hear that Sheepstar and Oleanderbreeze had both been killed. She was one of the guardians selected to help Turtleheart recieve his nine lives and she couldn't get over how unnerving it felt to have gone to not one, but two leader ceremonies as a guard along with many others. They wanted things to be safe this time. It was an honor, yes, yet one she wish she didn't have. Sheepstar was young and Turtlestar, as he would be called, seemed to feel it. He seemed quite rattled by the ceremony, though given the situation it was rather fair and even if there was another reason, she wouldn't know.

The mysterious deaths should have ended there, but this time Mountainclan was faced with the death of one of there apprentices that had been previously missing. Plumpaw was killed and Ravencrown could not at all explain why it happened. It seemed so cruel to take a life so young and fae deserved so much better. Deserved to live faer life to it's fullest extent.

It put the guardian on edge, especially when the scent of Forestclan and a wound clearly done by another cat was clearly there. A murder, and one that she is terrified might just be the start of something bigger. She wants to hope it's a mistake, but how could one make a mistake so big that it led to the murder of Plumpaw?

There was barely a break between disasterous events, as soon enough the clan was hit with a strange sickness. The kits were hit hard and many adults were put out of commission or close to that state due to the symptoms. Ravencrown felt so lucky that her family somehow managed to avoid that, but one of her teammates had actually gotten horribly sick. He was considered critical and it broke Ravencrown's heart to see a friend so ill. She did her best to find all the herbs she could and even go on patrols to figure out why the sickness was happening.

Her other teammate Mahoganymask alongside Juniperfrost and Miredancer had been one of the patrols trying to find a source. With a lot of investigation, they discovered that the water coming from the city was tainted and was making both the cats and prey sick in return. With other patrols coming to the same conclusion, they were able to focus on finding herbs. With being so lucky that her family was safe, she wanted to help other clanmembers get back to full health. Thankfully, after many weeks, the clan seemed to be getting better and now there is very few cats that are showing symptoms.

Ravencrown stared softly towards her kits who were sharing a meal with each other. It was such a sweet sight and never failed to make her feel like she was the luckiest mother in the world for how incredible they were. Well, at least as far as she was concerned they were nothing less of perfection.

She remembered so vividly the first night they were born. The molly had been so tired from the labor, yet somehow she couldn’t bring herself to close her eyes as that meant taking her attention away from the little bundles. All of her children were so tiny back then, barely bigger than the size of her paws.

Everything about them made her heartache with love she didn’t know was possible and that night there had been countless times Ravencrown shifted to nuzzle their little foreheads to shush their mewling. Even now, so many moons later, it was difficult for the black tabby to avoid covering them in endless kisses, but she’d try.

They were their own cats, after all, Ravencrown didn’t want to treat them like little kids anymore. Thymehop, Gingerroar, Mintwhisker, and of course Raspberrypurr all deserved to find themselves, just as she would now have to do alongside them.

• I imagine her voice claim to be that of Jessica Raine, particularly when she played the role of Jenny Lee in Call of the Midwife.
• Ravencrown has the alignment of Lawful good and her personality type was given as INFJ-T.
• A part of Ravencrown feels she only had one good chance at love and lost it, leaving her unsure and a bit jealous of happy mates. Particularly she avoids the rock garden.