Lynxpounce

• she/they (she/her is preferred, especially if close); female
• panromantic grayace
• ½ RiverClan (mother) and ½ ThunderClan (father)
• generation 3
• nomenclature
  • Lynx: for her ear tufts and pelt colour; for its fierce connotations
  • -pounce: for her energy and enthusiasm (in her apprentice years)
• theme song: Help I'm Alive by Metric
• album: Midnights (3am edition) by Taylor Swift
• playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7fxbqMt9sco7470imgqfWf

Appearance

• small gray tabby she-cat with a white chest, muzzle, tail tip and paws, green eyes, lighter gray markings, dark gray stripes, and pale blue speckles
• short
• petite and slender
• two curved scars on left cheek [tw for self-harm below]
  • • she gained these from self-harm (she was trying to stop herself from crying, and clawed at the part just under her eye)
• two scars on left flank
  • gained in battle (she got too overconfident with her fighting skills and ended up getting injured sdkfjshkfj)
• can wear leaves in fur (since she's messy lol)
• ear tufts resemble a lynx’s, and match her cousin Springflower
• very fluffy!!
• heart marking on right cheek
• usually has a sad/depressed/anxious/angry/emotional/thoughtful expression
• has an RBF lol (it was worse in her apprentice/teenage years)
• long ears and big paws
• loop in head fur
• long fangs and claws
• ears droop down a lot (especially when emotional)
• speckles can be random!

Personality

• intp
• true neutral
• traits: emotional, sensitive, jealous, risk-averse, anxious, depressed, people-pleaser, insecure
• on the outside, Lynxpounce is a pretty chill cat
• she's pretty quiet and withdrawn around cats she doesn't know that well, but tries to be as nice and polite as possible
• around her friends, however, she's loud and talks incessantly lol
  • she's loyal to her friends and cares deeply about them
• she's pretty lazy and doesn't like going out on patrol (esp the dawn patrol since she hates getting up early)
  • she'd rather hang around at camp, or chill somewhere beside a river or in the forest
  • they hate going on dawn patrols since they hate getting up early (if they could choose, they'd wake up at sunhigh)
  • she also doesn't really like taking night watch, but prefers it to the dawn patrol
• she gets bored pretty easily
• despite what she likes to believe, she cares about what others think of her, and tries hard to make a good impression
  • she wants others to think she’s funny and cool
  • she tries to be fun and enjoyable
  • she constantly worries that everyone secretly hates her 😭
• she kind of has trust issues
  • she feels like the only cat she can trust is herself, despite how much she cares for her family and friends
  • this is because she’s constantly worrying about how others can hurt her
  • they feel as if no one truly cares about them, and that they’re on their own
  • she also wants to be independent and pretends as if she doesn’t need anybody else
    • she feels as if she would be okay if everyone abandoned her, when in reality this isn’t true
• she’s stubborn and determined, and likes being right (and hates being wrong lol)
• she’s adaptable and quick-thinking
  • she likes debating, since she’s good at it
• she picks things up fast, so when something doesn’t come naturally to her, she gets frustrated
• they’re very observant
  • she loves analysing other cats’ personalities, motives, fears, etc. (this is mostly because it makes her feel as if she has some control skjdfhskj)
• she’s pretty smart, but sometimes pretends like she knows more than she actually does
  • one of her biggest fears is being seen as stupid, and she hates being called so
  • this is because she thinks being smart is one of the only things that she has (since in her mind, she’s not pretty or funny or cool, so she just has this one thing)
    • she still constantly compares herself to others, and feels inadequate in terms of intelligence
• she sort of has an inferiority complex sdkfjhsdfd
• they’re an introvert, although they have some extrovert qualities
  • she likes spending time alone, and hates interacting with cats she doesn’t really know
• she’s really sensitive and emotional, and can sometimes overreact
  • she cries very very easily (it’s almost a reflex), even if it’s just some small thing that frustrates her
    • she absolutely hates it when she cries, because she never wants to, and she can never get it under control
    • she also hates it when others make a big deal of it and/or if they ask her if she’s okay, because it just makes her cry harder (she’d rather just be left alone and pretend like everything’s alright, and then go run away and find someplace to hide skdjfhskjh)
    • she also hates herself for being so emotional/sensitive and for crying so easily
    • it also makes her feel like she’s searching for attention, or trying to get the other cat to feel bad for her, when it’s the opposite
• she also gets mad pretty easily, and this can also make her cry
  • when she gets angry, she can lose her grip on herself and her emotions, and this sometimes leads to her doing and/or saying things that she later regrets
• she holds grudges--she might forgive, but she’ll never forget
• they get annoyed very easily, especially if someone is bothering them when they’re trying to do something
• she hates being ignored and excluded
• she’s very insecure, and gets jealous insaneeeeely easily
  • she’ll constantly compare herself to others (usually in terms of intelligence, looks, or relationships)
    • this can (internally) harm her relationships, because it can make her resentful of other cats for seemingly having everything she wants
  • she constantly wishes she could be anyone else
  • she doesn’t like it when she feels jealous, because she feels as if she’s being ungrateful, and taking for granted all the things she has, but she can’t control it
  • this is all mostly because she hates herself :(
• she has minor depression and anxiety
  • she’s always stressed about something, and usually feels horrible about herself
• she always looks at things in shades of gray, and tries to think critically about everything
  • she loves philosophy and will constantly think about what her life means lol
  • she also thinks about her life as a narrative if that makes senseee
• she’s pretty empathetic, though she likes to think otherwise
  • she can easily empathise with others
  • she also feels sorry for herself 96% of the time 💀
• they always think they’re not good enough :(
• she’s very judgemental, and will consciously judge a cat as soon as she meets them 😭
  • she usually thinks a lot of cats are annoying (although this can change!)
• she lies to herself about a bunch of things, mostly parts of herself she’d rather ignore/forget
• they’re a giant overthinker, and will re-analyse a conversation or interaction 23487348734 times
• she’s always worried about other cats taking her the wrong way, or being upset/annoyed at her
• she is neurodivergent and has ADHD
• she’s a hopeless romantic, and always daydreams about love (despite knowing it’s unrealistic)
  • when she sees other cats in love, she always thinks it's super sweet, even though an inner jealous part of her wishes that she herself could find love
  • she also falls in love easily <33
  • she makes up fake scenarios for herself all the time lol
• she ignores and represses a lot of things so she doesn’t have to deal with it
• she absolutely despises hope, because she thinks it just sets unrealistic expectations, and always ends badly
  • this is part of the reason why she’s a pessimist, since if things go badly, she won’t be let down
• she’s logical, and tries to make decisions using rational thoughts
• she’s detail-oriented
• they’re creative, and love making up stories
  • they have an active imagination
• they find peace and happiness in the little things in life (like if a certain flower is taller than the other)
• she likes being alone in nature, like just sitting and relaxing by a river or deep in the woods where she’s completely alone, because it brings her a lot of peace <33
• she has minor social anxiety, and hates hates hates interacting or talking with cats she doesn’t really know
  • it makes her feel incredibly awkward, and she never knows what to say or do, since she wants the other cat to think she’s cool/funny
  • it deeply stresses her out, and she’ll agonise over it days after, worried she said or did something wrong, or worrying that the other cat now hates her or thinks she’s weird
  • she also feels very judged (although this is kinda hypocritical lol since she always judges others lskdjfdlsk)
  • in particular, she hates talking to others when Crystalflame (her best friend) is there, because Crystalflame’s more charismatic and generally way more likeable and funny, and the cat they’re talking to will generally defer to just talking to Crystalflame, and Lynxpounce just kind of awkwardly hangs around thinking about her general anxious introverted self
  • in general, it just makes her feel more insecure
• they have very low self-confidence (in case you couldn't tell 😭)
• they hate public speaking
• she doesn’t tell anyone about her actual struggles, and instead only the petty little things that don’t matter, because she thinks they won’t care because it’s not actually happening to them
• she thinks that if she ignores something, it’ll go away eventually (even when it’s clearly not the case)
• she’s a cowardly wimp fldksjfldk
• her brain dominance is mostly left, although she has right-brained qualities too
• she’s nihilistic, and has some utilitarian beliefs
• she’s a very big people-pleaser
• she’s very go-with-the-flow, and has a hard time forming her own opinions, since she just wants everyone to like her
• she worries deeply about others’ perception of her, and will try to change her views and thoughts if it makes others like her better
• despite all of this, she presents as a very chill and nice cat who tries to be enthusiastic and positive for others all the time
• her biggest fear is failure
  • she won’t start something or try something new if there’s even the smallest chance of immediate failure
    • in her mind, failure is embarrassing and humiliating
• they have high standards and hates themself for not being good at everything
• she has very low self-esteem
• she’s cautious, and thinks everything through beforehand

History

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Relationships

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Trivia

• favourite colours: blue, purple, and red
• favourite seasons: leaf-fall and leafbare
• favourite time of day: evening
• likes: cold weather, snow, wind, rainy days, the sound of running water, sunsets, and nature
• dislikes: annoying cats, doing apprentice work, failure, criticism, being left out, and being taken for granted
• hobbies: sleeping, sitting by the river, hanging out with friends, training with Darkpaw, and hiking through the forest
• skills: swimming, hunting, short-distance running, debate
• semi-atheist
  • she used to believe completely in StarClan, but now has doubts
  • she’ll pray to StarClan if she desperately wants something, but only does it as a coping mechanism basically (to make her feel as if it’s in her control somehow, and to give her false hope)
    • she doesn’t actually believe in it
  • she understands why others believe in StarClan, and sees the appeal