Ustus ([RoL] Ustus)

My heart stands alone;
it strains and snaps
24 hours a day,
I stretch and hurt in vain
Unable to confirm what's in my heart,
I get scraped up
I withstand this poison,
this inadequate loneliness

I give it my all until from overexertion my face is
red, red, red
"Unoriginal," "underachiever"--
I don't wanna hear it

Luluka, lilika, lula lilalulala--
Don't hate me
I want to know the meaning of my
mud-smeared existence
Luluka, lilika, lula lilalulala--
Don't leave me behind
I'm surrounded by darkness, so
I can't even see ahead of me

The distortion of my heart;
my hidden passion
This sneaking poison,
this loneliness in the end

Acting like I'm full of love and all better now made me
dizzy, dizzy, dizzy
"Do your best," "smile"--
I don't wanna hear it...

Luluka, lilika, lula lilalulala--
Don't go away
Chanting something like an objection to this world that
closes off and is closed off
Luluka, lilika, lula lilalulala--
Don't abandon me
The perfectly clear "blue" of the sky is
dazzling even now

Luluka, lilika, lula lilalulala--
Without changing anything
Even if tomorrow you put a foot wrong and stumble,
keep running toward your goal
Luluka, lilika, lula lilalulala--
The changing world is
full of gleaming hatred, but
you should feel the warmth, too
Just the way you are

Ah-

At first I felt fine, before I realised,
In your eyes I'm a demon, right?
Without an ending, I'm still pretending,
Like I attended your funeral today.

Overconsumption of your own compassion,
Put on perfume of iniquity,
Now, I could never dream of doing anything,
In such a way like you did to me,

So, give me a taste of sovereignty,
A lantern in the night (Lantern in the night),
Get me away from history,
From the cycle's bitter light (Cycle's bitter light),
From existing out of spite.
(Existing out of spite)

NOW DO YOU HATE ME?
ARE YOU AFRAID OF ME?
ARE YOU ABLE TO FEEL CULPABILITY?
COME FORTH AND KILL ME
BOW DOWN AND WORSHIP ME
TAKE YOUR TIME ALL WE HAVE IS ETERNITY.
NOW WITH A NEW START
BROKEN AND TORN APART
NOTHING IN ME RESEMBLES A HUMAN HEART.
MY NAME IS UNKNOWN
SOMETHING I'VE NEVER TOLD
ON MY OWN I DECLARE "I DONT WANNA GO HOME."

I've got a cutthroat delight (Up on high),
As we carouse while you writhe (Caught by my eye),
I'll put your fear in my drink tonight, tonight,
I'm chewing up and spitting out your pride.

You got an iron dye where only God'll find,
I took a photo of shame to remember you by,
True colors make a pretty-picture memory,
Returning less than you gave to me,

So, give me a taste of sovereignty,
A lantern in the night (Lantern in the night),
Get me away from history,
From the cycle's bitter light (Cycle's bitter light).

Existing out of spite.
I'm existing out of spite,

I know infinity,
She howls with the past
As they gouge each others eyes,
I know duplicity,
Who once was a child
Born in villainy,
I know infinity
She howls with the past
As they gouge each others eyes,
I know what hides in me,
If only you knew the same.

NOW DO YOU HATE ME?
ARE YOU AFRAID OF ME?
ARE YOU ABLE TO FEEL CULPABILITY?
COME FORTH AND KILL ME
BOW DOWN AND WORSHIP ME
TAKE YOUR TIME ALL WE HAVE IS ETERNITY.
NOW WITH A NEW START
BROKEN AND TORN APART
NOTHING IN ME RESEMBLES A HUMAN HEART.
MY NAME IS UNKNOWN
SOMETHING I'VE NEVER TOLD
ON MY OWN I DECLARE "I DONT WANNA GO HOME."

ALL WE HAVE IS ETERNITY.
CAN YOU FEEL CULPABILITY?

He said, “Miracles do happen, salvation will be given to those who believe.”
Just pray with all your heart, pray by yourself, with all your heart.
Lift your voice up, offer up your efforts, and devote your tongue as you pray to the Lord.
You wish and wish, all for a life so that you may return home?

It’s the march of the blind believers, they flock together and go.
Everyone, everybody, they’re seeking a “life”.
That which is “correct” is secondary, or maybe quinary.
Their selfish desires are, you see, their justification.

But were the withered trees too restored by a miracle?
It’s all nothing but ridiculous tall tales.
It's not as if such things exist.
Now see, I lied once again.

I take people’s lives away, devouring even their wishes.
I’ve been living by trampling on the misfortune of others.
The world was not such a wonderful place after all!
If you flatter your idol, then your life will be saved.
There is no such thing as correct teachings!

➵

He said, “Things such as miracles are just fiction, after all, it’s all just lies.”
Even so, just pray with all of your heart, pray by yourself, with all your heart.
Devote your body, devote your heart, give everything you’ve got as you pray to the Lord.
They’re full of jealousy. They spend their lives drowning, sinking in greed.

It’s the march of blind believers, they flock together and go.
Everyone, everybody, they're seeking a "life".
What is “correct” is whatever someone deigns it to be.
Self-sacrifice is not their new justification.

But were the dried-up seas (lakes) too restored by a miracle?
It’s all nothing but idealistic thoughts that came to mind.
Even so, you misunderstand the things you believe in.
I can't stop my voice anymore!

It’s the rebellion of the fanatics, they flock together and go.
Everybody and everyone, they flock together and die.
The saints incite the masses by reciting the scriptures and chanting, "Everybody, pray to the Lord!"
It’s the rebellion of the fanatics, they flock together and go.
Everybody and everyone, they flock together and die.
At the rampage of the believers, the clown laughs, “Look! It’s hideous, isn’t it?”

I take people’s lives away, devouring even their wishes.
I’ve been living by trampling on the misfortune of others.
People aren't such wonderful things after all!
Even if you flatter your idol, your life will not be saved.
There is no such thing as correct teachings!

➵

I covet people’s lives, devouring everything they have.
I’ve been living by trampling on the misfortune of others.
“Was love, too, not such a wonderful thing after all”?
Whose mouth spoke such? What a hypocrite!

I take people’s lives away, devouring even their wishes.
I’ve been living by trampling on the misfortune of others.
Well, the present situation, too, is the bed I made and now must lie in.
If you flatter your idol, then your life will be saved.
An equally worthless, unrewarded life.
It’s an unsightly, foolish, beautiful life.
There is no such thing as correct teachings!

➵

English translation taken from here.

"I'm ready", she said as she put on her shoes
And I'm down to forget if you'll say it's true
And those drapes on the wall can't shut out the silence
Does it suck that I'm not so predictable?

To me evergreen wasn't such a bad dream
Oh, and sometimes things aren't as plain as they seem, darlin'
When I go, bury me six feet in snow

Here we are wasting our chances for the last time
And when we go, I'll try not to be so slow
Skeletons, skeletons, what do we have here
Hiding from the mirror?
Say it once, say it twice, try to be nice
Well, let's not lose ourselves

Summer's over, love had left her
Screaming at the screen
Oh, and it's understood that the both of us are no good

I'll always be that short little gloat
Always clearing his throat like he ever had something to say
And I'll say
When I go, bury me six feet in snow

Here we are wasting our chances for the last time
And when we go, I'll try not to be so slow
Skeletons, skeletons, what do we have here
Hiding from the mirror?
Say it once, say it twice, try to be nice
Well, let's not lose ourselves

Take my mind, take my body
Take my father's conscience from me
Sister, will you lend me all your strength?
I'm bringing everyone home

Here we are wasting our chances for the last time
And when we go, I'll try not to be so slow
Skeletons, skeletons, what do we have here
Hiding from the mirror?
Say it once, say it twice, try to be nice
Well, let's not lose ourselves

Tada-tada-tada-tada-tada-tada, da-da-da-da
Tada-tada-tada-tada-tada-tada, da-da-da-da
Tada-tada-tada-tada-tada-tada, da-da-da-da
Tada-tada-tada-tada-tada-tada, da-da-da-da-da

When the lights go out, will you take me with you
And carry all this broken bone
Through six years down in crowded rooms
And highways I call home?
It's something I can't know 'til now
'Til you pick me off the ground
With a brick in hand, your lip-gloss smile
Your scraped-up knees, and

If you stay, I would even wait all night
Or until my heart explodes
How long until we find our way
In the dark and out of harm?
You can run away with me
Anytime you want

Terrified of what I'd be
As a kid, from what I've seen
Every single day, when people try
And put the pieces back together
Just to smash them down
Turn my headphones up real loud
I don't think I need them now
'Cause you stop the noise, and

If you stay, I would even wait all night
Or until my heart explodes
How long until we find our way
In the dark and out of harm?
You can run away with me
Anytime you want

Well, anytime you want
Well, anytime you want

Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away!

'Cause if you stay, I would even wait all night
Or until my heart explodes
How long until we find our way
In the dark and out of harm
You can run away with me
Or you can write it on your arm
You can run away with me
Anytime you want

I see you, you see me
How pleasant, this feeling
The moment you hold me
I missed you, I'm sorry
I've given what I have
I showed you I'm growing
The ashes fall slowly
As your voice consoles me

As the hours pass
I will let you know
That I need to ask
Before I'm alone
How it feels to rest
On your patient lips
To eternal bliss
I'm so glad to know
As the hours pass
I will let you know
That I need to ask
Before I'm alone
How it feels to rest
On your patient lips
To eternal bliss
I'm so glad to know

We're swaying to drum beats
In motion, I'm feeling
My patience controlling
The question, I won't speak
We're telling the stories
Our laughter, he knows me
We're leaving, we're talking
You're closer, it's calming

As the hours pass
I will let you know
That I need to ask
Before I'm alone
How it feels to rest
On your patient lips
To eternal bliss
I'm so glad to know
As the hours pass
I will let you know
That I need to ask
Before I'm alone
How it feels to rest
On your patient lips
To eternal bliss
I'm so glad to know

The night will hold us close and the stars will guide us home
I've been waiting for this moment, we're finally alone
I turn to ask the question, so anxious, my thoughts
Your lips were soft like winter,
in your passion, I was lost

As the hours pass
I will let you know
That I need to ask
Before I'm alone
How it feels to rest
On your patient lips
To eternal bliss
I'm so glad to know
As the hours pass
I will let you know
That I need to ask
Before I'm alone
How it feels to rest
On your patient lips
To eternal bliss
I'm so glad to know
As the hours pass
I will let you know
That I need to ask
Before I'm alone
How it feels to rest
On your patient lips
To eternal bliss
I'm so glad to know
As the hours pass
I will let you know
That I need to ask
Before I'm alone
How it feels to rest
On your patient lips
To eternal bliss
I'm so glad to know

Barely printed, on the dot
She wondered why the record stopped
Flipping through the pages of a child's eulogy

Surfacing beneath malaise
A game of cards went on for days
Escalated fog disease
They've fallen to their knees

Wait your turn, there's something still inside
Out of thousands gathered asking how and why
Caught and tamed
The unexplained
Formed a semblance of their normalcy
And took it to their graves

Watch
Perhaps forgotten
A girl prеserved throughout the yеars
Repainted in the prism past
We're holding hands at long last

Fortified by age-old condolences
Drawings of the northern lights
God, give us clearer skies
Open-eyed, entangled in promises
Furthering the questions asked
Hands tied behind our backs
Bared fangs behind a mask

Set reminders, sworn to pray
She swallowed whole another day
Taking in the world at play
It's brighter than the sun
Reprimands sit in the brew
Behind the show, a better view
Aggravated fog disease
Collapsing to their knees

Wait your turn, there's something still inside
Out of thousands gathered asking how and why
Who's to blame?
Is it mundane?
Maybe tangible by needlework?
They're desperate for a name
Burned
A language unlearned
The arbitrary colors of a variegated disarray

Fortified by age-old condolences
Drawings of the northern lights
God, give us clearer skies
Open-eyed, entangled in promises
Furthering the questions asked
Hands tied behind our backs
Bared fangs behind a mask

Tell me when the fog will subside
Please tell me when the fog will subside

Poorly held together condolences
Drowning out the northern lights
Pay more for old advice
Open-eyed, entangled in promises
Buried under dying homes
Hands tied in golden thorns

I'm defined by guesswork analogies
Documenting daily life
Tell me I'll be alright
Open-eyed, entangled in absentees
Stories of a child's past
Autopsied broken glass
My aura shines at last, oh-oh