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Why, no matter how hard I try, can’t I be like you? I’ve tried channeling my Nightstrength powers so hard, but nothing ever happens. What am I doing wrong? Why won’t you teach me how to harness them? Don’t you want me to shine like you do? I just want to be as cool as you are someday, but I’m too afraid to actually get out there and try. That’s why I joined the BATch with Noctis. I wanted to make friends with her friends, and be closer to her. Maybe she’ll see that I need help, and offer to help me unlock my powers. I also don’t really want to let her down, but the BATch isn’t really my type of fun. It’s a little extreme for me, and I’m not really comfortable with the things we do. She just seemed so happy for me to meet her friends, and I wanted to be with her, so I didn’t see a problem with it. We’re both happy this way, right?
She can’t know the truth about herself. She’s just not ready to hear it. Maybe she’ll figure it out on her own, but I fear that the more she’s around me, the more she’ll realize how different we are. I love her to bits, don’t get me wrong, but I just think she needs a tougher skin, y’know? Life experience. Maybe a social life, I dunno, just something to lift her up a bit.
Also, the BATch are my friends. We do more mature and hardcore stuff, and I feel like she’s a little too young and soft to handle them. I want to protect her, and I also feel like she’s encroaching on me a little bit, too. You’re a very kind girl, I’m sure you can get your own friends. My friends do seem to like her though, how could they not, she’s a sweet kid. I love seeing her so happy, it makes my heart sad to know that I don’t really want her doing these things. Or maybe, it’s sad that she wants to do these things. I want what’s best for her, and I really don’t think the BATch is it, unfortunately. I just don’t have the heart to tell her that, either.