[TRIGGER WARNING: mentions of wanting to commit sxicide, self h4rm, sadness turned into anger, feeling empty, being pressured by other people]
[ This bio turned out super long, I'm very sorry in advance! I didn't mean to make it that long :( ]
Faye loves to eat marshmallow candy. It's her fave everyday snack, but she can often eat too much and get/feel dizzy from it. Sometimes when she meets new people they say that she looks like an unicorn (because of her design, mainly the single horn on her forehead) she's heard it many many times, quite constantly even. She tries to react cool but gets tired when the same people keep mentioning it over and over.
Faye is quite confident and acts like she doesn't care much about any problems, but in the reality she is overwhelmed by the pressure that people lay on her. "She's supposed to" be always good looking, Wear gorgeous makeup and fancy outfits that in the reality are really uncomfortable and tight. She is expected to be like a role model(?), someone who acts perfectly all the time and does every single thing like others.
Never complains about anything around others, always has to listen to everybody's problems but can never be able to say anything about herself. She has to hide everything from everyone and keep faking being totally fine and always "in class". When she's home alone its the only time when she can stop being someone else only to please people who wouldn't even care a bit about the real her. The real Faye that struggles a lot with life but never could show or tell anyone about anything. The real faye that doesn't really like wearing fancy dresses, clothes that are super uncomfortable and having to dress herself up anytime she has to show herself to anybody. Anytime she has to go anywhere so people don't see that Faye is actually unwell. So people don't hate on her and get extremely dissapointed when she isn't like what they want her to be.
From all of this acting, masking, hiding herself from the world it's like Faye lost her true self along the way a long long time ago and could never figure out, find her true self. She never really knew who she was, what she wants to be like , what does she like. To this time, All that she knows is that she hates all of it, hates living and wants to end it all, but couldn't because that would mean showing the world that she has wounds and isn't really that perfect people thought she was. This would mean showing that she actually needs help but there is no one to help her out. This is pointless.
She feels like she really really needs to get at least a little bit of those negative, self destructive feelings out, but Is there really any way to do this? Is it possible for the perfect little flawless girl to finally break and snap?
Faye got really experienced in masking herself over the time that went by. She feels like being controlled, manipulated, observed. She constantly meets people that know her around the town when she goes out, like for example when going shopping to buy some food and drinks etc. Basic everyday life stuff.
Faye lives alone in a block of flats on a high floor. luckily there is an elevator that you can take down and back down. That means there are times when she doesn't have to show up and put on an act, there can be lazy days with comfortable hoodies or pyjamas, eating chips snacks, marshmallow candy that I mentioned in the beginning of this bio. Besides all of the negatives, there are moments when Faye can cool down and get more private.
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