PERSONALITY

PERSONALITY

Surprisingly upbeat despite rather unfortunate circumstances, Esther has a good, or maybe bad, sense of humor. Really, it depends on the person she's talking to. She is bull-headed, with a strong fight response that often gets her in to trouble. Despite what people may think, she is extremely loyal and defensive of those close to her, willing to put her life on the line for them in a heartbeat. And while she may struggle with emotional intelligence, she is very caring and does try to help others when they're upset even if she does have a tendency to say the wrong things. Combined with her often hard time reading the room, this can result in insensitive comments with the opposite intention. Because she isn't always the best listener or shoulder to cry on, she tends to default to trying to simply fix or patch up the problem at hand.

Esther can seem rather aggressive, especially with her tone and primary ways of holding herself, and thus this often makes her seem more intimidating than she is. And her appearance can often further this presentation. While she's usually happy-go-lucky, her mood can swing rapidly. This has resulted in violent outbursts over seemingly nothing. Lacking good emotional regulation is still something prominent with Esther, though it has improved as she has gotten older in what is truly only a somewhat more stable living situation. She thinks it's perfect, though. She also has a habit of not taking things all that seriously when she most definetely should be taking said thing more seriously.

Needless to say, Esther struggles with her mental health. She has severe C-PTSD, IED, and what is most likely a cluster b disorder, though it's not inherently obvious which one via her age and other problems. She forms weird attachments to others, and while she tries to hide it, she is quick to accept others as friends and even as family. Esther seemingly has manic episodes, though the depression she has isn't all that prominent. She does often have episodes of anxiety, as well, struggling with being in public and getting scared she'll do something wrong. Though, this has significantly worn away with age and is more-or-less a problem that proper therapy and coping mechanisms could significantly help.