Vince

Trivia

• Vince takes out his package of cigarettes. One of many bad habits he can't get rid of. Others being a coffee-addiction and his incapability to know his limits regarding alcohol. Still he continues to light the cigarette and takes a deep breath. Finally he feels like hes able to breathe again, after that long, dragging office-meeting.
• His only ray of hope on this annoying day is the concert, that he will join this evening. Star is finally back around in his area so he booked the tickets weeks ago and awaited this day ever since.
• Suddenly he hears a noise from inside and looks around. A smile crosses his face. A rare thing to happen here, since he usually doesn't bring himself to smile at work. Only those faked ones to manipulate those around and keep up the role he plays. But this smile is real, since the person, that is now standing next to him on the balcony is his closest friend, Penelope. She's one of few people who really knows his true self. One of the few he feels safe to open up to.
• "Already exited?", she askes and smiles knowingly. "Of course. It's been a long while since the last one, after all." Vince takes another drag from the cigarette between his fingers.

INTRO

The buildings are running over the huge windows of the bus, fleeing from some unknown force that i cant tell. But still i relate to those buildings and trees, to the whole landscape out there, which seems to constantly run for its life.
Im also running. Running without looking back. Even though I’m sitting here. Calm, my heart beating slowly and consistent.
But seeing everything out there in a mysterious rush feels so familiar.
I often feel like I’m searching for something out there im unable to reach. Its always slipping through my fingers, when i think I’m coming close enough.
My mind darkens and once again I turn up the volume of my headphones, the music blasting through my ears and once again i feel, like I’m getting closer to that one thing im trying to catch.
But what is it, that im chasing?

DOUBLE-LIFE

After I got home i tossed my clothes in the hidden part of my wardrobe where the suits and shirts were covering it and laid on my bed.
My head was spinning, not only because of the endorphins but especially because of the way too many drinks I had.
Dang it, tomorrow I would have the worst headache ever and I had no clue on how I could explain this to my dad. He would show up at my apartment tomorrow to talk about some business-matter.
But even though the worries about the next day were so loud in my head, there was still only room for Star. I couldn’t stop thinking of them.
At some point I fell into a deep slumber, dreaming of Star in the brightest colors.
So when my alarm rang the next morning it felt like I had crushed back into reality in a really uncomfortable way.
My head ached like I already guessed. Still I managed to get up and put one of my suits on. Quick time check. My dad would be here in half an hour. Enough time to get some breakfast.

Dating a celebrity?

When I walked home I had my headphones on as always. Reaching my apartment I get the keys out and as soon as I’m in I toss my stuff in the corner and sit down at the couch.
Im only sitting for a few seconds when my phone starts to ring. Im confused on who would call me now but when I get my phone out a smile appears on my face. Its Penelope, a close friend of mine. One of the very few.
Immediately I accept the call: "Hey! We didn’t talk in quite a while, did we?"
"Well, if mister super-model wouldn’t be so busy it would have been a shorter time!", answers the voice in the phone with a laughter.
"Don’t mention that, please!", i sighed and have to laugh too. She always knows whats going on.
"So hows life going beside that fancy hot photoshoots. Remind me to call your secretary for some copies of that photographs", she says in a pretended flirty life.
"Never! But actually, life is absolutely fine at the moment! You will never guess who I just met!"
"Hm, must be the queen of England if you are so exited about it Mr. Worldwide.", her silent chuckle makes me smile. "Even better. I met Star! You know, the lead singer of my favorite band!", I tell her proudly.
"Stop lying!", she says and its no wonder she doesn’t believe me. I wouldn’t believe it too, if I didn’t know better. "Im being honest! And we even went out for the drink yesterday and met again today. I was on the fucking stage at the concert.", I still get excited when thinking back at that moment.
"Vince. Don’t do something stupid, okay? I know you’ve got money and all, but dating a celebrity? Spare the misery. It wont end well, thats what Im sure of.", her voice has turned serious. I don’t know what to answer and so its just silent for some seconds.
"Were not...dating. Just hanging out. Really!", I’m not even convincing myself right now.
"Just be careful, okay? I care a lot for you and don’t want you to get hurt.", her words are true and honest.
We continue talking for some time until the call ends and Im getting myself dinner before going to bed.
Nellys words are echoing through my head the whole time.