Jade's Links
"I don't blame her for hating me honestly, I hurt my best friend, HER MOM, in a way that I don't think I really should be forgiven for, at least not easily. if anything im glad she cares enough about toto to defend her so passionately. I can't undo what I did to her, and I know that, all I can really do now is try to make it up to everyone, epically toto. her hatred is just another motivator for me to due so"
Listen here you blue, micropenised, reverse-oreo-looking FUCK. YOU are not family, WE are not family, the only reason you're still here is cuz Mom's nice and all but don't expect me or anyone with brains around here to act all nice either. If you make Toto feel even a minor HINT of negative emotion, I will cramp my crowbar so far up your ass, you'd be eating and shitting out the same hole on that face of yours. So fuck off.
"I threw away everything we made together, not once, but twice. and those are the biggest mistakes of my life. and both times it was because I was...terrified of her. I was scared she'd hurt me somehow- at least thats what I said back then, but I think deep down I was worried she'd reject me. I thought she'd be fine- she was always so happy that I thought she wouldn't even notice me leaving...im a fucking idoit for not realizing I was one of the reasons for her happiness. so I just left her, not even a goodbye, and that...that caused the worst years of her life. and I never knew that till we met again, and I saw her dead eyes...god if I ever saw that look in her eyes again- i'd hold her close and promise that i'd never let anyone do that to her again, and take her for ice cream or something, I diden't back then...when I saw those eyes, I didn't think about how I could help her- I was only thinking about how I could escape without her seeing me. I wasn't ready to realize my mistake, but she saw me and...her dead eyes lit up, like she had just found something she had been searching years for. and in that moment, even without knowing it, I knew I had to stay with her, I couldn't let that light just die again. so we started travelling agein, and I kept telling myself i'd leave again soon, that I couldn't be close to her because of what she was inside. but really in my head I was thinking about things going back to how they where before, eating crap food and laughing together. the part of me who wanted to stay close with her started to surface again, and then...she killed someone, she litterly died infront of me, then came back, and killed our attackers with no regrets...she killed to save my life...and did I thank her? no, of course not. because I was a fucking scared asshole back then. instead of thanking her- or even asking if she was okay...I screamed at her, I called her a monster for what she did... I didn't mean it, god no. but I was acting completely out of fear, I was once again scared of her, scared that i'd be next...and then I ran, I ran away from my problems like I always had, I ran and left her alone, without even realizing that she to was terrified. god it crushes me thinking about it now...back then I knew others needed me, but I never knew that I also needed others. it wasen't till after tate found me that I realized that I not only needed him, but I needed her. I needed to see that dumbasses smile again, I needed to hold her and apologize for every little wrong iv ever done to her. and so I went looking for her- I didn't let myself sleep until I found her again, and I found her...I found her in time to watch her get a bullet though her head. watching her body fall into the ocean...being powerless to save her TWICE...I finally knew what I had put her though, and,,,god, how did she survive!? she's stronger then I think we all give her credit for...but yeah, she died infront of me a second time, and, I couldn't take it anymore. I turned into the monster that I had feared she was for so long, and I made sure that basterd would never walk this earth again. and then I just...shut down. I was completely catatonic for...a month? I wanna say it was a month- however long it was till I heard her voice again- I honestly thought I had died and was in the after lfie, but there she was, standing infront of everyone like nothing had happend. it wasn't like the first time, I didn't hesitate, I just moved faster then I had ever had in my life, and hugged her as close as I could. devil was clawing at me to get her turn but I diden't care, I just held her and apologized for everything I had done, and promised over and over that from that moment on i'd protect her, and to this day I mean it still. I know I can't make her life perfect, nor can I stop her from ever being upset again- but I know for a fucking fact I can keep her from falling back into despair, and I swear on my life I will. i'll make up for all the years we've missed out on, and i'll try my damnest to be the BFF she believes I can be. and I always makes sure she knows im smiling cuz she's alive, seeing her light up at those comments really does make my days...I was a fool for every giving that away, thank you for forgiving me toto."
"he's kinda right about me being awful, what I did was a complete asshole move. and im not saying he has to forgive me, of course not! litterly all im asking is if he could please stop shooting at my girlfriend, and threatening me whenever I walk into the house"
For once, Onee-san was right about these two being bad people... Stay away from me and my family!!