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She/her, 22
Cis woman, lesbian
A lover of big cities, Mae finds beauty in both the natural and the constructed. Living in her Indianapolis apartment feels like a new vacation everyday, as she is constantly fascinated by the tall buildings and the bustle on the streets. Though she is content with her home, her wanderlust draws her to someday travel to the biggest cities worldwide. Mae is awestruck by the enormity of the world and hungers to gain as much knowledge and as many experiences as possible before her life's end. She is comfortable with the idea that she is but a small piece of a very large puzzle and loves to explore things that are bigger than she. Well-described as an INTJ, however, Mae relies more on intuition than sensing. Her curiosity is sparked by a love of collecting and analyzing all of the facts before drawing a solid conclusion. She constantly challenges herself to expand the breadth of both her knowledge and her worldview with the new information she gathers through observation. These high-reaching goals of expansion that she sets for herself never wear out; her constant pressure to achieve drives her to do her best work. Mae absorbs knowledge quickly and immediately puts it into application; her quiet observation allows her to internalize many ideas that she can apply later. She values intelligence and organization in both herself and her companions. Perhaps the most appealing thing to her is the prospect of an intelligent conversation. However, though she is an analytical thinker and a high achiever, Mae cannot be simply defined by her good work. Despite the fact that she may come across as feeling 'superior,' Mae longs to be challenged, and this is why she strives to be an open-minded, cheerful, and accepting person on a daily basis.
Mae is easily excited. There are many things in this world that please her. Despite her introverted label, one of the things Mae loves best is social interaction, as long as it is in small doses. Because of this, she comes across as incredibly flirtatious. Her flirty nature - and others' reactions to it - often leads to confusing relationships with unclear boundaries. She has a very difficult time gauging when someone is genuinely interested in her, but tends to fall for people very quickly herself, always consumed by the question of whether or not her affection is returned to the same degree. Her obsessive-type personality forces Mae to see relationships as a 'goal' to be achieved. For this reason, she often sets her eyes on seemingly unachievable men, later proving to herself that 'leagues' are dating's greatest myth. Unfortunately, Mae's flirtatious nature does lead to quite a bit of dysfunction; she often finds herself in very uncomfortable situations, having to explain her lack of interest to someone. Though overly romantic, Mae is actually demisexual, and she struggles to see herself with anyone who she is not extremely close to. Mae is very committed in a relationship, though she prefers singularity. Being out of a relationship allows her to better develop herself first. One thing that always makes Mae long for a relationship, though, is media. Listening to a particularly thrilling song or watching a hot and heavy movie scene leaves Mae in a confusing love-hate relationship with the media's romanticization of dysfunctional relationships. Having been in a previous unhealthy relationship, Mae knows that they are no fun. But they sure do make them sound good in the music she listens to.
Mae also has a confusing perception of herself. Some days, she feels incredibly lovely. She enjoys looking nice before going out and is, admittedly, a selfie queen. But from one day to the next, Mae can go from feeling like a super model to doubting her own self worth. Mae is unfortunately unaware of what causes these dips in self-esteem, but longs to grow always-comfortable in her own skin. Mae also struggles with anxiety. A constant buzz of guilt and nervousness sits in her chest, even when she hasn't done anything wrong. This could partially be the product of her need for others' approval, despite claiming that other peoples' opinions don't matter to her. If she receives some sort of signal that someone may be angry at her, she immediately begins to assume the worst.
One of the ways Mae best expresses herself is through sarcasm. She is sarcastic 100% of the time and feeds off of others' sarcasm. Maybe this is why she loves to watch Robert Downey Jr. movies so much! She uses sarcasm to hide the truth about her feelings and as a means for humor, so she's often been addressed for her sassy attitude that sometimes oversteps the boundary of 'appropriate.'
Mae possesses the great ability to remember word-for-word every verbal conversation she has ever had. She can remember full-length conversations, which causes a lot of frustration when someone remembers a conversation differently from her and she has no means to convince them that she's correct, outside of herself. It can be both a blessing and a curse, as Mae can replay compliments in her head until her confidence is sufficiently boosted, but she can also replay arguments and insults until she's made herself sick. She often gets secondhand embarrassment over things she remembers saying or doing, even many years in the past.
Though she is bright, Mae rarely gets enough sleep and is thus always sleepy, which interrupts her concentration and motivation significantly. In the winter, she even experiences SAD - Seasonal Affective Disorder - a form of seasonal depression, which leads to a lack of drive and contentment. Because of this, there are very few things she loves more than sleeping, but a few do come close. Her favorite things are basketball, good music, delicious food, and anything cute, be it pastel colors, interior design, clothing, or wildlife. Her favorite food is anything that contains the holy trinity: sour cream, cheese, and avocado, but she also loves pistachio ice cream, blue raspberry poptarts, vanilla bean Dry, pineapple salsa, banana peppers, pumpkin spice lattes, macaroni and cheese, pizza, and rainbow sprinkles. Probably not all together, though! Other things she enjoys include synthpop, indie pop, trap rap, and old jazz music; giraffes; dragons; the smell of gasoline; carousels, which remind her of her late mother; Nike basketball shoes; Doc Martens; Red Robins; crystals; trains; stuffed animals; plants; and watching her significant other do anything that they're really good at, be it playing sports, making music, etc.
Though nearly everything in life brings Mae some sort of joy, there are a few things that she adamantly dislikes: the beach, she always manages to sunburn in the strangest patterns; the texture of her hair, she always wishes for someone else's; exercising, though she often forces herself to do it; and when other people burp, she always holds her breath after they do.
Mae is... incredibly quirky to say the least. She says "ew" any time someone says or does something she doesn't like and says "retweet" or "same" when she hears something she agrees with. She always has to sing along when she hears a song she knows, almost as though it's an involuntary reaction, and even if she only knows half of the words. She covers her stomach when she's seated with crossed arms to hide the little chubs she's self-conscious about and sucks her gut in while standing. She cusses all the time... effectively... like a lady, and doesn't mind when others do too. She says "is this real life?" when something unbelievable happens to her and uses "I bet" ironically all the time. She refuses to each ice cream or yogurt off the lid of a container as she swears it tastes differently, and she only likes to sit in the left-hand corner of the couch. She loves to wear stickers on her cheeks and loves typing because of the sound that the keys make. She also muses better when she's writing with a pen rather than a pencil.
Despite enjoying selfies, she hates having her picture taken by others. She sniffs a lot when she's nervous (or to cover up other sounds, like a grumbling stomach). Every time she gets sick, she worries that she'll never feel well and be able to breathe out of both nostrils again. She says "you feel me?" when trying to make a point and "I got you" when accepting a point. She can write with the pen on both her middle finger and her ring finger, having never been taught how to hold a pen properly, and she subconsciously switches fingers midway through writing to leave calluses on both fingers. Other people think she's cute and quirky because she uses apparently outdated words and phrases, and she's often teased for this. One of her favorite things to do is to get quiet people to talk, and she'll only start a conversation with someone who is quieter than herself. She suffers from both migraines and Charley horses, which she attempts to control with blood-thinners, root extracts, and eating lots of bananas - even though she doesn't really like them. Her manager at the waterpark calls her a social butterfly, which is ironic, because as an introvert she actually feels the need to schedule herself alone time to relax. However, it's understandable that he perceives her this way, because she will often stay for hours after her shift has ended to chat with her coworkers.
Mae is photosensitive, meaning that she gets strange little bumps on her hand from being out in the sun. She also has terrible year-round tan lines left by her lifeguarding suit. She is an aesthetic blogger in her free time and is also learning how to be a crystal healer. Her greatest fears are surgery, needles, anesthesia, and confinement in a damp, dark underground place. She always writes down her ideas and consequently has nearly 100 notes on her cellphone and equally many scraps of paper with ideas and reminders strewn about everywhere. People tell her she has a "heart-shaped" face, and when she smiles, her cheeks are pudgy, round, and pink with blush.
Mae tries her best to remain positive in every situation and her friends often come to her for advice, considering her the "mom friend" because of her old soul. She is fun to be around, creative, intelligent, loving, and easy to please. But perhaps her best quality is her sense of humor. Or - better yet - her genuineness.
