tilian

lungful of saltwater

physicality
☀ picture a wolf, except blue, no, bluer — bluer — nah, dog, not that blue — okay, there we go
☀ very balanced and conditioned physique, roughly square with fine bone, lean muscle, and minimal fat
☀ handsome but faintly tired and restrained; there's a dark, haunted look to his oceanic eyes
☀ iridescent blue-black fur with white accents [toes, chest smudge, undereye swoops]
☀ meticulously well-groomed, moves with caution and care, goes to great lengths to avoid dirt and grime
☀ numerous imperceptible scars, but notably has a series of telltale lacerations in the cleft of his mandible
sounds like open water, deep and level, with a strong accent of european origin
smells like sea salt, pine needles, and mint leaves; very aquatic and clean, almost soapy

psychology
☀ composed, eloquent, refined; strictly adheres to rules of etiquette and courtesy, expects others to do the same
☀ solemn and serious with no sense of humor to speak of, nor any respect for [or real understanding of] fun
☀ quietly intellectual in an unnerving, raven-like sort of way; enigmatic, unrevealing, faraway
☀ thrives on laws and hierarchies, gets restless without a job to do, will readily overwork himself if given the chance
☀ preoccupied with purity and perfection — extends to some traditionalism, but more ignorant than bigoted
☀ uptight, neurotic, obsessive; suffers from constant intrusive thoughts and flashbacks, copes with compulsions
☀ struggling to reclaim home, stability, and sense of self after being exiled from the family he once expected to lead
☀ torn between a lifelong soldier complex and a newfound ambition to take control and do better than those before him
idiosyncrasies include very formal speech, strict daily rituals and routines, occasional tics, profound love of the sea
diagnoses of obsessive-compulsive personality disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder, mysophobia

inspiration
☀ seasick by silversun pickups
☀ turn tail from the power of / the roots of your family tree / or let them see
☀ alligator teeth by mother falcon
☀ because all it ever leads me to is / bad things, bad things, now
☀ crest by the antlers
☀ float on your back, take me / closer to trawl, but much, much further
☀ suture up your future by queens of the stone age
☀ i'm gon' suture up my future / i ain't jaded, i just hate it
☀ song of the sea by cake bake betty
☀ starting to breathe so heavily / grandpa's telling me of / his days in the navy
☀ munich by editors
☀ people are fragile things, you should know by now / be careful what you put them through
☀ rain smell by baths
☀ all the water that had kept me alive / i will miss you, distance aside
☀ desire by everything everything
☀ i am a pencil pusher with the pencil pusher blues / what the hell have i got left to lose?
☀ the good in me by jon bellion
☀ like a knife in the woods / yeah, you hunt down the good in me
☀ in all my dreams i drown from the devil's carnival
☀ but i don't want to go to sleep / in all my dreams i drown