"WhiteDoe" Miguel Lopez's Links
I started working with Noctis just after I joined to Varesha's team. It was a new thing for me, but I was ready to do all my best. Thanks to my hunting skills, scope lens eyes and knowledge how to convince people to cooperate it wasn't hard thing to do. The only issue was my little partner being a little stubborn with getting along. She has a very difficult personality, but it didn't discourage me - I wanted her to feel alright around me if we planned to work together more effectively.
I noticed over time that this girl was... unhappy? She tried to hide her pain under rudeness and every time I did something nice to her, she was surprised and embarrassed. For some reason that made me wanting to keep going. That's how we became friends, even close ones! She really needed someone to bring her joy and reminding her that she is important and cool :D
I had many friends, but due to my work and fun spending time with Noctis she was mostly the one I kept in touch with. Sometimes we even went hunting together or celebrated events! Our friendship became something more than a work- and I meant it literally. After my huge failure on a mission which turned out to be a trap, Noctis made me realize that we are more than friends.
I never thought of being in relationship or loving. Due to my previous work where I had to be super cautious about attachment I couldn't notice any signs from my partner. But I get it now and I might had feelings to her for a while too, but also couldn't realize that.
Unfortunately my demons of past bothered us a bit... oooooor mostly Noctis... I can't stop people from remembering or recognizing me in the way. I try to avoid the situations, but sometimes it's impossible to do. If it does happen, I always manage to find a way to solve the issue or I will simply repay somehow for the discomfort.
I understand her reasons due to low-esteem and I am ready to support her in any way I can. I would never imagine coming back to the old days, I would prefer to stay with my kitten :3
At first I didn't really like him. He was way too positive, friendly and easy going. People just naturally liked him, or were just very flirty towards him. Basically just an extreme opposite of me. And that constant asking me out after work to just go do something together started getting really annoying. But damn it's impossible to say no somehow, is he just naturally that charismatic and convincing?? Usually people tend to avoid me and I learned to just be by myself. But he never seemed to care about my nasty personality traits and....just wanted to be around.
After some time we became really good friends. Spending time with him was no longer an activity that I disliked, and we were just so used to it now, that going somewhere after work was just something we did every time even without asking the other.
But after some more time.... Sigh... it seems like I fell for him too-- I was never in love before, but anything he does gives me fkn butterflies. I hid that fact for a long time, and he didn't seem to notice it, still just being his usual self towards me. I was scared and didn't think I would deserve someone like him. Always so kind to me, and never mad at my sudden mood swings and grumpy attitude. I felt like I somehow started seeing everything in a more positive light when he was around me...
Then there was that one mission. I felt like it was fishy from the moment I looked at that document, but somehow..... it all seemed in place, just leaving me with that bad gut feeling. But I had to accept it. It didn't have anything that I could point out as against our rules. Mig had to go alone. And then he stopped responding... And almost a year went by without a sign from him.
I never felt loneliness like that, and constant fear of no reports back from Miguel. Varesha told me that it would be fine, tried to convince me to focus on work and not just waiting for response. But each day it was only getting worse. I couldn't loose him-- I didn't want to live without that dumb face of his-- After waiting few months only getting depressed and worried further, I tried to do some dumb shit. My sister stopped me in time, and was keeping a much more closer eye this time.
And then suddenly one night I heard a knock on the door. I wasn't expecting my sister, or well anyone, and especially not this late. So I took my gun and went to open the doors, ready to protect myself if it came down to it - can't be too careful, we do have some pretty nasty enemies out there... But there he was... Miguel standing with his arms up, all scratched up and hurt, clearly still nervously looking around if he wasn't followed. So much emotions run right through me in that moment, that I just broke down in his arms.... And after breaking down again I kissed him--- It was stronger than me, not really something I had control over. Happened so quickly, but I could feel his lips press against mine in response. Maybe saying "I think I might like you a bit too much" isn't the best way of trying to say "I love you", but I never expected him to say it back...
I can't imagine a life without him. Silly dog-
Hey listen, you are alright, no hard feeling - but - could you maybe leave Noctis alone?- We may all get hurt if it will keep going- Thank you-
Be a good dog and fuck off. If it wasn't for those eyes of yours I would gladly enjoy getting a chance to fuck you up.
*Badly injured* No no no, I don't need any help I will get better soon by myself ''''
I think Varesha was the closest customer I've had, but I never considered it to be anything more serious than just a "service". I still wonder if she is mad about it, but bringing back the past just to say sorry could be a bad idea.
It was fun while it lasted. We were young and stupid, and I never took our relationship too seriously. He is a good sniper so at least that old aquaintance was usefull in a way. He tends to be annoying with the teasing sometimes, but I just ignore it. I'm glad my sis is happier with him tho. Good for them.