Professor Hailey Laburnum's Links
My poor baby... I miss him just as much as my husband. He had the kindness of his father, it’s really unfortunate that he took after me in confidence. If anyone is not worth it, it’s me. That’s beside the point though... He was such a good child, I could have never asked for anything better. He was smart, knew when he needed and didn’t need something early on and was just so pleasant, his sense of humour was odd at times but it did make me and him smile. He had such a nice smile...
I wonder if he ever did smile again after his father disappeared, I... Never did catch him doing so. It put both of us in shock really, but I know he couldn’t have just run away. He... Disappeared shortly after Zackary. Another tragedy after the other. He went out so young... Too young. Oh, my deepest regret is not letting him go about his dreams until it was too late. By the time he had started school he was already so determined to become a trainer, he loved Gex so much too he barely left that poor Sceptile alone, and he would save up his own money to buy those little books all about Pokémon. Oh, he went on for hours about what ones he wanted to meet... And I never allowed it. I was selfish, blinded by my fear of loss and for the creatures. It’s... Hard, losing your sibling so early in life to those monsters everyone craved to capture. He was only 10... I should have let it go, I should have let him go on that journey and let him have that Jangmo-o Zack’s cousin was so excited to give him. He would have been so happy... But that never happened. And it might never will.
I sincerely hope that through my efforts I can find him, make up for all the mistakes I’ve made, hope that he did just run away and not have been taken away by whatever took away Zackary. He doesn’t deserve that... He doesn’t deserve to go without achieving his dream all because of me. It’s all my fault... Oh Cody I want you to come home. Come home with your father...
... I miss mom. I-I really don't know what else to say, uh... Yeah, just... miss her. A whole lot. I hope she’s alright without me. She... Was really messed up when dad “disappeared”, guess they think I also did. Arceus, she must be going through so much, what has she done without me there to help her... I can’t even be there for it. To be there for her. I-I... I don’t want to talk about this anymore. Or think about this. I am so, so sorry...
Oh, Zack... I... I just miss him. Miss him with all my heart. I don’t know how I’ve been able to go so far without him, he was the one who helped me through the toughest times of my early adult life, he was the first-ever person who I could be open about my feelings and fears about and not be judged. He was... Always so kind, so calm even as we both grew. He never did get angry yet still had so much personality and made me one of the happiest women alive. I can still remember when I met him, me being overly tired due to long study hours and crying after seeing how handsome he was... I was such a dork, but he didn’t judge me. I don’t know how someone as worthless as I was so lucky to have him.
And now he’s gone. He’s been gone for so long, he and my little Cody. At the time I was a burden, he tried to do something, something horrible but... Something and then just disappeared. He can’t be dead, there was nothing found, maybe he ran away from that horrible place, or maybe he is still forced to be there against his will. He just... He cannot be dead. Everyone presumes him dead but he just... Can’t be. Not now, why would he be dead? I... I’ll try my best to find him, I swear to Arceus I will. Oh, he wouldn’t like me saying that... But still, I’m willing to hope to anything that’ll bring him back, he doesn’t deserve this. Not him or my son. Not when I have the job he was so motivated towards, not when everyone still tries to find both of them even when the search was called off. I’ll bring you home, just... Please still be here Zackary.
If... There is one thing I’ve come to regret most is the impact my misdirections have affected those I had known, and most specifically... Her. Oh Hailey, if you could see what I have become it, would be something to fear, something to pour every inch of hatred onto and wish to see eviscerated in the vilest ways possible. I’ve become everything she hated, the very monster which she feared, the one who would have taken away her late brother. A prime example of the mentality she had developed against... All because of my rash and worthless decisions to assist her and our son in our time of need. I wish to believe that she still longs for my return, that she feels little ill will towards me... Yet I have lost any hope of viewing it from that optimistic perspective. She most likely has moved on with her life, gone onto better more pressing matters then the worthless husband who abandoned all he cared about, from the one who never should have been in her life in the first place to cause her to experience such tragedy again. She never deserved that, no matter what she may think due to her insecurities. It would no longer matter if I was dead, it is most likely what has come to be expected has come of me due to my long absence... I have long since lost count of the date, of how much time has truly passed.
Do not care for me, forget about me, my love. It will never matter. You... Continue to be happy, fear not for what has come of me. I just wish for you to have enjoyed your life without me, for it is better than being with the man who ruined everything he held dear.
Bleu is my support Pokémon, he was a gift from Lauren and is one of the few monsters I am comfortable around. She’s a good girl.
I saw a man so beautiful I started crying?
I immediately felt compelled to give them the nine dollars I had in my purse and say 'you are the best looking person i have ever seen so i think you deserve it and i was going to buy my lunch with this but whatever' but decided against it. and then i started crying. i seriously cried for an hour. i ran to the bathroom and came out later and i was even more tired before. i was overtired and btw i am a girl. i dont know why i cried because of that and he was better looking than all the models id seen ever!
Hailey’s a good woman, though I don’t think she’s entirely cut out for being a professor, it is nice she managed to get the position her husband always wanted. If you ask me, I don’t think she even really wanted it, probably only accepted because it’s what he would have wanted, at least she’s trying. I will admit that I did have a bit of a part in getting her the position, but that was pretty insignificant. I do feel bad for her after all that happened, to be a mum with a loving husband and son than to lose them so close to each other and now know what became of them? Rather tragic. It’s clearly taken a toll of her too, and dear god has others been harsh on her. Even that one famous guy who, god what was his name, ah... Can't remember, probably for the better, asshole’s name should be forgotten to history, but whatever, he was the one who started off all that stupid controversy over her. Seriously, making people go off on her for not being entirely comfortable around Pokémon? Wow, it’s almost like not all people entirely enjoy what they research about! I like history and look into some things such as the past ruthless kings or Galar, so I must be sadistic! Give it a damn break, and give me a break for the love of god this shit is giving me a headache. Just hope she gets over all this, but it’s so damn clear she’s not doing well because of all this. I hope she’s getting the help she needs and I have attempted to be in more contact with her to provide some kind of company. It’s better then what the other professors have done.