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paris monticello
i'll always be there to save you, because you're my friend.
profile:
paris is a very complex introvert with an unhealthily distorted self-image. they remain constantly uneasy and dissatisfied with the world around them, carrying a mixture of unrealistically high standards and low, distrusting expectations of everything and everyone— especially themself. practically unable to function while completely alone, paris is very intuitive when it comes to people and problems, going about things strategically with heavy weight on appearing socially desirable. because of this, they tend to delve into a toxic headspace when around those they love, overanalyzing body language and beating themselves up over "using people" to make them feel complete. on the outside, they appear laid-back and approachable, talkative to a fault and surprisingly stoic despite their thunderstorm of a brain.
backstory:
YOU'RE IN HELL!AU: [trigger warning! drugs, suicidal thoughts/actions, blood/gore, and death.] paris, a young adult born to a toxic family, takes up drug trafficking due to her obsession with living comfortably and finding closure within her past emotional trauma. after her younger brother is killed in a similar line of work, paris devotes her life to doing dirty work for higher ups, not only supporting herself but forming close relationships with many other coworkers. she both loves and hates her job, describing it is people loving her for killing them. a close friend of hers, pan, OD'd on the job and sent both her and her remaining friends spiraling down into a period of unhealthy grieving. however genuine their relationship, they all became broken and nihilistic, unable to sleep alone and expecting each other to die any day. it wasn't long after that paris was sent on an innocuous job that proved to be no such thing. she was shot twice in the stomach, and spent her last minutes messaging her two best friends to tell them how much she loved them, and that she was sorry. she died not knowing if it ever sent, if they ever found her, and if they ever knew what happened. arriving in hell, she carries her uncertainties with her.
