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When we first met, I remember feeling... awed more than anything else. He was so talented at math, I couldn't help being inspired to put everything into my work. And then... then I actually got to talk to him, be friends with him, and we'd hang out together in my room all the time, watching anime and talking about life and numbers. And the more that happens, the more I start getting these intrusive thoughts, things like hugging him and holding his hand... Itsuki, am I...?
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...yes. I am. Very. I only wish I'd realized what was happening sooner. I'm so dense when it comes to things like this, I never knew he felt the same way, and so strongly about it too... He's amazing. He binge-watched so much stuff with me, and I'm sure he's not even interested in it 78.31% of the time, but he always ends up singing along with me in that beautiful voice... I keep telling him he doesn't have to wear that mask, it lets me see his cute, smiling face, and... Itsu, if you're reading this, then I want you to know you're the best thing that's ever happened to me. When I'm with you, it's like all my fears and worries just... float away... I want to protect you forever.
It's taken a very long time, but... I'm patient and I'm willing to wait. I care about him a lot and I feel selfish saying that I want to be with him. But I do. I love him. I love him so much it hurts to hide, how dorky and endearing and kindhearted he is. But for our sakes... I should stuff it down. He insists he doesn't like boys, no matter how much evidence there is to the contrary, and I can't handle anyone else leaving me.
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Am I dreaming? Is this real? Are we really--are we really dating? I never thought he'd ever come to terms with...
I told him today I named my teru teru bozu after him because he makes the rain go away. We sang anime music he knows and I made some steak for him with money I saved up and we fell asleep on each other in the front room of my apartment. We even kissed a bit. Okay, maybe more than a bit. And I just.
Feeling loved is wonderful. I want to protect him forever. I just... I don’t know what I’d do without you, Eisuke. I love you.
When I was in middle school, I used to really idolize him! We met offline a couple times, and I could tell he really wanted me to break out of my shell. I still have that leather vest he bought me. I'm never going to forget his impact on my life. Someday, I swear I'm gonna be as cool as he is...!
He’s cute and naive and... well, it’s a shame his mom showed up. I wonder what he’s doing now...