In-Depth

The Yokai's looming figure can be intimidating on first meeting. His stark black mask usually shrouds his face, possibly giving Suchiru an aura of threat. More than threat, his aura is an amalgamation of both the slumbering maliciousness inside him and his desire to be walled off from unwanted pain. His disposition on first meeting can be tenuous, and saying that his temperament is unpredictable would be an understatement. Nowadays he has become more calm than he was in his infancy. Yet still, rarely, urges to harm the ones that 'rub him the wrong way' have to be suppressed by sheer will. Though he has the ability to be apprehensive and cold to strangers, generally he has good manners and enjoys company. Hisoka even has a tendancy to get too close too fast, emotionally. The amicable side of his persona is a loving and genuinely caring one, one might even say exceeding the norm. Yet it is sometimes veiled due to his own mental turmoil. He is the door to a dark room, letting in only a sliver of light for fear it blinds him.

This state of mind is, in part, provoked by his infancy. Early childhood traumas severely impacted his ability to deal with life and relationships, and more importantly his ability to live normally. Though he was much more oblivious when young as well as under a false sense of entitlement, things had begun to fall apart beyond his understanding. Bloodshed, brutality and death followed his family and mother. Many memories from that time were suppressed, but they left a rotting canker in his heart and mind. Having been hunted by unspeakably large creatures was enough to inset in him a primal fear of the world. His innate sensitivity was greatly wounded and emotionally he was unable to cope. Now ruthlessness comes naturally to him, and violence is not a stranger. He does not distinguish between women, children or men- all are equal to him during moments of rage. His moral compass is often haywire when he has been upset. He is irritable on the whole, often lashing out without meaning or desire to, usually from lawless and unreasonable anger. Death seems to him worthless; pain is also temporary.

At rock bottom, Hisoka's psychological state is disturbed. Often feeling numb and distant from the outside world, he can feel as if his soul enters another plane of existence when in times of distress, disconnecting from whatever is scaring him in the present moment. Hisoka lives vigorously inside himself, plagued by an overactive mind. Anxiety is an almost constant presence, materializing itself in the form of internal monologue of fear, self hate and anger. His emotional development was restricted, thus the Yokai finds social interaction challenging, often creating shorter sentences with little complexity to them, or finding it difficult to talk at all. Facial expressions and tone of voice are elusive. He speaks mostly in monotone, leaving only a residue of his sentiment in speech. The physical body is his prison.

Hisoka deteriorates in isolation, and is dependent on love. Suchiru thrives on it and covets it wherever it is found. The creature has the ability to be pitifully needy and he can be a downright extremely sensitive individual. When he loves a person his loyalty reaches to no end, and his charge is almost desperate. This is due to a fear of loss. Having lost those dear to him, his controlling demeanor can be almost insufferable, though it is often gone unexpressed. If one were to see deeper, it would be easy to tell that Steel has a warm and unselfish soul. The boy is mature and wise, seeing the world with an emotionally intelligent mind. He would listen to those he loves until the world fell away.

Details

Developed re-occurring nightmares and is often plagued in his sleep. The dreams are nonsensical and contain copious amounts of disturbing, alien material, even if they are not inherently bad. Has never spoken about their content to anyone, probably could not if he tried anyway. Is often scared to sleep and finds comfort in sleeping with others, even if they are strangers.

Hisoka's sexuality is clouded, but what is known is that he becomes attracted mostly to others who are either stronger or weaker- in other words, wants either to be needed or have himself need someone else. A so to speak equality would make him uncomfortable in a romantic relationship, thus steers clear of possible advances with this nature. Hisoka's sexuality is clouded, but what is known is that he becomes attracted mostly to others who are either stronger or weaker- in other words, wants either to be needed or have himself need someone else. A so to speak equality would make him uncomfortable in a romantic relationship, thus steers clear of possible advances with this nature. Bisexual, yet leans much more toward females. He does experience male attraction but he takes on a dominant role when it comes to females and more subordinate with males.

Physical Traits

The pelt that covers him is extremely light in weight, and on passing may appear as skin. His build is taut and refined- it may seem that he is lean, though in truth he is balanced and even tending toward muscular. Feline anatomy is apparent though subliminal in it's own way, as Hisoka's gait is collected and lacking in boisterous motions. His hooves accentuate this as they are sharp and thin.

! Human + Forest - His face is a strange mixture of soft to hard features- most prominent is his nose. Which, though it's sides are sharp, the end of it curves like a child's. Eyes are a light silver with dark black pupils. His lips are puffy and shapely. As he has aged, his cheekbones and jawline have become very pronounced. Inside the mouth, there are teeth like a cat's made to slice meat and skin, mostly used for tearing.

Mostly resembles his mother due to lack of genes available during development aside from hers, but does have some aspects that took shape from chance occourance.

Has some abnormalities due to being a Yokai, but they vary in how much they appear. For example, has an abnormally large tongue, though is able to control easily how much it shows or not. As well as this, his face can morph from very human to slightly off-human. All of these changes are hard to detect and often too subtle to take note of, but can be frightening if noted.

Suffers some deformities due to the nature of his growth. Weak veins- bleeds extremely easily and with surplus if injured. Has random nosebleeds and gets bloodshot eyes due to veins breaking and resealing often. Because of this, bleeding excessively is a concern and can happen very easily. Veins don't heal fast. Likely to die or become unconscious from blood loss more easily than others, regardless of how healthy he is at the time. As an extension of this, his body can at times 'wound' itself. His skin blackens and deteriorates, and reveals flesh. These never fully heal until he dies and is reborn.

Endures phantom pains for limbs that he has never had. Can be very disorienting and often makes Suchiru distraught.

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