Ezra

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basics
> "Do you want to know why I wear these stupid fucking sunglasses?" ... "It's because I don't have any eyes."

• cis (?) man
  • he/him, he/it in hawk shape
• ~22 y/o
• gay
  • technically homoromantic ace, but doesn't specifically single himself out as aspec
  • mostly on account of it being "none of your fucking business"
• (il)legally blind
  • literally missing his eyes
• firebird
  • fire elemental & shapeshifter
  • true form is that of a harlan's red-tailed hawk, albeit dark and somewhat scrawny/runty

• about 5'6 and noticeably frail
  • not exactly bony, but slightly underweight and almost constantly shivering
  • muscled but not strong
• able to call up hawk's wings at will; barred in black and white, with tinges of red at their tips
• auburn hair, pale skin laced with scars, and (formerly) amber eyes
  • face is Fucked Up, and he almost never takes his glasses off in public bc of that
  • doesn't really bother to hide them at home, though, and often drops the glasses unless they've got company that's explicitly uncomfy with seeing hollow eye sockets
• mostly dresses in black
  • owns at least 6 of the exact same black shirt and 27 different pairs of sunglasses
  • goes barefoot whenever he can get away with it, but still has proper shoes; combat boots, tennis shoes, whatever
  • most varied items of clothing are his coats, of which there are a few
    • long, dark trench coat, primarily for cooler days
    • leather jacket with patterns of twisting golden snakes along it
    • bomber jacket patterned with flames
    • something warm for winter that i haven't designed oops

• presents a face of being harsh, hostile, and overly aggressive; very much an edgelord loner who nobody would really like being around
  • snarky, argumentative, short-tempered, melodramatic, and angsty; will turn pretty much any surface-level interaction between strangers into a showy argument if given enough time and fuel
  • tends to swear a lot, even more so when someone asks him not to
  • very sensitive to insults, especially those that directly attack him as a person
    • has literally Done The Violence towards people who referred to him as a runt
• honestly a lot sweeter than he acts
  • does genuinely care about people, and will step up to protect those he feels the need to do so for
  • prickliness is really more of a facade than anything else, built up precisely over years to keep those who might mean him harm from getting too close
  • quite physically affectionate; will often snuggle up to those around him and just. silently demand cuddles. also holds hands
• quiet and burnt out by this point; keeps mostly to himself, and only talks for extended time w/ those he trusts
• starved of freedom as a kid and desperate to prove he doesn't need anyone's support
  • support which he. literally Cannot live without. so it's a bit of a losing battle
• slow to trust, wary of strangers who aren't proven safe; but once he's not afraid of someone, is very affectionate and friendly towards them
  • can come off as being a bit overly clingy, and definitely has some sort of separation anxiety
• was a lot less closed off before being blinded; still snarky and hotheaded/impulsive, but definitely more talkative and a bit friendlier/more willing to talk to people
• at the end of the day, he's really just a scared kid who wants to love and be loved

• fire elemental
  • training is basic; able to produce and manipulate fire, and cannot be burnt by flames under his control
    • not formally educated on how to safely use it (beyond just 'suppress it'), due to the danger that consistent use of his pyrokinesis would pose
    • self-taught; trained on the use of his powers alongside a group of fellow wayward adolescents from 15 to 17, which ended in disaster and exile for him
  • voice has a slight rasp/wheeze to it, as if he's been breathing smoke/hasnt talked in a while
  • always noticeably warm to the touch, even in cold temperatures
  • coughs up/exhales smoke on occasion, usually after using powers or when stressed
• born with a condition known as soul/embersickness, which results in the afflicted's fire powers slowly burning them alive from the inside out; in the past, embersickness has been terminal, but through modern medical research, has been reduced to a chronic but severe (and potentially lethal) health condition
  • obnoxious breathing issues, sort of like asthma/allergies but worse
    • can be medicated, but are still a pain in the ass
  • prone to extreme fatigue/passing out
  • chronic physical pain, usually in torso but often across entire body
    • this + the fatigue combined make it difficult/impossible for him to move in certain cases
  • easily loses control of his fire once he stops making physical contact w/ it; takes lots of effort to manipulate flames he didn't produce
  • severity of symptoms ramps up in both heat and cold conditions, resulting in periods of intense physical pain that often span much of high summer and mid-late winter
    • was actually doing pretty alright before the night where he lost his eyes; his attempt to defend himself there (plus the amount of smoke/burning things in the area) essentially made it so there was no turning back
      • even if he were to somehow get his eyes restored, he's too far gone to be able to use his fire powers for more than an hour or so without consequences
      • were it not for the wonders of modern medicine (and also the fact that he has a degree of control over his powers), his condition would likely have already killed him, possibly several times over

• born as a bit of a runt, both in the sense that he was physically weak and unable to properly wield his elemental abilities
• father died when he was ~5, leading to immense turmoil in his life
  • overly coddled/sheltered by his mother and rejected/despised by his older sister
• sought freedom that his family didn't allow, and fell in with a crowd of fellow rebellious teens
• given loose, informal training that resulted in him burning down a large swath of forest and getting kicked out of his flock
  • barely survived his exile flight; the majority of his scars were earned in that
• fled to the city of ivywood for shelter, and ended up wandering aimlessly until being taken in by a trio of strange city-dwellers who claimed to be the leaders of an urban pack
  • plot twist they were Fucking Abusive and kept him around as. basically a pet/enforcer
  • broke out alongside rosemary/lace, another victim of theirs and his eventual best friend
• ended up meeting alistair, a homeless frostwolf, through a series of circumstances
  • offered the young man much-needed shelter and resources, and somewhere to stay off of the street
  • two were good friends/roommates for a few years, and eventually developed feelings for each other n got together
• lost his eyes in a fight with velvet and her siblings; nearly died, but was saved by the older sibling of his normal friend, a cheerful young woman named amber
• currently living a pretty okay life with his friends; repaired things with his sister, got back in touch with crowteeth, and moved out of the city to an isolated little house on the edge of the forest

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