ABOUT ME
just a suicidal fucker who luvs my bf tweekrz !!!!!1!1! anysyaw i spend most of my time drawin or sme shite,,,,........
INTERESTS
SOUTH PARF!!!SOUHT PARKFF!!! and FNAF teheeheeeeee...,...,,, JACKASS TOO BWAAHGDGD also im tryin to lesrn gutiar rip my fingers who r used to piano
nononooono it’s happening again, he can’t message me no please not this again something always happens when he’s gone please nonono pleaseee i don’t want it to be like those 2 1/2 months again please no
i could do that today. i mean, it’s just a minute walk there. and mama gets off at 7. so what if the camera catches me? i’ll be dead. she can’t ground me. or.. i can jump off the bridge right beside my house. it’s tall. and has spikey rocks under it.
vvv gonna add to this. please ignore, tweek. please. i don’t wanna make ur day worse. vvv
honestly, at this point i’m hopeless. i have nothing left to give, affection, attention, and basic stuff. its so hard for me to do any of it, i even bought a fucking book to help me. and i feel horrible that people think i don’t love them, because i don’t say it. i’m trying, i really am, especially being raised by my father. they were gone for months, yet not his fault, but during those times all i did was lay and do nothing. i gave nothing. i could feel during that time. it hurt, so much, to the point where i still can’t feel. not even a little bit. i accept whatever hurts into me, i let it melt and dry off. it stays forever but whats the point if i can’t even feel it? i’m trying so hard to do something to feel, i’m tired of this. i’d rather be in so much hurt than feel nothing. i’d rather be a dick then be cold.
i’d rather be dead then any of this. sure, it may hurt peoples feelings when i say this, but.. i /don’t care/. if people really think i don’t care then might as well act like it, yk? i don’t wanna be heartless, but it almost seems better of, with what people act like.
and tweek, if you are reading this, i’m sorry. i’m trying, i’m really trying, i know that sometimes i can’t say it back, that i make you feel useless, and such, and how you can’t help. just give me some time? please? i promise, i’ll be even better for you later, i promise. i just need time to learn. is that okay? love you.
i feel empty. i can’t show or accept any affection or anything. my mind fogs up with all these memories that continue to play back like a broken record. i continue to blame myself for this, but am i really at fault? sure, i may be at some points, but do i really deserve all of this? i swear, i was a good kid. why did this have to happen to me? forget it, yk? i can’t ever feel any better, and it only gets worse. no matter what i do, i can never get better. everyday i wake up and i drown in my own mind. i’m starting to feel empty, to feel numb in my emotions. i’ve lost everythin: my home, my babies, my friends, and worst of all, myself. i don’t even know myself anymore. it’s hard to even remember my name, or age. even my own goddamn address. i wanna feel, but it’s so hard to. it feels so hard to care, and i get called cold, im told that i don’t love anything, a brat, and worst of all i’m tired of people saying that i don’t care. i’m trying, okay? i’m working on myself, i really am. but sometimes i wanna give up. because always when i work hard i always lose it. if i ever get something it gets taken away. i can’t take this anymore. i constantly feel bad for people because they have to deal with me. i’m starting to feel bad that they feel bad. at this point i don’t even know why i try. i don’t know why people even try with me, they should give up, too. they shouldn’t wasted their time on me. i don’t do anythin back. i’ll ignore them, and run away. why do i always act like this? why can’t i be normal? i’m tired of myself. really tired. i hate myself, i really do, with a burning passion. i don’t deserve anything. i’m starting to care less for myself. i don’t even brush my teeth, or take care of myself. i haven’t brushed my teeth in ages. i feel even worse because it’s so hard for me to do a simple task. it’s killing me, i can’t take this anymore i don’t wanna be here. i need relief. it’s passes the point to fix, for anything to help. please dont try to help because it makes me feel worse. i will feel bad because you’re wasting time trying to fix something beyond repair. something not worth it.
i don’t need help. i need relief. but i don’t deserve it, i’ll let the fog of my mind drown and consume me more.
for now, i’ll try to hide myself from people. i wont be myself. because if i do, they won’t see me as who i really am. if i act the way they do, they’ll see me as a good person to hangout with. not someone whos cold, and selfish. i should hide my feelins, too, that way it seems as if i dont have problems and that i’m totally stable. i’ll change my name, i’ll cut my hair, i’ll talk differently, dress, act, and do everything differently. i always feel guilty for bein myself, because it doesn’t matter how hard i try to change, it’s never enough and i’m still seen as who i used to me. i don’t wanna be me, i don’t wanna be here, i get so upset that everyday my eyes open up. i just wanna fall asleep forever. i don’t ever wanna wake up. please, i’m begging you, this really hurts and there’s no way out.
the only way out is to just end myself it seems. but i don’t think i’m ready yet. i really wanna die, though. i’m praying every night that i never wake up, that i go out peacefully.
i wont eat anymore. i’m not starving myself completely, but i just don’t feel hungry anymore. during some periods, i eat a lot, to the point while im eating i know what i’m gonna eat next. i’m getting tired of this, i almost have a food addiction. i once when a day or two without eating, and when i did eat my stomach hurt so bad to the point i would cry. everytime i eat it hurts. and i swear i’ll never eat again. i don’t care if it makes people upset. they can’t force me to eat or change my mind. i don’t deserve food.
what ever happened to me? when did i act like this? where did i go? who even am i? i lost myself…
anyways. i’m getting really tired. i know i wont last much longer. the numbness is slowly consuming me. my mind fogs up and it’s hard to see who i am. my head is walking in a graveyard in a cloudy, rainy day. the grass so tall, the dew on the blades soaks the socks; not the only blade i touch. while walking in the tall grass, almost seems as if it’s cutting, like the grass is mad. what i ever done i’ll keep to myself. until someone finds who i am. i feel like there’s no one who will find me, not while she’s lost like this. emi, she’s lost somewhere, and scared, and i can’t find her. if i ever do, what will she think of me? will she hate me even more than myself…?
Hey I got your character https://toyhou.se/25709856.tbn and I’m wondering if I’m allowed to trade them? (if so I’ll put them in my trade folder)
12 days, 12 hours ago
ima put my cock in yo mouf
1 year, 2 months ago
youll be a good boy n take it 😼
1 year, 2 months ago
😦
8 months, 25 days ago
u didnt HAVE to look here dawg
8 months, 17 days ago
HELPPPP
8 months, 17 days ago
💔💔💔
8 months, 8 days ago
i wanna be dead sometimes
1 year, 2 months ago
im horrible what the fuck
1 year, 2 months ago
what the fuck is wrong with me
1 year, 2 months ago
nononooono it’s happening again, he can’t message me no please not this again something always happens when he’s gone please nonono pleaseee i don’t want it to be like those 2 1/2 months again please no
1 year, 2 months ago
i will lose my fucking mind i can’t do this
1 year, 2 months ago
fleshryu
1 year, 2 months ago
please stay strong...im here!!
1 year, 2 months ago
Are clothes optional
1 year, 2 months ago
no
1 year, 2 months ago
So i dont wear c,lothes
1 year, 2 months ago
me neither
1 year, 2 months ago
i hate myself and want to die
1 year, 2 months ago
i am very tempted to do it X3 what is wrongz w me
1 year, 2 months ago
my arms burn
i actually did it on it my other arm 4 once and idk it hurts more
1 year, 2 months ago
my family already got onto me again bc of it
1 year, 2 months ago
...
1 year, 2 months ago
……..
1 year, 2 months ago
sometimes i wanna lay on the train tracks behind my house.
1 year, 2 months ago
lay and wait for a train.
1 year, 2 months ago
i could do that today. i mean, it’s just a minute walk there. and mama gets off at 7. so what if the camera catches me? i’ll be dead. she can’t ground me. or.. i can jump off the bridge right beside my house. it’s tall. and has spikey rocks under it.
1 year, 2 months ago
i always know my plans for killing myself.
1 year, 2 months ago
no stop....
1 year, 2 months ago
the train sounds like thunder every night
it even shakes the ground
1 year, 2 months ago
please no. please
1 year, 2 months ago
vvv gonna add to this. please ignore, tweek. please. i don’t wanna make ur day worse. vvv
honestly, at this point i’m hopeless. i have nothing left to give, affection, attention, and basic stuff. its so hard for me to do any of it, i even bought a fucking book to help me. and i feel horrible that people think i don’t love them, because i don’t say it. i’m trying, i really am, especially being raised by my father. they were gone for months, yet not his fault, but during those times all i did was lay and do nothing. i gave nothing. i could feel during that time. it hurt, so much, to the point where i still can’t feel. not even a little bit. i accept whatever hurts into me, i let it melt and dry off. it stays forever but whats the point if i can’t even feel it? i’m trying so hard to do something to feel, i’m tired of this. i’d rather be in so much hurt than feel nothing. i’d rather be a dick then be cold.
i’d rather be dead then any of this. sure, it may hurt peoples feelings when i say this, but.. i /don’t care/. if people really think i don’t care then might as well act like it, yk? i don’t wanna be heartless, but it almost seems better of, with what people act like.
and tweek, if you are reading this, i’m sorry. i’m trying, i’m really trying, i know that sometimes i can’t say it back, that i make you feel useless, and such, and how you can’t help. just give me some time? please? i promise, i’ll be even better for you later, i promise. i just need time to learn. is that okay? love you.
1 year, 2 months ago
last time i’m ever venting somewhere <\3
1 year, 2 months ago
>>> ignore this please <<<
i feel empty. i can’t show or accept any affection or anything. my mind fogs up with all these memories that continue to play back like a broken record. i continue to blame myself for this, but am i really at fault? sure, i may be at some points, but do i really deserve all of this? i swear, i was a good kid. why did this have to happen to me?
forget it, yk? i can’t ever feel any better, and it only gets worse. no matter what i do, i can never get better. everyday i wake up and i drown in my own mind. i’m starting to feel empty, to feel numb in my emotions. i’ve lost everythin: my home, my babies, my friends, and worst of all, myself. i don’t even know myself anymore. it’s hard to even remember my name, or age. even my own goddamn address. i wanna feel, but it’s so hard to. it feels so hard to care, and i get called cold, im told that i don’t love anything, a brat, and worst of all i’m tired of people saying that i don’t care. i’m trying, okay? i’m working on myself, i really am. but sometimes i wanna give up. because always when i work hard i always lose it. if i ever get something it gets taken away. i can’t take this anymore. i constantly feel bad for people because they have to deal with me. i’m starting to feel bad that they feel bad. at this point i don’t even know why i try. i don’t know why people even try with me, they should give up, too. they shouldn’t wasted their time on me. i don’t do anythin back. i’ll ignore them, and run away. why do i always act like this? why can’t i be normal? i’m tired of myself. really tired. i hate myself, i really do, with a burning passion. i don’t deserve anything. i’m starting to care less for myself. i don’t even brush my teeth, or take care of myself. i haven’t brushed my teeth in ages. i feel even worse because it’s so hard for me to do a simple task. it’s killing me, i can’t take this anymore i don’t wanna be here. i need relief. it’s passes the point to fix, for anything to help. please dont try to help because it makes me feel worse. i will feel bad because you’re wasting time trying to fix something beyond repair. something not worth it.
i’m sorry.
1 year, 3 months ago
i don’t need help. i need relief. but i don’t deserve it, i’ll let the fog of my mind drown and consume me more.
for now, i’ll try to hide myself from people. i wont be myself. because if i do, they won’t see me as who i really am. if i act the way they do, they’ll see me as a good person to hangout with. not someone whos cold, and selfish. i should hide my feelins, too, that way it seems as if i dont have problems and that i’m totally stable. i’ll change my name, i’ll cut my hair, i’ll talk differently, dress, act, and do everything differently. i always feel guilty for bein myself, because it doesn’t matter how hard i try to change, it’s never enough and i’m still seen as who i used to me. i don’t wanna be me, i don’t wanna be here, i get so upset that everyday my eyes open up. i just wanna fall asleep forever. i don’t ever wanna wake up. please, i’m begging you, this really hurts and there’s no way out.
1 year, 3 months ago
the only way out is to just end myself it seems. but i don’t think i’m ready yet. i really wanna die, though. i’m praying every night that i never wake up, that i go out peacefully.
i wont eat anymore. i’m not starving myself completely, but i just don’t feel hungry anymore. during some periods, i eat a lot, to the point while im eating i know what i’m gonna eat next. i’m getting tired of this, i almost have a food addiction. i once when a day or two without eating, and when i did eat my stomach hurt so bad to the point i would cry. everytime i eat it hurts. and i swear i’ll never eat again. i don’t care if it makes people upset. they can’t force me to eat or change my mind. i don’t deserve food.
what ever happened to me? when did i act like this? where did i go? who even am i? i lost myself…
anyways. i’m getting really tired. i know i wont last much longer. the numbness is slowly consuming me. my mind fogs up and it’s hard to see who i am. my head is walking in a graveyard in a cloudy, rainy day. the grass so tall, the dew on the blades soaks the socks; not the only blade i touch. while walking in the tall grass, almost seems as if it’s cutting, like the grass is mad. what i ever done i’ll keep to myself. until someone finds who i am. i feel like there’s no one who will find me, not while she’s lost like this. emi, she’s lost somewhere, and scared, and i can’t find her. if i ever do, what will she think of me? will she hate me even more than myself…?
1 year, 3 months ago
:(
1 year, 3 months ago
i said to ignore…
1 year, 3 months ago
pee peeeeee
1 year, 10 months ago