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Me and Judith get along great ! I like to think we're kind of the comic relief duo in the story of our lives. She's probably my best friend, to be honest. It clicked instantly, you know ? People like to talk about soulmates for love and stuff, but I think that goes for friendship as well ! I feel confortable around her, we laugh a lot together, and I like talking to her about everything that goes on in my life, and I love hearing about her life as well. We also have similar interest, especially fashion. Probably the only thing she does not share with me is my taste in men. She doesn't swing that way. But she still gave me a few pieces of advice when I wanted to date her brother. Yeah I dated my best friend's brother, that's cringe.
Nikolas is like, my best friend for a whole lifetime!! He's like a second family to me, well, quite literally now because he's dating my brother, ahah! It was really a huge mess, you can't imagine the struggles and the mental breakdowns, but I couldn't dream of a better person as a brother-in-law!! He's always had questionable tastes (well, liking men is questionable, who would want to suffer like that ???), but that's what makes him as endearing as it is tragic. I love him with all my heart, and I'll always do my best for him!! I know he'll always be there for me and I'll always be there for my most precious bud !!
Why did NO ONE told me how HARD IT IS TO GET A BOYFRIEND ?! I mean seriously !! It took me soooo long ! We met at drama classes for the first time. It's no mystery that I tend to have lots of crushes, and it doesn't take a lot for me to fall for any guy. Ezekiel was tall, had a handsome face and seems shy and nice, that's all I needed. But when I do my moves, that's the part where most (and by most I mean all) of the guys leave. Because, well, I guess I'm not their type, I don't know. But this time, Ezekiel, he didn't leave. Like, at all, on the opposite he seemed to try and get to know me ! That made me totally lose my bearings... Suddenly I wasn't the confident and friendly Nikolas. I was the "oh my god what the hell is happening and why do I want to marry this guy" Nikolas. Which, you guessed it, was not as at ease. Everytime he came around my heart was pounding in my chest, my cheeks were burning red and all I wanted was for him to just look at me, only for a split second would be enough to fill my heart with joy. I was so hard to stay calm, I made a fool out of myself everytime, so much that I was worried he would get scared and leave me behind for someone better. I can't recount all the time I cried on Judith's shoulders all because I was ashamed of the way I acted around him during the day. No matter how hard I tried, I could never build up the courage to confess that I liked him. I will always remember the time we had to kiss for the play we practiced for... It felt so scary, yet so beautiful... Well, it would've had, if sir Ezekiel could read my SIGNS !!! I think at one point he did knew, but we were both too scared to say anything. Judith had to help out in the end by telling him I liked him. It did ruin my confession, but at least it worked. We were finally, officialy TOGETHER ! Man, what a ride ! Would you believe me if I told you he is my first actual boyfriend ? Yeah, I've never dated anyone before him. How crazy is that ? He's a great first boyfriend, to say the least... He's so caring and nice to me, he even lets me dress him up when I want us to wear cute matching fits ! I'm so grateful for him. Still can't really believe I pulled a guy like him ! I think I'm still trying too hard to be the best I can be just to please him sometime, but he always reminds me that I don't need to do anything for him to like me... Ayway, he's really awesome. Ezekiel, I love you so SO much !! <3
I've always had difficulty expressing myself in front of others, a kind of chronic shyness.. Making friends has always been a real puzzle. Not excluded, just silent, sweating, panicking at the slightest request. We thought it would get better as I grew up, but even as an adult, it's always the same story. That's when Judith had this bright idea to enroll me in a theater class. She swore it would do me good, that it was fun, and that it would push me to express myself. I was pretty skeptical, but she dragged me into it for a semester, with the promise that I could drop out if it didn't suit me.
That's where Nikolas made his entrance. And honestly, you can't miss Nikolas, you know? He exudes an energy of his own, with his style, his presence... It was a bit intimidating to become friends with someone so elegant. Alongside him, the theater sessions flew by, and we even ended up sharing roles. Sometimes, I found him a bit strange in his way of being, I was afraid of making him uncomfortable. It's thanks to my sister that I understood what was going on. How could I have missed the signs? Honestly, I don't know, maybe it's the lack of experience. Since Nikolas has been in my life, I feel more open, ready to embrace the new without fear. It may be a bit simple, even clichΓ©, but his energy spills over onto me, dispelling my fears, and I let myself be carried away with him. He's fantastic, and every smile that lights up his face brings out mine. I love you too, Nikolas. <3