Jasper Aleson's Links
He's got a dangerously loud mouth. Even if what he's been throwing around right now *is* something that I think isn't that big of a deal, its the disregard for people's privacy that bothers me. He does some things that seem pretty shady, too. I don't know. I *wanted* to trust him, but there are a lot of things in the way of me doing that right now.
I wish he wasn't so ... whipped up in Rowe's business. He could be very intelligent and productive if that were not the case, but unfortunately he's let his feelings get the best of him and because of that he's very stupid. I wish I could talk to him in an objective manner. We could both benefit from that quite a bit. Until he's more rational, though, I don't think I will be able to get along with him any time soon, unfortunately.
He keeps to himself and to his friends, which is fine. We only just met him. He's one of Khaos' friends, so I don't expect us to get very close. I had my doubts on whether or not he and Khaos were actually friends or if it was another case of Khaos falling for someone who is trouble, but it seems like they actually have a good history with each other, so I've stopped caring.
I'll be honest, I've heard about how Jasper's treated Khaos, so I'm not a huge fan of him by any means. The guy's smart, sure. But I don't care much about all that. Until he apologizes to Khaos and Khaos feels like forgiving him, I don't see myself caring about him too much.
I didn't trust him at first because he acted extremely suspiciously. That resulted in me treating him poorly. He doesn't like me for it, and I don't blame him. I still don't like him much either, but for other reasons. He's immature and his impulsive decisions scare me. I'm also scared that because I've seen him be vindictive before, that he will do something that will end up hurting me a great deal. I've not apologized for my past actions, but I feel it's inappropriate to do so at this time.
If Jasper disappeared I would simply not care! Not to say that I'd kill him myself, but... God! He's so fucking annoying and mean! Talk about a guy who's so full of himself just because he's smart and knows things that other people don't! I get that he has problems, but we all do!! I don't care anymore about "his problems". I'm also sick of people kissing his ass all the time just because he does know all these big and important things! He treats so many people like shit and it pisses me off! Both Blain and Scorn held him up on some sort of idol pedestal but what do they get? Him either ignoring them or, in Scorn's case, yelling at her for things all the time! I kinda got over what he did to me, and would actually be over it if he weren't consistently a piece of shit to people I care about. I'll just keep on keeping my distance from him or whatever... I just can't wait until this is all over and I never have to see him ever again!
He's very intelligent and observant, but we never got close. He spent a lot of time with Scorn, which I was thankful for because he kept an eye on her when I wasn't.
I think that his recent decision was a little stupid, although I can't entirely blame him for it. I guess if your god says go, you go, but it really seems like horrible timing and a suicide mission. But maybe that's what holy work is all about. I wouldn't know.
Jasper is horribly stressed and poorly adjusted because of it. I don't know how to console him, and I don't think he would have let me, which is why I requested Allyrric to talk to him. I am hoping some sort of therapy and guidance could help him in healing and therefore becoming that good person that I know he is deep underneath all of the fear and hatred that he harbors.
I don't like that he came to us for help, especially to Elysion. I'm glad that his plan wasn't a trap, and I'm coming to terms to what that means for our working relationship. I worry that things will take a turn for the worse with him around, but now with Ifitri here... Will he? He had us go so out of our way to bring him back, and I know Ifitri won't allow him to do anything truly horrible ... So is he being genuine?
I don't like how much he knows about everything going on, so I'm not inclined to tell him anything more. He's one of the very few people that know the truth about me and my history with Reinhardt and Ifitri, as well as it seems he and Elysion are once again friends. He's dangerous to me, so I plan to continue keeping him at a distance. I do trust him to be one of my best chances to staying safe at the moment, though, so I don't plan on keeping him from that.
I care about her, she's young and still learning about the world, herself, and how those two things will intertwine. I know that I've shown her favour, and why. I do feel badly about that sometimes, and I plan to apologize for that in time.
He's kind, smart. I quite enjoy his company, even if he can be rather rash sometimes. Still, out of everyone I have ever met...he's certainly been one of the better ones.
The daughter of Ifitri. I know that Elysion has headaches regarding her. She definitely seems to have that... brash youthfulness to her.
Annoying. Very much full of himself and uncooperative. I wanted to help him but I found it difficult to do so with his attitude.
I am terrified of him. I am uncertain of what he is all capable if he's already done all of this, and that's the scariest part of it all. I wish that I had continued to stay in those bushes during all of that, I didn't know that it was going to have real consequences, I thought everything there was just an illusionary dream to get a point across.
As much as I didn't like him, I wonder how he is doing nowadays. I can't help but hope he isn't too badly off during all of this.
Elysion is a good friend of mine. He's had my back more often, and longer than anyone else that I can remember and I cannot thank him enough for it. He's kept me from a dark place purely by being there for me. I hope that I am able repay him, as well as to continue to be his friend in the future.
I can't help but have a deep feeling of loss and regret in regards to Dask. I feel like I missed out on a friendship or... something... Even if we were supposedly to be enemies. I just feel like that's not true.
Cain. Where would I be without Cain? Truly, I think I would be dead many times over. He's been support to our group since the beginning, and a friend to me for years. I didn't appreciate him at first, but now that I've learned to trust him, I've found a deep appreciation for him. My feelings for him are strong, and they scare me at times, because the thought of losing him is something I don't ever want to see come to pass. I trust him without question.
My feelings towards him are complicated. I wish I could open myself up to liking him more, and perhaps with time, now that things have changed, I can. I feel a deep sense of sorrow for him, something I'll never let him know, he doesn't need me pitying him. I still stand my distaste of him all those years back, though.
I'm glad he's dead. I'm still shook up about the fact that he didn't seem to be, but perhaps that was just a tactful manifestation conjured to do emotional damage alongside physical. I don't want to believe that he's still out there.
It's always a terrible thing to admit to myself that I'm glad certain people are dead, and he had joined the list recently. He never treated any of us with respect, and in the situation we were in, that was dangerous.