AmarantaYuuki's Bulletins
Hello all!
As you may or may not have noticed, I have not been active for the past w h i l e. There have been a lot of changes in my health and life; I'll follow up with detail, but in summary:
- I was very depressed and went into internet hiding, but now am back
- I am not doing as much art, due to my health problems.
- I have too many creative braincells though, so I've developed some new skills!
- I am no longer active in the Closed Species community, or on DeviantArt, but Aelisin still exists.
- All my designs are still mine, all my characters are still mine, so credit me appropriately or I'll steal your kneecaps.
- You can now find me elsewhere, creating various new forms of chaos.
Trigger Warning: Some discussion of cancer, depression, and death
My Health VS My Art
As much as I love art and drawing, it just isn't feasible for me to do at the scale and rate I used to. Due to my increasing symptoms of fibromyalgia, I experience a lot of pain in my joints, including my wrists and fingers, which makes doing art the way I was previously no longer possible. I still like to draw, but have altered my style a lot to fit what I am physically able to manage doing.
However, I do still really love to create things, and so I've found a new outlet for my creativity in VRoid and digital fashion. I've been running a Booth shop for about a year, but was unsure if I should connect it with my old art, as it is something very different. As you may know from my costume designs for my OCs, I've always liked designing clothes, and this has been a fun adventure of trying to make my 2D ideas into 3D outfits.
Why Did I Vanish into the Ether?
I have also had to stop working normally due to my health, with my symptoms having reached a point where it isn't safe for me to drive, and I often have a lot of trouble moving around. I still wanted to be able to connect to the world and interact with people, but a lot of life and family changes were also happening at the same time, and I was struggling severely with depression. My mother had been diagnosed with brain cancer during Covid lockdowns, and passed away just after my birthday in 2021. I was devastated, as was the rest of my family, and no one in our house was in a good mental place. In order to feel safe, I pretty much shut down all my social media, and went radio silent on everyone but my closest friends for several months.
Not everyone was meant to be ghosted though, but because the universe likes to add insult to injury, I got locked out of my Discord during the big update error, and had to make a new one. .-. I tried to contact some people through Instagram, but honestly forgot that maybe I could use Toyhouse to find some of my mutuals, since I had pretty much deleted all my bookmarks and was pretending I didn't exist. I am still a hot mess, but no longer hiding in a cave.
So, if you want to get in contact with me again, here is my new Discord ID: cyberlyri . I would genuinely love to talk to yall. <3
What Have I Been Up To?
Being a VTuber? It kinda just happened. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I started playing with VRoid Studio when my mom was sick, as a way to make MMD models without Blender, cause Blender scared me. :/ I needed a new hyperfixation to avoid the depression, and I decided it was going to be MikuMikuDance. While delving into VRoid, as I avoided all other forms of socialization, I did start to meet a few people who were also designing VRoid clothing. I made a couple new friends, and then I became aware of VTubing as a community through those using the program for their models. It took a few months after my mom passed away, but I started to be interested in interacting with people again, so I looked more into what my friends were doing, and found it really fascinating the way VTubing was exploding in popularity at the time.
MMD -> VRoid Studio -> VTubing
I made myself a simple model and tried a little bit of streaming with it, typical low quality, first try stuff. But I did enjoy it, and my new friends were very supportive of me trying some more ambitious streams. So once I felt confident in my model designing, I made a better one for myself, a new logo and assets, and decided to give it a proper whirl. During this time I honestly almost completely forgot about all of my previous projects. I felt completely immersed and fixated on this new world, and threw all my time and energy into it. The idea of something that could give me purpose, and maybe even a little income, despite being stuck at home and unable to move properly, yet still be part of the things I liked, like art and games, was so exciting.
Once I got myself into a rhythm though, I did slowly start to realize how much time had really gone by. My entire family had sort of been in a limbo, where time didn't exist, and we were all dealing with grief in our own ways. But after my mom's death anniversary, we were starting to come out of it and try to function as normal human beings again.
So Why Am I 'Back?'
I'm kind of not, sort of am. It was ArtFight this year that made me realize how long it had been since I interacted with the art community I used to be so entrenched in. Also, that I missed it. My relationship with art is different, and I've had some new changes of thought process and opinions around some of my creations and communities I was part of, but I don't want to leave everything I've done abandoned. For a while, I couldn't even look at my old art without feeling depressed about how I couldn't do that well anymore, but I feel more comfortable with the changes in my life now. Still sad about it, of course, but I can look at my old pieces without crying, so we're doing great. 0w0
What Now? Regarding My Species and Characters
I obviously had a lot going on here, and on DeviantArt. I still love all of the projects and species I created, and my OCs are still my wonderful children, and I love them too. However, I no longer feel attached to the Closed Species format. Having spent time away from obsessing over it, I've realized that I don't love it that much. I think that overall, it can be really interesting, and some species come with enough individuality in their traits and unique lore, that it feels worth it (For example, I always enjoyed the depth of the world of Pakkeli). It's also a valid way to encourage people to not steal a truly original concept that you want to use for writing or other projects.
But a lot of other CS seem to be simple traits used as an excuse to call something more exclusive and valuable, and that makes me a bit uncomfortable. It's hard to not step on anyone's toes when there are literally So Many out there, many of them very similar to each other. Despite the fact that I worked hard to make all of the species I designed very unique, I don't really want them to be labeled with the "Closed Species" concept anymore. The lore and content of the species I made is still intact, and I still love the world I made for them, but I won't be creating Adopts or calling them Closed Species anymore.
If you already own a character from one of those species, you are welcome to continue using the Aelisin lore and species canon as a source of inspiration. You are also welcome to make changes that go against that canon. Either way, please continue to give credit to me in some way when creating or commissioning content! Some of the species may be adapted in the future, to connect with new lore I've made for the world of my VRoid characters, and I am considering trying to make some of my favorite art OCs into models that I could use in my MMD content.
What Now? Regarding Me in General
I will be continuing to mostly focus on my VTubing schedule and creation of related content, but wanted to try and address things I had abandoned. I loved the time I spent on DA obsessing over CS and adopts, I don't regret any of the lovely characters I bought or made, and I miss talking to my various art mutuals! All of that is for sure, even though my focus has changed now. I don't really like DeviantArt's sus new AI thing, so I'm not using that to post art anymore, but I am posting things on Tumblr, so you can follow me there if you like. Tumblr is sus too, but at least they're very open about it. XD
I don't have the spoons to individually contact Every Single Person I knew from DA, but I will be messaging some people to try to reconnect. I totally understand if you go 'who tf is this,' seeing as it's been a Hot Minute and a half since I talked to anyone here, and I won't be offended if you aren't interested! I appreciate if anyone is willing to try chatting and interacting again, but no one is obligated to. If you feel like it though, you can hit me up and tell me what you've been up to while I was lost in the Void, I'd love to hear about it.
Stay safe and wishing you all the good vibes!
- Me
Charahub, where I've long kept lots of my unfinished character bios and old OCs, is shutting down soon, so I'm mass-transferring all my characters over to toyhouse! I'm sorry that you'll have lots of notifs from me in the next few days. <3
This is just a lil reminder that if you draw or commission someone to draw a character I made for you I really appreciate a tag!
I'm AmarantaYuuki on literally everything.
Twitter, Instagram, DeviantArt, Toyhouse
Who takes ten years to finish trades? I take ten years to finish trades!
I'm so sorry to anyone waiting, college has been kicking my butt lately. I hope to get all my art done soon.
Take a look at my Unpaired folder to see all the babs currently open for partners. Below are a few of my favorites that I really want to pair off.
Fantasy/Human
https://toyhou.se/1732852.lotus
https://toyhou.se/1115601.shauni
CS
https://toyhou.se/1029138.elrinia
Aelisin Species
Which is your favorite Species?
UPDATED COMPENDIUM OF AELISIN SPECIES
| SPECIES | STATUS |
| Leiryn | Closed |
| Heilyuu | Semi-Open |
| Little Painters | Closed |
| Yamiko | Closed |
| Chiyoha and Kejiha | Closed |
| Meridinas | Closed |
| USB Babies | Semi-Open |
| Sketchibis | Semi-Open |
A whole butt ton of cheap costumes available for your characters in need of an expanded wardrobe.
I draw too many outfits XD
Here: http://amarantayuuki.deviantart.com/gallery/63041597/Adopts
There's a few cheap characters floating around in there too from my closed species.