I gotta remember to check in every once in a while. My birthday was earlier this month and thankfully everyone at my work forgor 💀 I share a birthday with someone else so they celebrated hers instead. I got my obligatory birthday card a week later with an apology for forgetting lmaoo
One of my supervisors said something shitty to me about my performance and I’ve come to the conclusion that he is right. I’m currently filling in for people  who got fired so as long as I’m doing the bare minimum (because they weren’t) I automatically look like I’m doing amazing work. He’s right, and I should immediately stop doing MORE than the bare minimum 😊 so that’s gonna happen lmao. And here I was pushing myself :p

I am feeling a bit sick tho, but it’s the weather change I think. Hopefully it doesn’t actually make me sick.

I got a cute jacket with thumb holes in it. I never went through this phase, maybe it’s my goth awakening finally

I made a new tumblr for reasons and I haven’t posted anything, just editing my blog appearance and I got shadowbanned. They haven’t replied to my ticket yet…can you believe…the audacity.. smh my head..

Hurt my already hurt hand at work yesterday, no manager on site to actually help me file a work injury report so I didn’t file one lol. It doesn’t matter that much, I got what I needed to treat it better at walmar, just wish it wasn’t an extra injury on my right hand 😂 gdi idk how many times I have to tell them I don’t have the strength anymore to do heavy lifting before they realize I can’t do heavy lifting
Like I was already being so careful and not doing extra chores or drawing really and now this 😂 save me

in other news flightrising is my only salvation of stress relief and Kai has finally played Detroit: become human because it’s free to play on the PlayStation if you have Plus. And they really liked it :))) so I guess I’m back into that lmao oops love androids,,,

I don’t even know how to begin to explain the disdain I am feeling day to day. My entire management team at work failed me in the worst way possible, broke my trust, and now I’m in trouble for their folly. So much so that I could lose my job…all because of them. I’ve been so hung up about it since last week, sick to my stomach, it pervades my mind while I’m stressed out about making sure my partner is healing correctly from their surgery, and while my hands (both of them this time) are in bad shape from work. With carpal tunnel making it difficult for me to lift anything with either of my hands and my injured whatever in my right, not to mention overworking my fingers from busting my ass just to have my managers tell me to my face that I’m…just not that good. Like. I know I am literally one of a handful of people at my job who are the actual backbone..the people keeping the damn store clean, organized, running, the customers happy and well informed. (I work at a thrift store, so it’s a bit different than retail) it’s just so disheartening to work SO hard for a company you already know doesn’t care about you and be told to your face that you’re just whatever….anyway. I’m convinced my bosses hate me so :)))) I guess we’ll see where this leads me. I always keep to myself at work, I don’t argue with anyone, and I spend all my “free” time at work helping customers. I know I do good work. Just wish it was recognized 😔 

On the plus side……Elden ring dlc, huh? And new Pokémon legends? Both very good things I wish I could be way happier about. I’m over the moon internally about going back to kalos. And the dlc for Elden ring looks so fun and pretty, I can’t wait to explore 😭 does anyone else play/have ocs for dark souls games? I have a few, and I’m wanting to design another tarnished that’s basically just the blue dancer starter pack but he’s so cute so how could I resist lol…would love to maybe think about some low effort low stress art trades, my hands are still killing me but I yearn to draw. Been legit crying after work because I haven’t felt well enough to do it ;; 

I’m out here trying my best to get out of my shell so I’m not so scared to do these things 😭 

My VGen is open and I have 5~10$ comms open if anyone is interested in supporting me 💕
https://vgen.co/Kaleyedascope

I’ll be streaming some art here in a little bit, just to finish up some art trades. If I’m quick enough I may start on some dark souls fanart/possible merch. No audio and no chat, but if you wanna come hang out you can! This would just be my second time streaming,,, thinking about doing request streams or something down the line!
https://www.twitch.tv/rounsfell 

Edit: stream is over, thanks to anyone who stopped by!

I finally kind of set up my vgen, if anyone wants to check it out! I won’t be able to add more services until I’m verified, so until then 🤷

https://vgen.co/Kaleyedascope 

Happy holidays and well wishes! Hope you’re all doing well. Let’s get through the end of the year together 💪 

Been thinking about taking some very limited, very experimental commissions recently. Like 5~15$ design customs, and also like Pokémon trainer art…I’ve been itching to draw more trainers in cool outfits (like I kinda want to design clothes!!) but I get overwhelmed with my own stuff hh the comms would likely be you give me some kind of vague idea, I draw like 3 versions of what you want and you get to choose which one you like. If you want one of the other designs you can buy it for a discounted price... the ones not chosen will get sold as adopts. That’s how I’ve done customs in the past, and I found it to be a bit more fun and freeing 😭 if you end up not liking any of them I’ll just make another set too lol

if any of you have Pokémon trainers or WANT one like…hit me up? I’d love to do some interactions, scenes or whatnot and if you’re interested, interactions with my own Pokémon trainers and stuff! 

Was reading a thread on Twitter over dinner about people sending anon hate and subsequently feeling shame or guilt. Seeing so many people share similar experiences and talking about apologizing, or that they were apologized to years later. :( some people can be really mean. If you’ve ever gotten anonymous (or not) hate in the past, for your art, writing, or even just you, you’re not alone and I hope you can heal the wounds in time. 

Some people don’t understand that when you are speaking to people, anywhere, they are just like you. Complicated and worthy of love and care. 

Please be kind to yourself and others 💕 

So the new dlc, huh

Anyway, loved it to bits. Very excited for the next wave. Got me into playing again now that things have calmed down a bit. I started a new file on ultra moon to play as one of my ocs but my uh. Hand literally hurts me to hold the ds Soooo gaming has been limited lmao (hurt my hand a bit at work and went home crying so yknow)

I have a million and 1 ideas for adopts and stuff so I’d LOVE it if anyone reading this would be inclined to tell me what YOU loved about the dlc, new mons, etc because!! Good lord sinischa/poltchageist and ogerpon hello?? Dipplin???

I still love digimon tho don’t get me wrong lol…

While my girlfriend is recovering, I started playing digimon cyber sleuth hackers memory (I would’ve just played cyber sleuth but she’s played it twice already a while ago and I wanted to give her something new lol) and its been fun!! I didn’t know it was essentially a dating sim, and I am absolutely here for dating everyone. Also some of my fav VAs are in it? I just got to Jimmy Ken, I was waiting with bated breath to see if he’d make an appearance and I was not disappointed lol (I’ll be honest I remember very few things from Cyber Sleuth but Jimmy Ken was very much one of them… Mephisto’s award winning “accounto“ meltdown is the other one) 

Besides that I’ve been thinking about making games again… 😭 maybe when Kai is feeling better I’ll try to buckle down on making merch and working on a small game finally. But first, cleaning out the other room..maybe I can put a dent in it next weekend when she’s finished with her antibiotics :’) it feels like I’ve got a lot going on but I really don’t I just feel overwhelmed (at my own choices? Hella.) anyway rambles over, hope y’all doing well