Bulletin 0013: Where in the Merry Hell have I been?

Greetings Everyone

This is N115X, and I wanted to make this update to fill in those who think I have left. I did. But it was always in the short term. Ever since the start of this year I had been dealing with a severe level of burnout I hadn't experienced before. Normally I would just swallow the pride and push on, but this is years of pushing on that finally caught up. I'm talking almost a decade and a half of creating that needed to take a back seat for the sake of my sanity and my health.

Nevermind that the stresses of life also weighed me down and ultimately ..it all just kinda became too much. So, while I am still here and still coming back, I just really need this break because it has pushed me to the point of anger toward the lack of progress, anger toward family members, hatred for myself, and the anxiety of the reactions that could come out of it have shut my intent to draw and post down. 

Every. Freaking. Time.

I will make every effort I can to get back into the swing of things, but I ask that you give me time to get reaccustomed to it.

In the meantime, for my Sonic AU, "Pax Ex Machina", I will be reinventing and redesigning canon characters into this AU I'm talking from the games both main and obscure, scrapped concepts, comic characters, TV shows...manga...if it existed, it is possible. Now, not every character I see will be included, as that is impossible. But, I will do my best.

I also have more groups of interest to add, more lore to the Terabytians....but most importantly, to Raven himself. His story will be something that I have been wanting to do for a very long time...but never knew how to address it or write it properly without it coming off as cringe or weak, at least to me.

I can only apologize if it feels like I packed up and left like a con artist. That was never the goal or the impression and I am so sorry. But I am so tired, folks. So very tired. None of this is for sympathy or pity, as I personally hate that because it won't be taken seriously. It will just be ignored as seen as melodrama or crying for empathy that I honestly don't feel like I deserve at this moment, let alone for leaving the way I did. I just...needed to get this off my chest and well, just talk to someone, anyone.

This is everything for now. Take care and stay safe and sane.