Greetings, this is Vesper, or the NamelessArtist. After having my anxiety spike once again because of me simply forgetting a password this has shown me that the events of April are still effecting me. I have been even constantly checking my accounts log ins and it’s becoming overwhelming. Just sitting by myself currently in the quiet is killing me. 

To my long time friends, I’m sorry if I have seem distant or ignoring you, I have been staying in voice calls in other servers just because hearing others is what is keeping me sane at this rate. I don’t know if I’ll recover from this but I have come to terms with what I will be doing.

If I loose anything or come close to? I’m done, I’m so fucken done. I will drop all my socials, my games, everything. I’m done with this feeling of anxiety and paranoia. As for the mean time? I just need time, I need to breathe. If you my friends are on discord calls I can definitely join in if you want to speak. But I can’t handle the silence anymore, not even my own music feels safe anymore as with all the recent data breaches and hacks. Fuck, even Spotify is dealing with hackers replacing music with ai slop. Then Discord bugs limiting accounts for no reason? Its too much…

I am already on the verge of dropping from college thanks to financial stress and the fact I was no way prepared for college thanks to the shitty school systems in high school. I want to finish my higher education yes but I am not willing to break my back for the rest of my life because of a school saying “give us basically millions of dollars for information about jobs that will be taken by the older generations or robots by the time your done!” 

As for my art? I haven’t been posting anything yet. As for artfight I’m not even sure if I’m feeling up to it anymore..I may just do any revenges from last year and that’s it. I really just need time to think…I want to work on my stories, I want to make more characters. But if that means another website and account? No. If I go through with leaving social media, I will personally dm all artists still active with accounts on here to talk about characters they have made that I have received or bought.