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Hey all, it's been a while since I last spoke here, I just wanted to give a quick update on how I've been holding up in reference my past bulletin. Thank you all so so much for the all the donations, kind words and spread,, seriously, I'm so greatful and it really means the whole world to me that I was able to get the help I needed ;o;,, <3 Again, it was a really hard and stressful choice for me to build the courage to even reach out for help given my circumstances and insecurities,, but with that I was able to build up a lot of courage to reach out to other members of my family about the situation and they were able to help me out financially as well in the long run,,
As now I think it's safe to say that I'm much better holding down on my finances and being more stable with it, I was able to pay off my credit card, mom is finally back home from training, the semester is almost over, and Thanksgiving and Christmas break are coming up soon so I'll be able to get more work hours in and rebuild my income; overall I think things will settle themselves out very soon-- I'm also currently planning out my last semester classes before graduation so that I won't be stuck commuting to college every day of the week and so far,, it's looking OK so far :'D!
On the downside unfortunately my car insurance bill went up this past week, but not by a huge margin so I should still be okay with handling it on my own!
I haven't been drawing lately due to school taking most of my time, but I'm hoping to work on art examples and opening up commissions in the near future if I ever get the time for it as means of extra income!
Again I want to give thanks to everyone that helped, words cannot express how thankful and greatful to have friends, mutuals and family that are so kind ;;,, I was not expecting a lot of the help that I was able to recieve,, aaa it means so much,,
here's a new little species that just got announced, please check it out! ^^// https://toyhou.se/~bulletins/1526265.amoebuds-launch-announcement-myo-event-raffle
Hey there, I'm so sorry for this sudden long post. I really don't like talking about my personal life and issues online as it gives me so much anxiety of being this open and vunerable, but currently my living enviornment, college and financial securities have been stressing me out and gradually getting worse these past few months that I felt that I needed to force myself to break through my anxiety to make a bulletin,, as a way to reach out for any sort of help that I can possibly get as much as I hate burdening myself on others,,
I'm currently stuck in a deep financial hole due to irl issues that happened that I'm trying to recover from, and it's making me really worry in trying to figure out things in regards to my financial stability on top of me still having to pay my own monthy bills that exceed way over what I make on my paycheck, altogether my monthly bills are about $481-482 per month (car bill + insurance) not counting the financial situation I'm currently dealing with. I'm only making $9 an hour, part-time, at my job and for the past few months corporate has been fluctuating and cutting down my co-workers hours and mine as well, so my pay has lower than it's supposed to be, and now especially it's especially lower, due to my working days being cut down by a lot (I used to work around 5-4 days a week before starting back) to only working the weekends due to starting being back in college and dealing with the finances associated with that, I've been struggling to keep myself financially stable on my own due to everything going on. I'm barely making around $230-$240 (when I used to make around $350 before starting back) on my paychecks which is barely covering my bills,, and said bills have been slowly draining my savings little by little before all this this and now by a larger margin.
I'll go into more of the details under the spoiler toggle about how my living situation has been like and what I've been dealing with financially, but it's totally okay if you want to read it or not, I just felt like it's needed to be be known in order to understand the situation a bit more.
(TW: death mention, health neglect, financial/job/college struggles)
In the past year since dad passed, finances have been very tough, i had been able to keep myself stable for a while but since august things have gone really down hill since May of this year and starting back college back in August,, back in May after finishing my last semester my mom left out-of-state for a whole year for training due to being military and i’ve been left to take care of the house, my job, and all 5 of our pets and when school started back up I've been trying to juggle between all my responsibilities and it's taken a huge toll on my mental health. With my college situation, my class schedule is awful and I had no control over my schedule due to how limited my classes were getting due to being a undergrad senior now,, I'm stuck commuting to campus 5 days per week driving about 2 hours for classes having to pay around $60 for each week depending on how empty my tank gets to get to school,, and I'm in no situation to live/afford living in a dorm due to mom being gone and my overall income in general. And just the other week while on campus I had lost my car keys on campus and couldn't find them no matter where i looked, i even went to the police station that was on the camous but with no luck,, so i was stranded and forced to call a locksmith to make and program a single key for $350 which costed way more because I didn't have AAA insurance as I couldn't afford it,, I've been trying to pay this off as much as I can since I used my credit card for it but because I am also needing to use my card for gas it's been adding up and up with how much I have to spend to get to school and back + additional school material and fees that weren't included in tuition I had to pay for also,, not to mention I had an accident last year and my car insurance went up a lot more than it used to,,
Just the other day my professor said we have to by a molecular kit when it wasn't previously stated before for future lecture so now I need to buy that too and probasbly using my credit card again,,
Currently my bank account only has $700,, and my next bill of $213 for my car insurance is about to come out in 3 days so overall I'm gonna have little over $450 left in my savings,, it really freaking sucks and stressing me out how life's been going and right now due to all the finances I owe about $500 on my credit card from the locksmitch + gas and college fees,, and probably more since my credit statement hasn't updated currently,, as i've been depending on my credit card because I'm trying to avoid spending anymore from my debit directly from my bank direclty to at least have some sort of control over my money management to some degreeand save some money and pay off my credit card,, but with all the bills and lower pay it's been very rough to pretty much impossible and i just don't know if i can,, i'm dependent on my mom for helping me with grocery money since she's offered me before leaving out state she knows I make much less than her so at least there's some support,, so I depend on her paycheck to even get groceries and the amount she sends me isn't muchbut I try to mangage with it,, but lately (even before all of this) I had many circumstances that I've had to practically starve myself and just drink water to avoid using my money as much as I could just to cover bills and neglect my own health and needs,, it's just horrible and it's been making my life rough
it's really making me question if i should even continue school all as this is affecting my education and health,, i really don't want to quit given how i'm planned to graduate this spring if everything goes well,, but i just don't know if i'll be able to or even afford to pay my regular bills with how finances are heading ;; and i don't think my mom understands how much of a bind i'm in that i don't think i can pay my bills much longer due to my job cutting hours and my pay being less than my bill amount to begin with,, she simply tells me that if i have the money to pay my bills then i have the money to pay them and i'm "fine" and that's it she doesn't even view my job as a "real job" even though it is.
i just don't know what to do, i feel hopeless,, i just want to be safe, secure and stop living like this, i want to keep doing what i love to do,,
Apologies again for the long vent,, I just really hate asking for help like this as it makes me feel awful,, I really don't have much I can do, so I'm asking for anyone to consider some sort of financial support or anything that can help me get through this rough patch,, I'd very much appreciate anyone sharing and spreading this bulletin around for any sort of help ;;
I'm gonna try and work through this as much as I can without having to rely too much on others as it's my responsibility,,
For anyone that'd like to donate anything, you can do it here:
https://paypal.me/flowerpaws291
https://ko-fi.com/gardenias35552
I also am willing to open some commissions too, but please understand that with the circumstances and my schedule it's going to be a long wait time and other art I need to do when I have the time, but if you are interested you can leave a comment in this bulletin or message me through DMs!
Commission info can be found here (examples are outdated though): https://docs.google.com/document/d/1zR90PsANz7EsENjep3pFqaMXgRfyJr9LjP3Aycz-_Pc/edit?usp=sharing
Also as much as I don't want to get rid of them, as I care about these guys very much,, I also have these characters here that I'm tentatively looking at resales for:
https://toyhou.se/11132348.220-320 - (MORE ACTIVELY RESELLING OVER THE REST LISTED)
https://toyhou.se/14117586.-gummi- - (EXTREMELEY TENT.)
https://toyhou.se/6281250.sanke - (EXTREMELETY TENT.)
https://toyhou.se/22475918.apple - (EXTREMELEY TENT.)
Please undersand if i don't accept offers on gummi, sanke or apple, i love them very much and have intentions on using them,, again thank you all so much for giving your time reading all this ;0;//