i wanted to put my life updates all in one post, since i'm getting ready to actually post about my creative work soon (need to get some things in order first!) and i don't want to muddy the waters there.

life stuff

i went through a break-up last month, and that's been fucking with my head a lot. we were together two and a half years and i still love her. i don't know if i'll ever stop loving her.

at the risk of getting too personal and also melodramatic, suddenly splitting away from someone you built so much with together is like mourning and dying at the same time.

she was never very active on toyhou.se, but i do have some mutuals who are friends with her on discord. i don't mind if you keep talking to her, that's well within your right.

i don't really know what to do with myself at the moment besides create. hopefully in my art, i can find the answer.

in the meantime, i'm finally back on medications. i have stable access to a psychologist, and i'll probably be resuming therapy soon.

i'm anxious a lot, maybe even paranoid, and i anticipate involuntary hospitalization to happen sooner rather than later. if i go dark on discord, it's safe to assume that happened.

i do have some very close friends who are helping me through this, which i'm so grateful for. especially since they all have their own bullshit to deal with. they don't use this site, and they'll probably never read this, but i genuinely can't thank them enough for that.

TL;DR

shit hit the fan, dude. i just wish i had something funny to say about it.

art, writing, and coding updates hopefully soon. i'm sorry that i can't guarantee when.

fuck, shit, and other such expletives!
×× FRANKIE "MISERY" MAW 🕱⛧