hi gamers

i have been so inactive. at least in terms of the arbitrary standards i put in place for myself. i am also so busy. ACK.

cool things i have been getting up to:
> finishing up my uni semester
> job search for my BBG web dev<3
> HOUSE. HUNTING.

^ those things are time-consuming. and stressful. i am most certainly spending my free time dissolving into a couch and trying to RELAX. but alas my body does not have an off button.
anyway i want to talk abt those things because i am the most important person in the universe. as you all know.

HOUSE HUNTING IS FUN. i enjoy it. i cannot go into any specifics for obvious reasons but like. omg. living in and owning a home at 24 will be cool i guess. my realtor is very chill. also for whatever god damn reason basements around here are built so fucking small in terms of verticality. my head was about to start making out with some cobwebs. GROSS.
otherwise tho. i think once me and the bf decide on something i will officially have no fucking clue what to do with myself. like.... idk. we are both speedrunning the adult things and that is cool but what am i supposed to aspire to do when i am like 35. RUNNING OUT OF SHIT TO ACCOMPLISH I GUESS LMFAO.

job search is so cool. web dev can branch into like 2 billion different jobs. i want to do at least one billion of those two billion. i am kind of mortified for javascript technical interviews if i do end up doing those tho. god i am so allergic to javascript she is so UGLY and PUTRID. but also a necessary evil. ill probably bald if i have to be a full stack dev tho id be so mad. do not make me touch The Fucking Stack. im excited regardless tho. like whoo. contributing to society and not being bound by school anymore. awesome.

uni. dear god i am almost done with uni. i am so close to being free from a few of my weekly adhd nightmares. never touching homework ever again will be so fucking splendid. no more last minute nearly shitting my brains out in caffeine-induced agony. i am so burnt out. i took 18 credits this semester. i am taking like. 4? 6? next semester. shit will literally be so easy.

other stuff. UH. i am doing owed art at a pace i enjoy and i like how that is impacting the quality of my stuff. im super excited to finish something i am working on it is lookin so awesome. also im trying to go out of my way and draw more traditional shit. i went to my moms over thanksgiving to pick up some of my shit (most of it was just... art stuff i guess) and i remembered that i do enjoy the novelty of trad art. went ahead and grabbed some gouache cos i think it works well with how my workflow goes. i just have not had the time to FINISH anything traditional. girl help. but i like gouache from what i have experienced thus far.
also i have been playing the new lego fortnite gamemode and it is so awesome with my beloved homies. nothing is sweeter than being in a discord call and hearing one of your friends fucking scream because they got rolled over by a crab.
ALSO ALSO. i decided to paint my nails like. two weeks ago LMFAO. and it was fun and cool. not something id usually do because my brain is evil but i am genuinely surprised that i enjoyed the look of it. will probably go ahead and redo them tonight because THEY ARE GONE NOW. just a cool little thing. im not really one to go out of my way to physically express myself (damned to t shirt and sweatpants crusty transgender man drip) but that shit fr felt liberating. ALSO ITS SOMETHING TO DO WITH MY HANDS. ENJOYMENT! FULFILLMENT! ETCETERA.
TRIPLE ALSO? i called my dad for the first time in over.... a year... [DIES]. he is still insane but in a funny kind of way.

i think thats it. i just wanted to share and spread my brain thoughts. still enjoying life. just a bit busier. perhaps i will have time to draw some ed agony once winter break hits.
poll. obligatory. fun. etc. i hope everyone else is doing well during the PUTRID MONTHS OF DECEMBER WHERE SUNLIGHT CEASES TO EXIST AFTER 4PM