next day update: not able to get an appointment for the definitive procedure that'll confirm or deny a diagnosis until may 15th.... OTL

i want to try and make this quick an impersonal, sorry if its vague or confusing. i ask that you do not theorise or try and pry into the details, thank you.

long story short, im going through a bit of a medical thing rn that's kind of a lot. there's an issue i've been experiencing that has a couple of potential explanations, and one of them is a very scary diagnosis to have. i'm going through the process of tests for the scary one, as of right now, and im sure you can imagine it's stressful, both having the idea of that diagnosis over my head but also the tests themselves are very invasive and personally upsetting for me. full disclosure, i am very likely probably Fine. it's just having that on the table and getting all of these procedures done (and honestly the initial symptom itself lol) is fucking w/ me a lot. i'll probably update this when i get all the tests done to confirm it's all good later lol

i'm not like, going to halt drawing or anything - honestly i think it's a very good distraction and i like working on owed art. it's soothing to me, so if you're waiting on something, i'm not gonna like. dip from that for months. ideally everything should be wrapped up in a few weeks and i should find out whether or not its mundane or a 'yyyyikessss sorry' situation but again everythings probably fine. aprils always a rough month for me so having this kick up around the beginning of it is, for the lack of better terminology, auuuuuuuuughhghgg

i think im just asking for patience if im more floaty than usual, and a little update for anyone who i may owe anything. thats all.
i might do some raffles or something after this to make up for how many emo bulletins i've posted recently (if you saw them. no you didnt)