i fell down a little rabbit hole this morning and all ive got to show for it is melancholy and "i miss my lightdogs so fucking bad" emotions. like im fully aware that i actively made new OCS who look nothing like the dogs outside of my personal lore/themings to fill the holes that they left behind - but i miss them :( 

i also know the LD community is/was always really private but it sorta makes me sad I can't find a public profile of any of the dogs I used to own. i know i would NOT be able to ever afford to take any of them back or anything if the current owners DID have them uft/s but sometimes i just sit there and I'm like damn. i miss downer so much. (i know i sold him to an excellent home, though) and i miss the fool too.. augh..

sorry for the sentimental whining i am just having one of those "seller's remorse" type mornings.