so yayayy i finished my last exam today feeling pretty nice! thing is

I don't know if this break is helping me or not because all I do now is watch yt and plan what to watch rewatch from tv shows,, cool thing my sibs and I kinda threw a party and I made lasagna and it was p nice cus we played some games together and that usually never happens so this is probably the nicest thing that happened this week, anyways back to the break thing.. i genuinely don't think my break is helping with my mental health but I'm terrified to go back to the servers I left because I kinda feel like I'm doing decent and the social anxiety goes brrr also I say a lotta stupid thing s so that's cool B) /s 

i honestly don't know how to feel because a part of me says to just go back because I miss all da cool people but another part of me says they hate you don't go back they're gonna think you're an attention seeker,, i DONT KNOW OKAY. i literally still feel bad both ways its not getting better but I'm kind of doing fine at the same time?? 

so uh question, I know that I haven't gone away for long it was just like what 4 days?? but I don't know if it's gonna make me feel better or not because I'm scared I overvent or just bee annoying at times ;; it's hard to realize that some people actually like me because I don't get that energy a lot over here

but uh my mom is kinda back to being chill so im happy and OH also my dad ate some of my lasagnas and said its better then the restaurant one so HA that's nice :) 

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