As long as he's not being actively annoying or fussy, it's no big deal and better than making him think he should make no noise at all! I'm playing Black Desert Online, I'm not proud of it because it's an ethical mess (if you look up pictures for female classes they are literally what you would think of when objectification of female characters in video games is being talked about, race portrayal is not well thought of and there's a lot of gambling, both in game and with irl money if you go down the pay for convenience route), but the power fantasy of being an elf with explosive arrows, solving problems of any entity in that world and training your own pegasus is a lot of comfort and stress relief to say the least. I have the luxury of not having to work and family that can pick stuff off the shelves and medicate me, plus I know that as soon as I can use my arms again I will be sent to the garden to do gardening I don't like doing so there's no rush XD I have very thin cuts from what I can tell so I have good hopes for future looks, but even if I ended up having big scars I would either be fine with it or put some tattoos on them eventually.
I'll still go with the novel because it's the least amount of effort for me, despite every added issue, and actually finishing anything is the hardest part for me - I might end up never going back to it and not being happy with it, but I think a complete unplublished novel I'm not enthusiastic about is better than no novel at all ever. I also have a lot of stuff tied to my characters that I've sort of moved on from (for instance, I don't need gore as a way to catharsis as much as I did before I started HRT) so it can be awkward and difficult to revisit or change all those parts and plot points. With even more trauma tied to a character, I can only imagine it becoming harder and harder to revisit them while your life moves on and you let behind the circumstances those characters were created in. Maybe it's a matter of time, and it will be easier to get back to it when the remaining wounds won't be as sore; or it's a sign for a needed break to go on a completely different route until you're ready to go back. Different avenues sound like a good strategy for the moment, while suggestions from artists with more experience successfully getting out of blocks would probably be more useful than any advice I could give if it keeps drawing on ahah
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As long as he's not being actively annoying or fussy, it's no big deal and better than making him think he should make no noise at all! I'm playing Black Desert Online, I'm not proud of it because it's an ethical mess (if you look up pictures for female classes they are literally what you would think of when objectification of female characters in video games is being talked about, race portrayal is not well thought of and there's a lot of gambling, both in game and with irl money if you go down the pay for convenience route), but the power fantasy of being an elf with explosive arrows, solving problems of any entity in that world and training your own pegasus is a lot of comfort and stress relief to say the least. I have the luxury of not having to work and family that can pick stuff off the shelves and medicate me, plus I know that as soon as I can use my arms again I will be sent to the garden to do gardening I don't like doing so there's no rush XD I have very thin cuts from what I can tell so I have good hopes for future looks, but even if I ended up having big scars I would either be fine with it or put some tattoos on them eventually.
I'll still go with the novel because it's the least amount of effort for me, despite every added issue, and actually finishing anything is the hardest part for me - I might end up never going back to it and not being happy with it, but I think a complete unplublished novel I'm not enthusiastic about is better than no novel at all ever. I also have a lot of stuff tied to my characters that I've sort of moved on from (for instance, I don't need gore as a way to catharsis as much as I did before I started HRT) so it can be awkward and difficult to revisit or change all those parts and plot points. With even more trauma tied to a character, I can only imagine it becoming harder and harder to revisit them while your life moves on and you let behind the circumstances those characters were created in. Maybe it's a matter of time, and it will be easier to get back to it when the remaining wounds won't be as sore; or it's a sign for a needed break to go on a completely different route until you're ready to go back. Different avenues sound like a good strategy for the moment, while suggestions from artists with more experience successfully getting out of blocks would probably be more useful than any advice I could give if it keeps drawing on ahah
1 year, 8 months ago