I'm tired of bottling up. But at the same time, it certainly saves me a lot of heartache.
I don't even know what I'm doing anymore.
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I feel like I fail at everything. I wanted to have children by 28...I'm 31 and have been trying with no luck.
I wanted to be a veterinarian, but I wasn't smart enough to pass the classes I needed. What makes it worse is that I AM smart. I took Calculus in high school...I'm just not smart enough to reach my goal.
I wanted to be married. I no longer think marriage is an institution I ever want to partake in, but a partner would be nice to have. I can't even do that, though, because I always end up feeling depressed and trapped in my relationships.
Just now I tried to acquire something with great sentimental value to me and came up short. Again. I tried so hard for weeks, but every try was met with a dead end.
I just cant do anything that really matters to me. I'm just not good enough, not smart enough, not loving enough. Not enough. That's me.
Am I allowed to say how I absolutely DESPISE the recent change to hide n/a in forums? Like I understand the reason because I saw the suggestion thread but there should be an option for toggling it on/off. Now it wastes so much time to check out art games only to find I'm unable to participate because I can't see that the 'true' last poster is one of the bunch of mass-claimers that I block. While I get the reason of its implementation, not everybody is uncomfortable by seeing n/a, for some it serves as a sign to notify whether they should bother looking at the thread's last reply or not.
honestly i guess i just feel really alone? it's hard to trust anyone anymore, and i just don't feel a genuine connection to my friends like i used to. i can't get close to anyone without getting hurt and it sucks. i miss being able to trust the people i love.
All I said was that I hope it doesn't get too hot outside because I end up not feeling like doing anything, and you find that concerning because you think I was born in a country that's often hot? Then I correct you that I was born in this country and you try to defend what you said with "genes/heritage" lol
It'd be great if people could stop making assumptions based on skin colour but that's not happening (/ _ ; ) like does that automatically make me a terrorist too now? One time we were doing a thing in class about listing physical traits of the person you were paired with and someone decided I was Indian even though I'm not //
i wish i had the courage to do a lot of things, but everyday i just get more nervous at even smaller stuff, it's getting the same for a good while now
i only had myself to support me on this, and its getting very complicated at this point
my parents dont care about whats really happening, all the fault goes to me, im always the only one making mistakes here
i try to change but they seem stuck to when i was like 12
i dont even know what i am anymore, the only things i hear from them are hurtful
and i cant even defend myself
but i already did everything i could, they just dont care about it, im always wrong no matter what i say, i have no voice in here
im fucking alone in all of this, i dont even have the courage to talk to anybody about this, i always worry to hurt others with myself, i just dont want to be a bother to anybody, but not even trying to avoid that i always end up bad
its always me, the problem is always me, im always doing everything wrong
and when i try to know what i have to improve, it just gets worse, im alone in all of this, im fucking alone